Gusto ko talaga ng babaeng boyfriend. Like, I want a boyfriend pero I don't want to be stabbed by a dick so I'd like a female boyfriend.
'Yan Isa sa mga fantasy ko e. Yung siya yung mas assertive, yung may masculine traits.
Lalo na yung jacket. Yung jacket talaga e. Gusto kong sinusuotan ng jacket 'pag nilalamig ako. Ang sweet siguro nun noh? Ba't ba lalaki lang gumagawa nun sa babae? Mga gender norms niyo talaga. Why not a reversal of that? Ba't 'di pwedeng ma-enjoy ng lalaki yun?
Like, halimbawa nasa malamig na bundok kami, overlooking some terrace, with huge pine trees. Ta's bigla akong manginginig dahil weak ang aking katawan against coldness. Ta's titingin siya sa'kin, and I'm so fucking blue na on the lips. And I smile at her pretending I'm fine.
Ta's huhubarin niya jacket niya isusuot sa'kin. Pero, kunwari ayaw kong suotin and sasabihin ko in a cold shivering voice, "Ka-ka-babae mo-mong tao, ikaw-kaw nami-mi-migay ng ja-jacket. Ang u-un-romantic ko na-naman."
Ta's sasabihin niya, "Dzuh, 'di ka kasi sanay sa lamig, at muk'a ka nang mamamatay o," and she'll just leave behind her white tank top, and brag, "Ako, malakas ako e. Ikaw ang hina mo," she means that, but she accepts that part of me. Then she'll continue, "Okay lang 'yan, gusto din naman kitang suotan ng jacket." Ta's titingin sa malayo, para kunwari wala talaga siyang pake sa kalagayan ko.
Ta's mag-ba-blush ako, habang sinusuot yung mabango niyang jacket. Kalalaki kong tao ta's kikiligin akong parang High School girl.
Then I'll whisper, "Uhmm... Nicole," or whatever her name is, "If... If it's not too much to ask..." Ta's titingin siya sa'kin with a sideway glance, anticipating what I'll say. "Uhmmm... hihihi nahihiya akoo." I'd stop myself; magpapabebe kasi nga ako babae sa'min.
So, like, she'll have to force me, "Ay, ano ba 'yan, pabebe naman amputa. Sabihin mo na dalii."
So I'll say it kasi she insisted na, "Uhmm... Hihihihi... nilalamig din kasi bayag ko. Pahiram ng kamay mo." Ta's ngingiti siya, at ako din.
Gano'n. Gusto ko gano'n.
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