The Break Trough

part 127

[Banzi ]

when Mpume told me about Pam condition weeks back  , I asked Sbu to join me at the gym just to blow some steam , after nagging and begging him to leave the house he finally agreed we played indoor soccer with some few guys and it was stress releasing and I hope it helped him a bit  , after practice we were sitting outside the gym and just catching up , Sbu told me the most upsetting thing , I don’t know what I will do if Mpume was sick and I did not have any say or how to help her this was really sad
Him : “ I just don’t get it bro , I mean we were told that it's going to be a complicated pregnancy and the baby might not survive , but still Pam saw this as blessing , she can not take her meds correctly because of the baby , im just fuckin mad at her , she is so selfish ... we could have terminated the baby and focused on her health but yena uthi  its blessing from God ... fuck I’m pissed “
Me : “ I feel you bro but only thing you can do right now is support her, be there for her “
He looked down
Him : “ what if I lose her... already the Dr are  telling me that she might have a kidney failure because she's not eating right and the baby is draining her ... why does Pam want to do this to me ... we have been married for just 2 years bro and this happens “
I looked down shit this is hard ,  Sbu is broken and yet he still need to be strong for Pam and the kids
Me : “ so you hired a Nurse for her ? “
Him : “ I had to go back to work I can not sit there and look at her getting weak and weaker ... at least mom is taking care of the kids “
I pat his back as he breath in and out this man here is hurting no man should go through what he is going through right now , it's just heartbreaking 
Me : “ hay should you need anything I mean anything at all I’m here for you , me and Mpume “
Him : “ thanks Ntanga that means a lot, I’m just waiting for Langa to come through with the contact details of the  medical specialist that lives’ abroad , i'll pay anything for Pam to get better
Me : “ any news from Trey “
Him : “ his still in the caves and his transitioning from the spirit life  to the our world  , his forever drained  I have not gotten hold of him its been months now  .. but Gogo is aware “
Me : “ Never thought Trey can be traditional healer “
Sbu : “ I never thought he will be in line to be thrown the King “
Me : “ his such a tsatsasta ( snob ) “
We chuckled
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[Zoe ]

I was folding my arms and pissed as ever looking outside the window , while Langa was busy stealing glances at me ,  so me and Langa decided to see couples  canceler , remember when he said we must talk , well shit hit the fan and words were thrown , we have an unhealthy relationship when it comes to talking things through in a civil manner , we both hot headed and no one want to back down.
So Mr smarty pants  he wanted us see a professional who can teach us how to communicate together , I don’t know why we wasting money like this but he feels like I’m drifting away from him and there some sort of a mental issues that I blocked that I’m not dealing with , hence is the reason why I’m behaving like this , the minute the car pulled up I opened the door and stomped into the house
Him : Zoe you see what I mean you acting all crazy for what vele ? “
I was half way up the stirs I look at him
Me : “ you had no right bringing my mother into this session “
Him : “ so you think it's normal to sweep everything other the carpet and pretend you ok while you not ?“
Me : “ come on Langa my mother is not part of my life “
Him : “ oww is it now?? ... so wena in that small brain of yours you believe YOU ARE NOT AFFECTED BY YOUR MOTHERS ACTION? “
Me : “ I told you i'm FINE , why do you feel like I’m a mental case ??“
Him : she left you  and when she showed up after years, she did not have any intentions in seeing you or building a relationship with you ..so in your small little head  it was all nice and honky dory ... you were not even pissed??? “
I took of my snickers and threw it at him “ aaah Langa mani ... stay out of my life “
He ducked before the shoe hit him “ ya bright spark start throwing staff at me because you can not handle the truth “
Me : aahhhhh ! leave me alone you jack ass aaaaaaah !“
MaSarah : “ hayboo you two need to stop this mani ., everyday you biting your heads off enough please “
Him : “ she started it “langa mumbled ,  I folded my hands on my chest and shook my head and ran upstairs , this has been our daily rooting everyday we bite each other head off and fuck like crazy , so we came to a point where we talk about our issues but it not normal it’s a madhouse , but at least we talking that why the therapist says that we making progress .  I was in bath tub having bubble bath just to stop my mind from finding ways on how to strangle Langa in his sleep I was reading one of my text books when Langa walked in he seat on the edge of the bathtub and looked at me
Him : “ you good ? “
Me : “ mmmm”
Him : “ can I join you “
Me : “ I’m studying “
Him : “ join me for lunch when you done “
I nodded , he stood up and kissed my forehead
Me : “ I love you “ I yelled , he walked back and stood by the door
Him : “ I know ... you crazy thing “
Me : “ so now you calling crazy ? “
Him : “ if the shoe fits “
Me : “ yazi Langa ungijwayela kabi  mos“ I splash him with my bathwater he dropped his jaws
Him : “ ooh this is on “ he took the shower  tab and turned it on and pointed at me , fuck the water was cold
Me : “ the water is cold you idiot “I stood up , i was screaming trying to grab a hold of it and he was laughing like a retard , I quickly ran to the bedroom closed the door behind me , I was busy towel drying myself , he came behind me and whispered in my ear , “I am going to fuck you. I am going to fuck you very hard, and it is going to hurt,” he says to me. We standing on the edge of the bed I’m so annoyed with him right now I could slap him ,  it seems that the only reasonable way to work it out now is to fuck.
we kiss, hard and messy and passionately. He sucks my tongue into his mouth. I grab his hand and place it on my clit. He begins to move his fingers in slow circles the way he knows I like, then speeds it up. He groans. Then his hands are in my hair and he’s pulling and yanking so tightly that if I were a girl with thinner, less-resilient hair, I’d be afraid somehow I fucking love it. he pushed to the bed and get on top of me I arch my back underneath him and our mouths meet. He gets hold of my bottom lip and he bites it . I drag my nails even deeper up and down his back, trying to leave big red marks for him to wince over in the morning. by now I’m really wet, wanting him to shove inside me and make it hurt. I want it furiously. he thrusts inside me without any worming, every inch of his big, hard dick slipping in and out, He’s thrusting fast, hard, his breath coming in big ragged gasps. I tilt my ass up and bring my pussy walls together so my pussy feels tighter – I know he likes that. “Uh huh, baby, just like that.
Me :
Look at me,” I say “Look at me when you come. I want to watch you.” We lock eyes and as he comes I shove my mouth onto his, muffling his groans of pleasure. I feel his orgasm ripple through me from my lips to my toes. We stay like that for a minute, until our breathing goes back to normal.
Him : “ fuck I love you “
Me : “ I fucking love you too “ we cuddle under the sheet while he plays with my hair ,
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[Sindy ]

