The Break Trough

Part 100

[Pam ]

Jr was acting up today , so it's true what they say that a children  can sense if something is wrong with there  parents , after struggling to put him to bed i went down stairs and made myself a cup of tea . i sent an SMS to mpume apologizing for  not attending her small braai.
How was i supposed to face the world vele?  with bruises on my neck ,  i looked at the time it was almost 22h00 and Sbu was not back , after drinking my tea i locked the doors and switched off the light , my phone rang  and it was Trey
him : " tell me you are ok ? "
i was shocked , how did he know ? aish konje Trey has a calling , he can sense things and see things
me : " Trey " i cleared my throat , i felt my eyes burning
him : " did he hurt you ? "
i froze and set down by the stairs ,
me : " Trey im ok , we just had a fight "
him : " Pam don't lie to me , why is my throat sore ke , I had a vision "
i just looked down and played with my hands , i was not going to worry Trey  with this , i made Sbu angry and he reacted , we just need to talk about this so we can get pass it , this is between me and my husband.
me: Trey i had a fight with my husband and i will handle it stop worrying please"  i received lectures on my wedding day that to be a good wife i need to perceiver
  , no matter what , respect and obey your husband, i guess i have to try, than  just throwing  everything away just because we had a heated argument .
there was silence for a while
me : "  ... well done in passing your exams , i'm so proud of you "
him : " yayaya .. you changing the subject Pam . "
me : " i miss you so much "
him : " i miss you too ,i'm thinking of coming to SA for christmas , but ugogo is working me over time with this royalty business "
i just smiled , he went on and on , it was good to hear his voice and how happy he was , it's been a long time since i saw or heard my brother  this content and full of life ,  after talking for about an hour or so , i hanged up and went to bed , i decided to sleep with my kids in the my main bedroom , i was trying so hard to not think about my fight with Sbu and the way he reacted , but you can not control thoughts that attack you unexpectedly ,  just when i thought i was about to go to lala land , Sbu walked in the room i held on to Jr , he switched the light on and i felt his presence he was probably looking at us , he must have taken a shower first because his shower gel was overpowering my nostril , he got in the bed and i kept my eyes shart  , Sne and Jr were in between us , he kissed Sne , Jr and moved and kissed my forehead and lips,
him : " im sorry my love , i'm really sorry ," he continued to kiss me i did not respond , he moved and i opened my eyes , because i was worried about him squashing the kids
me : " you going to wake them up "
him : " that why we have a king size bed" he pulled the kids away from me and snuggle up ,close to me he held me tight and kissed my cheek , i was sleepping on my side and our eyes locked ,
him : " i'm sorry "
i just nodded , he looked at my neck , and i saw remorse in his eyes
him : " did i hurt you "
i nodded and he just held me close , " im so sorry " he kissed my neck ,
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[Langa ]

we got back home from Banzi house and my  dad's car was still in the driveway ,  i looked at the time and  it was  late what is he still doing here  ,  i'm not in the mood for my dad at all , aish if i only slept over at Banzi house nje , Zoe left before me so she IS probably in bed by now, i walked in and my father was sitting by the bar stool in my kitchen , i sign and walked in
him : " we need to talk "
at this hour you can not be serious
me : its late baba  , and i have tree hours of sleep , because i have to go back to work , my flight leaves at 3am "
him : " it won't take long "  i stood by the kitchen door and  looked at him .
me : baba i respect you and i love you as my father , but there is nothing there to talk about , so tell mom that i said thanks for trying , but me and you we can never be on the same level of understanding for one another "
i was about to walk away
him : " never walk away from me when i'm talking to you "
me : " it's my house and i can do whatever i please "
him : " Langa , i'm still your father "
me : " and i'm the man of this house , so as a guest fill free to spend a night , but don't force me to accommodating you because it will never end well " I walked to my bedroom and found Zoe on her phone
me : " why you not asleep?  and who are you talking too at this hour ?
him : " kahle Dlamini , so many questions " i just dropped myself on the bed next to her
me : " my dad is just a pain in my life yazi "
her : " you will need to talk to him , and stop running away  from him "
me : " he never listens and it won't end well , so let's just leave things as they are right now , "
i placed my head on her lap , she smelled of coconut and vanilla "
me : " new body oil ? "
her : " yep , you like it ? "
i ran my hands on her exposed thighs " you smell like a bakery "
she took a pillow and hit me with it
her : " really now "
me : " in a good way howu  baby "
her : " i smell like pastry , langa!!"
i laughed " you talking crazy now , baby you smell good , i feel like eating you up "
she continued to hit me with a pillow
" ok im sorry "

