The Break Trough

Part 45

Part 45

[Mpume ]

“you look like you have seen a ghost? “ I was walking to Tray's flat when I bumped into him sitting by the entrance of his flat he looked like he is about to meet his maker, I did not know the situation was this bad, I was caught up in my own life, love life in fact that I forgot about my friends, he was seating by the
stairway of his flat, eating an orange. I wanted to embrace him with a hug but I was afraid of how he will react

Me: “ Trey why you never told me that you were seriously sick? I just thought it was just flue or something “
Him: “ Sorry love I was too busy being sick that I forgot to inform you, next time ok “
I felt bad for asking I just didn’t know what to say, he looked different his face was scruffy and very untidy compared to the Mr too clean he used to be

Him: “ can you just say something and stop steering, you making me
uncomfortable “
Me: “I’m sorry, for everything, for not being there for you “
Him: “ I did just fine without you, I don't even know why you are here because your boyfriend said you must not hang out with boys, what was the right word he used,..' it's not ladylike...'"

Me: “Trevor please, don’t start not you also “
He laughed so hard that he started coughing, he sips his water and looked at me
Me: “ Are you ok,” I sat next to him rubbed his back, he did not respond and looked away
Him: “ so how have you been ? “ he said in consent voice very soft
Me: “ nothing much just school, stressing me out “
Him: “ unamanga Mpume, what’s really wrong with you? “

I breathe out loud and looked down, where do I start
Him: “ in the beginning because this thing has gone far too long now “
Me: “it's complicated bro and I’m just lost “
Him: “ last time I checked you had a voice, and you were not shy to use it, what happened to you? “
I was lost for words and did not know where to start I just placed my heard his shoulder and we just sat there lost in our own thought,
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[Sindy ]

I was in the bathroom running a hot bath for my mother another day of Dad's episode where he beat my mom to a pulp just because he can. I lost my tears a long time ago and I did not have the strength to talk to her and ask her to leave this man or else she will leave in a coffin, the water temperature was ok I went to
her room, I did not say a word, I looked at her she had a blue eye, split lip, bruises all over her body I help her sit up I held her arm and lifted her she was crying in pain but I turned a deaf ear I placed on the toilet seat, undress her silence filled the room she was weeping I avoided eye contact she was naked
now she held my hand forcing me to stop and look at her, she looked tired warned out old and very sickly

“ Sindy my child please talk to me, “ I lifted her from the seat and placed her on the bathtub I sponged bath her, once done I dried her, helped her to her room
lotioned her and dressed her, I was about to walk out when she called my name

Her“silence and bitter heart my child will destroy you, please don’t allow it to eat you up, talk to someone anyone “ I looked at her,
“ and say what ma? , that there is
not a week that passes by without my father beating you up, the fact that you not willing to go to the hospital because the DR will report domestic abuse in this house, and you afraid to leave because he will kill you !“

I walked out and went to the kitchen to prepare food for her, tears fell from my eyes and I cared less I just let them run I was busy chopping when suddenly my
phone started buzzing, I ignored it, but it continued to ring I answered very annoyed after looking at collar ID

Me: “ what? “
Him: “ we need to talk “
Me: “I’m busy, I will call you when I’m free “
Him: “ok I will just have to wait for you outside till you feel,”

I dropped the call, continued to cook, once I was done I dished up for my mother and took her food to her

Me: “you need to eat so I can give you medication to ease the pain “
She nodded, I took her clothes that were stained with blood and throw them in the bin, maybe once she realizes that her closet is left with nothing she will know that the beating has left her with nothing but a naked bruised-up body.

"We can do this the whole day I really do not mind "
Another text
I quickly looked outside my window, fuck this idiot is still outside, I dragged my feet and walked out, I knocked in the car window he unlocks the door I got in and we drove to his place.
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[Zweli ]

I was driving meeting up with Keven in his house, he calls this morning, instructed me to come over and it was urgent, I clearly did not feel like it, I knew what this meeting was about, I did not want to face my demons and talk about what eating
me inside and what if I bump into My Aunt there, she is forever in his place and she can tell that something is wrong with me, I can not face her right now.
I can't believe that she is in a relationship with Kevin worst she is crazy about the guy and there is nothing I can do about it, Keven reassures me that he is not playing games with her but what the fuck am I supposed to think, she is dating one of the ruthless men I know. I finally arrived, I parked my car I knock and walked in, he was in the lounge watching soccer,

Him: “you took your time “
I sat on the other couch next to him and looked at him,
Him: “since you not going to talk let me do the talking then “
I slouched and looked at him
Him: “I know what happened on your last mission,”
This was an uncomfortable topic for me I stood up
Hum:” HAY DON’T EVER WALK AWAY WHEN I'M TALKING, SIT THE FUCK DOWN!! “

I did as instructed I sat on the edge of the couch and clenched my jaws
Him:” WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU ??”
He looked at me straight in the eye I almost shit myself
Me: “I’m still shocked and fucked up about all of this, so please dude cut me some slacks “
Him: “how is Bongani ? “
Me: “he will survive, bullet brazed him we did not go to the hospital he self-medicated himself “
Him: “ and you? “
Me: “ Everything happened so bloody fast she was about to call the cops, the guard wanted to play hero next thing there are shot fired  there was blood everywhere and I did not know what to do I ... I”

I did not get the chance to finish I was weeping like a baby, he-man hugged me I just let it all out I have never ever killed a person before, I may be a thug, hijack,
steal, do robberies but I never take a life, and that day I shot two people dead what does that make me now? I managed to pull myself together but my heart was still very heavy, I keep hearing the women screaming, I was losing my mind
the nightmares were haunting me every day.

Him: “ I don’t want you doing this anymore “
I looked at him, he stood up and came back with a bottle of Whiskey and glasses,
I was still lost in my thoughts how am I going to survive yes I have few savings but money always run out, I only have matric how am I going to support Portia
Me:” I can not quite no!, maybe I just need a break “

Him: “ you need help, killing is no child’s play mfana wami, I have killed so many people but every time I do it feels like my first time, to take a life you need to train your mind to be mentally fit, shut down all emotions and be merciless be in
a dark place, and to get out of that hole it takes years, I don’t want you to go through that “

He was serious, he was talking about his personal experience
Me: “how did you do it? I mean how do you do it ?“
Him: “listen Ntwana, I promised Ntombi that I will keep you away from  trouble I intend to do that so you need a break from all this madness we call hustling,
focus on your girl, take her out, and stop treating her so badly,”
Me:” wait a minute how do you know this ?“
Him:” I have a hunch, come lets play pool so I can tell you about my days when I was running the street “
Me: “I feel a lecture coming? “

He chuckled no ways, “me! lecture you? never ! “ he was mocking me
Me:” is my Aunt coming over today? “
Him: “we not rabbits on hit, ( I chuckled this man is so crazy, now I’m picturing my aunt humping him ) so no she is not coming, she has a church thing this weekend she said she will be busy, this bab mfundisi is having all the fun with
my girl"

I laughed,

Me: “come on man his man of faith, “
Him: “he is a man after all “
My mind was at ease when Keven told me about his first time he used a gun he was even younger than me, he actually help me, I felt a lot lighter than I was, I’m still nervures and shaken about my actions but in this business, it's always a
wafa- wafa job, if I did not pull the trigger I might be dead or maybe behind bars. It's good to say I will take it one day at a time.

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