Penis Doodles On The Bathroom Walls Of Impermanence

Boys

Bakit lalaki nag-fi-first move?

In Nature, mas malibog utak namin, mas programmed kami to prioritize reproduction, therefore mas malakas ang desire for a partner. Penis-oriented pero let's call it Heart-oriented, para romantic.

Meanwhile, the woman's job is to pick the best choice kasi responsibilidad niyang mag-decide kaninong genes ang karapat-dapat ipagpatuloy(this is why they deserve abortion); they're brain-oriented.

Look at the peacock and his wonderfully-colored tail. Mas bakla pa yung rampa niya kaysa sa peahen (babaeng peacock). That's because the tail of a peacock is an indicator of his health. Good health means good genes. So the peahen gets attracted to the most beautiful peacock tails.

He's fuelled by the desire of his dick este heart.
Meanwhile, she's fuelled by the desire for survival.

You can see this in our modern cyberspace. I'm not generalizing entire population of men and women, but I noticed it in our digital culture.

Women fantasize engineers and lawyers.
Men fantasize "short-haired chinita girl with glasses."

Can you see the ridiculous difference?

The former is heavily dependent on a man's title, esteem, competence, and intelligence—engineer and lawyer.

The latter is heavily dependent on a woman's physical looks—the shape of her eyes, her eyeglasses, and the length of her goddamn hair.

He's fuelled by the desire of his dick este heart.
Meanwhile, she's fuelled by the desire for survival.

Dahil nga desire fuels us, physical looks pinaka-standards namin, ergo madaling ma-turn on. Selfie mo pa lang, nasasabi na naming "Mahal na 'ata kita."

Women are more complicated than this; although nakikita mo sila sa comments section minsan na nagsasabing, "Anakan mo'ko," there's more for them than just the looks. Mas mataas at mas komplikado ang standards nila.

So a man can easily find a woman worthy to to be pursued and of the first move, but a woman can rarely find a man worthy to be pursued and of the first move.

That's why I really believe that love between opposite sex is different for both parties. You're both eating the same meal, but you're not tasting the same flavor.

The man is tasting a woman. "Yummy. Delicious."
The woman is tasting a man. "Yuck. What the fuck was that?"

That's why men are simps and try the hardest.
Women are choosers, but men are beggars.
Kaya tayo nanliligaw at sila ang namimili.

Such an unfair deal, I know, but be of good cheer; this is what shapes most men into better, interesting men.

Behind every great man is a woman that broke his heart whispering to him, "I'll never choose you," so he's like, "I'll show you that you made a bad decision for not choosing me," then he proves this claim to himself by mastering some domain. Maybe he'll create a Facebook page or something, and earn 6-digit follower count, showing her he's really funny and worthy and shit.

Pathetic.
But...

This is the same reason why were bold, daring, and audacious.  It is our first moves that teach us the courage to traverse the uncharted territories and dare our comfort zones.

When man tries his chances to a woman, not only is he courting the beautiful lady's heart, he's also courting the possibility of a humiliating rejection.

A humiliation that will teach him that he's never enough and he'll need to be better.

I remember that one time being rejected by a girl because she said I was "boring kausap." Kinuwento ko sa papa ko yung nangyari and asked him, "Pa, boring ba'kong kausap?"

No response.
He fell asleep.
I had my answer.

So I decided to change myself.
I developed social skills, I began talking to strangers and initiating small talks, I researched comedy and memorized jokes.

And after that journey, I realized, "boring talaga akong kausap, I have social anxiety, pero so what if boring ako kausap? This is me, I need no opinion of any woman."

It was an inner strength I discovered that I didn't know I had.

That's why I'm brave.
That's why I'm still single.