The Break Trough

part 119

[Cici ]

Him : “ i really do not see a need for you to keep doing that “
He said that seating next to with his mug of tee , he placed his head on my shoulder
Me : “ if I continue to walk around this house doing nothing ill go crazy “
Him : “ I still do not get why you have to work , when I can provide for you “
Zweli is the most controlling person I have ever know , I thought his father was the worse but clearly I was wrong , answering him at this point will only start a fight so I just ignore him and continue searching  for a job , I really need to start putting myself first I have relayed a lot in man to provide for me that why they treat me like shit ,
Him : “I’m hungry can you make me a sandwich “
I closed the laptop and walked to the kitchen , while he turned the Tv on and watched soccer , I looked at him and just frowned he came back again last night smelling her , I don’t know how long can I keep tolerating that there another women in his life, I feel like in in polygamy relationship like i'm supposed to except my sister wife I clicked my tongue on that thought , I need air this place is just suffocating me now.
Me : “ I was hoping to visit my sister today “
Him : “ what good will that do for you vele ? “
Me : “ she is the only family I have Zweli and its been a while since I last saw her “
I gave him his plate of cheese and ham sandwich
Him : “ look  your sister line of work is not ideal for me , and you hanging with her will make you relapse I don’t want that “ so what if my sister runs a tavern which sometimes turns to brothel
Me :” but you can not lock me in this house forever , I need to live my life “
He looked at me and turned the Tv off ...  here we go again shit
Him : “ I’m not holding you prison in this house you know that ... besides how do I trust that you will not be tempted to go back to your old ways “
Me : “ I moved pass that Zweli you know that “
Him : “ I can forgive but I can not forget “
I folded my hands its easy for him to say that while his busy fucking Portia and coming home smelling her and on top of it he still wants to get on top of me
Me : “ nami I feel the very same way “
he placed his plate on the coffee table and faced me
him : “ what that supposed to mean vele ? “
me : “ I keep forgiving you for sleeping with Portia but you never stop so how am I supposed to trust you vele ?? “
he laughed and shook his head
him : “ what was that now? “
me : “ Zweli look at you neck you have love bites ... am I supposed to turn a blind eyes to this thing you doing ??“
him : “ I’m a man Cici , what makes you think you can compare yourself to me ? “
me : “ Jehova ... !!! “ I  clapped once and stood up this has gone on far too long , shit it was ok when he was busy lying to me telling me he did not sleep with her but now I need to understand that his a man , wow I may be low life tramp from the hood but this I can not stand at all ,  I took a bath as much as I wanted to cry I could not allow my tears to betray me , I’m a survivor not a pushover , I came out of the bathroom with towel wrapped around my body
him : “ babe I did not mean what I said “
me : “ you did “ I  mumbled
i started looking for something to wear
him : “ look I’m sorry ok .. I really am “
me : “ its ok ... “ I did not look at him I was busy going through my clothes in the closet  , I suddenly felt his hands around my waist
him : “ I’m sorry ok “
he started kissing my neck ,  and rubbing his hands on my breast ,
me : “please stop “
he did not listen but loosen my towel and it dropped on the floor ,
me : “ Zweli please not now “
his hands were caressing my body  and his other hand squeezing  my Breast shit my body is going to give in ,  I felt him poking me from behind , he turned me around and smashed his lips on my mine , my mind was screaming  telling me no ... don’t let this happened but my body was telling me ... just make love to him for the last time ...   I lay there facing up after he had his way with me and regretted letting him sleep with me how can I be such a fool ...
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[Zoe ]

