broken butterfly

chapter 18

Sua pov

I took a long shaky breath and started talking.

"I remember that you guys came to check up on me in the study. I remember that after you left I laid down on my back in the couch, trying to think about something else. I decided to drink a little to take the edge off and then I was going to go back to you guys."

I closed my eyes and took another breath.

"I...I think someone came in after that. Someone tall..."

"That was probably Dongmin, he went to check up on you." Minji said.

"Yeah, probably. I don't remember much after that. Nothing besides drinking more alcohol..." I looked down at my hands that in my lap. "Siyeon was right...I did do this to myself..."

Gahyeon held my hand.

"Sua, you had a drug overdose. Yes you had a lot of alcohol in your system, but you don't remember taking any drugs right?"

"No not at all, I would never even touch drugs."

"Could have been someone who drugged you." Yubin said.

"But who would do that...I don't think I can think of anyone who would do something like that."

"That's what we'll figure out." Minji added with a soft smile.

For some reason that made me feel a little better. I knew I didn't have to go through this alone. They told me I needed to rest and got up from their chairs. The nurse had told me I could check out tomorrow, but I should rest for another week before returning to school. Minji and Yoohyeon had told me they would pick me up the next day and bring me home so I wouldn't have to go alone.

*the next day*

Siyeon pov

It was Sunday and my parents were away. Away to god knows where, I didn't care to be honest. I had the whole house to myself and I decided to watch a movie in the couch. I had barely started before hearing a knock on my door. I knew that my parents would be out till late tonight, so I could only wonder who was on the other side of that door.

"Siyeon can we talk please?" I heard Minji say.

"Go away please, I don't feel like talking to anyone."

"It's just us Siyeon, just please let us in." Yoohyeon said.

Damn...they knew damn well how to get to me. I knew that if the both of them were here, they had to be serious.

"If it's that important, you can tell me like this.

Minji burst the door open.

"LEE SIYEON, STOP ACTING LIKE A GODDAMN CHILD."

Yoohyeon grabbed her hand to signal her to stay calm.

"Just please...leave me alone." I said, trying to hold back my tears.

Minji's expression seemed to go from extremely mad to worried in less than a second. She sat down next to me and Yoohyeon sat on my other side. She carefully took my hand in hers and stroked the back with her thumb.

"Siyeon please, talk to us." Yoohyeon said.

"I...I just feel...alone..."

"What do you mean? Whatever it is, we are all here for you."

"You...you don't understand. Sua she....she was going to leave me." I let the tears flow, too tired to keep them in any longer.

I heard Minji take a deep breath and noticed that she was looked at Yoohyeon, who gave her a small nod.

"Siyeon, I don't know how to tell you this, but we think Sua was drugged. She didn't do this to herself..."

I couldn't believe my ears. If this was true...then I had been the one who hurt her...I had hurt her...

"Ho...how do you know?"

"That's not for us to tell. You should hear it from her. She's coming home today, maybe go visit her." Minji said.

"I...I don't know if I can face her. I wasn't exactly the nicest last time I saw her..."

"You know what, we planned to pick her up once she got released. We're just going to drop her off here. The two of you need to make up and stop avoiding each other."

Minji seemed to be convinced, so convinced that I didn't dare to say no. Maybe she was right, maybe Sua and I just needed to talk it out. I sighed and nodded.

"Ok, that's set then."

Minji stood up and took Yoohyeon's hand.

"We'll leave for now, we'll be back with Sua in a few hours."

*a few hours later*

Sua pov

The next morning I got a call from Minji. Saying that her and Yoohyeon went to visit Siyeon and that she wants to see me. I was surprised, but I didn't want to get my hopes up. She might still be upset. The nurse and doctor had come to by and told me everything was ok and I could get discharged after lunch. I spend the next few hours after in bed, trying to figure out what to say to Siyeon. I was deep in thoughts when Minji and Yoohyeon walked in.

"You ready to go?"

"Yeah, but can we grab some food before leaving?"

"Are you really assuming Jiu didn't bring food? Do you know her??" Yoohyeon teased.

Minji poked her and grabbed her bag. We all sat on the bed and ate the sandwiches they had brought. Once we were finished I collected the last few things that I hadn't packed yet and we went to the front desk. After signing a few papers I got released and we went to the car. The closer we got, the more nervous I became. About 10 minutes later we arrived at Siyeon's house,. Part of me wanted to go home and lay in bed, too scared of facing her, but I wanted nothing more then to get her back. As a friend of course. I got out of the car and looked back at Minji and Yoohyeon, they both gave me a reassuring smile.

"I think it's best if I do this on my own."

"Don't worry ok, I'm sure the two of you will talk it out." Minji encouraged me. Yoohyeon nodded in agreement.

I took a deep breath and walked to the door. Siyeon opened almost right away and signaled me to come in. I heard the car drive away behind me, there was no going back now.

A/N:

I wanna thank u guys again for reading this. I never ever thought I would even get past 100 reads but Im well over 2000 in total now and it makes me so so happy. If u in any way can relate to this story then I have something to say to u. Ur strong, u fight every single day and Im so so proud of u. U can do it, I believe in u and if u ever need someone to talk to, feel free to contact me. I love u all so so much, thank u for supporting me <3<3