School was so hard and shit I wish I can take a break from studying but I have to push, I was focus on my books when I received a text message from Mpume
Her :  “ hay I don’t know what going on between you and Porta , but we need to talk stop Avoiding me please “  ,
I looked at it I did not feel like answering her , I don’t feel like explaining myself to her about this Portia issue , she has been blowing my phone like crazy since last week when we had that outburst in the restaurant ,  I placed my phone aside and focused on my studies till I had a nock on the door my aim was to ignore it because it was Zweli i told him that his pussy is back at her house on maternity  leave but he still thinks I’m hiding her asshole he will knock till he goes away  I cliqued my tongue , the bagging went on and on till he left shooo it about time  , I continued with my assignment , I was half trough when my mom called me , now that the person I can speak to I took my phone and went to the kitchen to make myself a snack
Me : “ hey sexy mama “
Her : “ukuphy ? “
Me : “ at my flat , what’s wrong you sound different u-shup?  “ there was giggling and what not in the background
Her : “ I’m with Ntombi siyeza “
She dropped the call , as much as I feel like mom is in a good space now and doing a great job picking up her life I still fear that she may relapse , and I can not deal with that with all this shit going on in my life I just need a break from it all .
Few minutes there was nock and I opened the door boom it was Mpume mom , my mom and Aunty Ntombi , wow they were all dressed up and looked very beautiful , the ugly picture about this is that there were drunk or tipsy I’m not sure
Me: “ and then what up “ , they pushed there way inside mom still had two champagne bottle in her hand
Mpume mom : “ finally Ntombi is engaged ” I looked  Aunty with my mouth open and she waved her hand with beautiful rock that was blinding me
Me : “ wow finally ! he put a ring on it !  “ I hugged her
Mom : “ that what I said “
Aunty : “ what’s supposed to be lunch out with the girls turned out to be a drinking spree, ”
Mom : celebration went wrong “ they bust out and laughed
Me : “ question is why you here ? “
Mom : “ ooh that ,  there is roadblock by the North high way we could not drive pass the cops with out getting arrested so we decided to come here this was this only clear route we could take “
I laughed this old women still act like young girls
Mpu/ mom : “ sindy uphekile? “
Me : “ no.. but I can whisk something up “
Aunty : “ do that baby please “
There were seating in a the tree sitar having a conversation of their own I folded my arms and looked at them and smile will this be me , Zoe and Mpume in the future yahh right I laughed at that thought , I did not cook anything fancy just grilled meat and garlic rolls with green salad . while there eating I was on in the kitchen counter studying
Mom : “ I don’t think this is a right time Ntombi , stop bossing me around “
Aunty: she need to know Susan , come on girl “
I turned and looked at them
Me : “ what ? going on ? “
Aunty  : “ baby don't get this wrong but there is something that your mother wants to tell you “
Mom : “ aish Ntombi uyaphapha uma' udakiwe “
Mpu / m: yep that is true “
Me : “ mom what's going on ? yini kwenzenjani “
Ntombi : “ your father was stabbed in prison ... “
Me: “ what ? .... is he dead ?“
Ntombi : “ nop lucky busted ... oh konje he name is Lucky vele “ they bust out and laughed, while I shook my head ,
Me : “ hold up how do you know this ....?”
Mom looked down
Me : “ wow mom , you visit him? Are you fuckin kidding me right now so you telling me that the man who put you in jail .... drove you to a mental hospital .. who made you lose your job and sanity is stabbed ... and his not dead but you busy visiting him and keeping tabs “ 
Mom : “ Sindisiwe ... uyihlo nje loyo “
Me : “ excuse  my French ... but I don’t give a fuck about that busted ... come on mom why you so bloody gullible “
Ntombi :”sisi please come down “
Mpu/m: yoo I thought I had a problem with my daughter but lowakho uhlanya kakhulu good luck mge “
Me: “ please don’t tell me to come down please , .... ooooh my bloody God you have been visiting him ?”
Ntombi : “ it part of her therapeutic process , she need to forgive him so she can move on and heal, and frankly I think you also need to talk to someone what you went trough will not just pass by overnight” 
I shook my head stood up and took my books went to my room and banged the door in the process ,I do talk to someone even though he does more of listening than responding because I always lash out at him , yes Menzi is my pillar I don’t need a shrink to tell me that I’m an emotional rack , because I know I am , my father is the reason why i have bossy tendencies , yep it hard having an abusive background because you may think that you have gotten over it but small things can trigger it , dam I’m so mad.
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