broken butterfly

chapter 17

siyeon pov

*still in flashback*

I stayed quiet the entire ride home and hoped they would leave it be, just let me go to my room as soon as we got home, but I knew that wouldn't be the case. As soon as we got inside the house and my mom closed the door behind her and my dad started yelling at me.

"SERIOUSLY SIYEON. WE GIVE YOU EVERYTHING A GIRL YOUR AGE COULD ASK FOR AND STILL AND STILLL YOU ARE SO DISRESPECTFUL."

I looked down, not able to face my dad. Suddenly I felt a sharp pain on my cheek as a hand collided with the skin. I felt tears swell up in my eyes, but I managed to keep them in. When I looked up I saw my mom staring right into my eyes.

"You ungrateful brat." She spat into my face. "All you have to do is not cause any drama and get good grades, you can't seem to do either one of those things."

She paused for a bit.

"Sometimes I wish that we never had you."

"Go to your room and study now, me and your mom will solve your mess."

I ended up being suspended for 2 days and having to apologize to the girl. I did as they asked of me, without any protest.

When I was finally allowed back in school I met up with Yoohyeon. My cheek had a slight bruise and I told her that it was from the fight. She never asked me any questions about what happened. Come to think of it, she probably had some idea of what really happened, but knowing her, she wouldn't have wanted to pressure me...

*end of flashback*

I looked up at Dongmin as I finished my story.

"Thinking back, this was the start of all my problems. I started to feel like I wasn't good enough, like I needed to change myself. I started eating less and less, my parents noticed but only told me to make sure I didn't cause any trouble. I made sure my grades got better and tried to avoid the bullies as much as I could. Then me and Yoohyeon started high school, you know the story from there on..."

He held me tighter, trying to give me comfort. But deep inside all I wanted was to just go home and cry it out. I put my arms around him and rest my head on his shoulder, allowing him to stroke my hair while I let out soft snifs. We stayed like this for a while, until I had to go back home. I said goodbye to his parents as I walked outside and went to the bus stop. Part of me felt relieved, but I couldn't help but have a weird feeling in my stomach. I got on the bus and stared outside. I took out my earphones and listened to some music. I recognized the song I listened to with Bora that one day on the bus. I missed her, but thinking about her hurt. I wanted nothing more than to return to the way things were between us. But I just simply couldn't...she hurt me and I wasn't ready to forgive her.

Sua pov

As soon as Siyeon walked out I pulled my knees up to my chest and started crying uncontrollably. After a while I head familiar voices in the hallway, the door opened with a soft creaking noise. The voices went quiet and I felt two arms get wrapped around me. I lifted my head to see that Gahyeon sitting next to me on the bed, not giving any indication of letting go of me any time soon. I let my sobs quiet down as the girls looked at me, their eyes filled with worry. Minji walked up to me and took my hand into her hands.

"What happened? Did u..."

She couldn't even finish her sentence.

I didn't know what to say. I couldn't have...right?

"I...I don't know. I can't remember anything. I was hoping you guys would be able to tell me what happened."

Minji sat down in the chair where Siyeon had sat before. I missed her. All I wanted was for her to come back.

"Well..." Minji started "you were dancing and tripped over a cup. Some idiots who had been staring at you started laughing and you ran away. We followed you and you wanted to be alone for a bit so we left you. Later on Dongmin went to check on you, everything was still fine when he came back to us. Then we heard screams. We followed them and found you unconscious."

I let everything sink in. The memories of last night slowly started to return.

"I think I remember the part of me dancing and making a fool out of myself. But I can't remember me being alone with Dongmin." I rest my head in my hands as I felt another headache coming.

"Sua...do you think...did you..." Yoohyeon tried to ask carefully.

"I...I don't think I did."

Gahyeon hugged me a little tighter, pulling me as close to her as she could.

"Yes I have problems...but I've been much better recently..."

I knew why I felt better but I wouldn't tell them. What could I say, "because I found someone that understands me". No...it was more than that even.

"I'm sorry." Handong said quietly. She slowly lifted her head and her eyes met mine. "I'm sorry I never noticed."

I gave her a weak smile

"You couldn't have noticed, I didn't want you to worry."

She gave me a weak smile back.

Yubin, who had had a puzzled look this entire time, finally joined the conversation.

"The reason why you're feeling better recently. It's Siyeon isn't it."

I could feel the tears well up in my eyes again from hearing her name. That must've been enough for Yubin to confirm her suspicions.

"You like her...." She went on.

Now everyone the room was stunned, including me. Like her? I mean as friends yes, but more then friends....no. No no no, I couldn't. It wasn't possible, I wasn't gay...right...

"Where is Siyeon anyways?" Gahyeon said, trying to break the silence.

I started crying again.

"When I woke up she was here, still asleep. Nothing seemed add, even after she woke up, but after a little while she suddenly got very angry. Saying that I planned to leave her behind and that she didn't want to talk to me again." I barely managed to get the words out, the tears kept flowing down my cheeks.

Minji got up. "Ok that's it. I'm going to talk to her."

Yoohyeon stopped her. "Maybe you should leave her alone for today, let her cool down a bit. We can go together tomorrow."

Minji's eyes showed both worry and annoyance. She let her girlfriend guide her to sit back on the chair and gave a small nod.

"Why don't you tell us every single detail you remember. We can figure out what happened together."

A/N:

I UPLOADED A CHAPTER ON TIME WOOHOOOO. I really just corrected these today so sorry if there r any mistakes I didnt notice lmao. This week has been incredibly busy but Im managing to post and Im happy about that. Hope u enjoy <3