she stopped and brushed my head ,
her : " so love i was thinking "
me : " i don't like where this is going "
her :"hear me out first don't jump to conclusion " she said
me : " im listening "
her : " you know that Banzi and Mpume next weekend they doing this traditional ceremony thing "
me : " yaa , membeso and mbondo . yebo what about it ? "
her : " may i please stay behind , you know help out ... "
i did not allow her to finish
me : " no problem .... "
her : " what ? "
me : " i said ok "
she kept quite " are you sure " she asked
me : " if you continue doubting my answer , i might as well change my mind "
her : " thank you baby " she kissed my cheek , well mom has already asked if her and Zoe can stay behind  since she wants to be hands on with  preparations ,im a mommy boy and i can never say no to mom so her and Zoe can stay in KZN , vele nami i got a hectic week ahead with work overload , i stood up and took off my cloths and i was left with my briefs i got under the cover , i was so tired and thinking about work made me more tired ,
Zoe : " you still going to china  ? " 
i laughed
me: " tai-land baby "
her : " what ever " we giggled
me : " yep , i'll fly on Tuesday and by Thursday i will be back , "
i snuggled on her chest , while she ran her hands on my face
me: " baby i need you to do something for me "
her : "what might that be love ? "
me : " i need you to make time to see your father during the week "
her : " but ... "
me : " i'm not asking Zoe , and we not going to discuss this"
i may not see her facial expression right  now but i know she is frowning
me : " good night sthandwa sami " 
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[Mpume]

beep beep ... beep " haaaaaah it's morning already " i banged the alarm clock that was screaming in my ear
lu : " you do Know that you have an option to just sleep and don't go to work "
Lubanzi and his dominance demands , he is on another level of controlling , he has been telling me to stop working , because i'm not benefiting anything from it  , financially im stable with him providing for me
me : "morning my handsome husband "
him : " we still on our honeymoon , let fog the windows "
i rolled my eyes, i felt him poking me jesus this man , and his sexual appetite i can not keep up , i packed his lip and got up ,
him : " i'm not driving you to work "
me : " i'm not making you breakfast "
him : " you not playing fare "
me : " i love you too " i showered and when i got out Lu was not in our bed , i made the bed and lotioned and put on my uniform , my hair was too long for my liking i made a mental note to go to the salon on my lunch break, i jut rapt a head scarf on and i bit of makeup to hide my freckle face with a touch  light  pink lipstick ,i took my beg and phone and went downstairs , i found Banzi pacing up and down on his phone
him : " what do you mean he Escaped , shit Vuyo you slacking bra "
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him : " do i have do everything myself , shit! "
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him : " ngiyambesa this weekend , fuck i dont have time for bullshit , get everyone in the warehouse in 3 hours time "
i looked at him and he was angry , i made my way to the kitchen , and took an apple
me : " are you ok ? "
he looked up , " yes love it's just work "  shit he will be leaving soon
him : " let me get my keys i'll drive you to work "
our drive to work was quite  , Lu was miles away and his phone has been buzzing like crazy ,
me : " are you sure you ok ? " i said that the minute he packed at my workplace
him : " yes baby im ok , i'm sorry about that , ... aaaah look i will be ..... i need to go away for few days "  i knew it
me : " uhamba nini ? "
him : " in an hours time  , love "
me : " oooh , " i looked at my watch " see you when you get back " i opened the door he also jumped out
him : " hay you can not walked out like this ,im sorry but its work baby "
me : " i said its  ok i'll see you when you get back , "
i was about to walk away and he pulled me into a hug , " i love you and im sorry ok " ok i was in a public space with a half naked man hovering me " baby im just sad , but i understand its work , so it's ok , will talk later ok "
he pulled me into a kiss , and shit my body just heated up , i'm not sure if  its because his kiss was slow and claiming me , or because i miss him already ,  he left me wanting more
him : " when i get back , im throwing the house keys away and we locking each other in our house "
i smiled and bit my lip , we hugged again and i made my way to work , he stood there looking at me , damn im going to miss him.
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