Mpume : “ you sure you going to manage babysitting? “
Me : just go i'll be fine besides I have Sarrah if I need any help “
The couples were going on an outing and I decided to stay behind made up a story of having stomach cramps , I was looking like a mass anyway, it was hard to convince people that know you oh well but I guess when it comes to relationship people tend to step aside and only offer to help if you allow them two ,  I did not feel like going out or having fun , I had to pretend that me and Langa are good and it was just a small fight nothing serious he will come around .. but will he ?... the things he said to me lust night are still ringing in my ear  , Langa did not eat breakfast with us , he's been gone since last night when we had our fight ,
Banzi : “ where is he ? “
Me : “ I don’t know ... “
Banzi : “ what going on between you two  ? “
I just breath out loud and picked up Joy that was attempting to stand up
Me : can you go before your wife start screaming “
He put his hands on his pocket , shook his head and walked out , I was home alone with the kids and our housekeeper ,
Sarrah : “ Zoe let me take care of the kids , please go rest”
Me : “ i'm ok Ma’Sarra “
Her : “ I may not know you for long , but what I can see in your eyes is tells me something else , so go rest ... June (chef )  will help me out with the kids  when I need something “
I handed Joy to her after kissing her ,  I went to my bedroom and took a nap , was woken up by footsteps and a lot of shuffling , I opened my eyes and saw Langa dressing up
I sat up straight
Me : “ Langa “
Him : “ mmmm”
I breath out loud , ok where do I start
Me : “ we need to talk “ I said softly
He set on the bed his back was facing me
Him : “ about what ? “
Me : “ what happened last night “
Him : “ you know Zoe ... you may think that I’m mad because you don’t want to marry but frankly that not it ... I respect your wishes but at times I just don’t know if we coming or going in this relationship Zoe  “
Me : “ Langa we have been through worse things than this ... can we at least talk about this “
He cut me off “ I know , but I feel like I love you too much that my heart is starting to have doubt if you in this for the long run or what ? “
I crawled in the bed and hugged him from behind
Me : “ I’m sorry I hurt you ... it was never my intention , I know I have this carefree personality , Langelihle I’m so sorry for being self centered and for being selfish “
I hugged him and his cologne was intoxicating me , he held my hands
Him : “ I love you too  but .... “
He let go off me and stood up , he started rubbing his hands together , I did not like where this was going
Me : “ what do you mean ? but? ...but what?!....“ his phone started  beeping he took it from the side drawer looked at it for a while
Him : “ I have to go “
Me : “ Langa we still talking “
Him :” ya later .. maybe but not now “
He walked out I jumped of the bed and ran after him 
Me : “ Manje uyaphi ? “
Him : “ haybo Zoe  musa ukungibangela umsindo  “
Me : “ Langa! “
He stopped looked at me “ we can not do things on your terms all the time Zoe , so just back off I’m not doing this with you right now ! “
Me : “ if not now when vele ? “
Him : “ I need to go ... “
Me : “ Langa you can not keep on running away when  you have a problem ... is this how we going to live our lives ...”
Him : “ fuck man Zoe it not as if you want to be with me ..”
Me : “ bullshit ... ‘I’m right  here with you aint I ,  I heard everything you said izolo and you have to listen to me now “
Him : “  what difference will that make because already your don’t see nothing wrong with your actions .”
I was hurt I must admit this arguing is just to much now ,
Me : “ you know .... just go .... “
He  opened his mount and closed it ... it was pointless reasoning with him when his like this, He just took his car keys and left me standing there,
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[Mpume]
We went to Kruger National park for what I don’t know you know when they talked about an outing I thought about something that not scary like watching lions tearing impala like that , yes I think i'm never going to eat red meat after seeing that...   some animals we saw was majestically like your elephants and leopards yep I enjoyed that
“ there something about nature that just calming nje but its not my cup of tea and  im not going to no nature reserve ever again  “ I said that the minute we got of the Jeep , Banzi has been miles away throughout the outing
Me : “ are you ok, baby? “
Him : “ yes “ he placed his arms around my shoulder , we walking to the restaurant Sbu and pam went air balloon ride romantic right but I’m afraid of heights so no thank you
Me: you sure you ok ? “I said that when I noticed that he was just looking at his food not eating it
Him :” Langa and Zoe ? “
me : “ baby you promise that you not going to get involve “
him : “ I thought it was just going to blow over and they will fix it  ... but I feel like its goes deeper than we actually see it “ I looked at him and shook my head , couples fight a lot and now you need to intervene
me : “ is that necessary I mean all couple fight Banzi “
him : “ Langa is one complicated being Mpume ...Zoe was the only glue preventing from self destructing , “
me : “ then let Zoe handle him ... they have overcome lot of obstacles and they will resolve this  “
he held my hand “ baby when you see me , what you see is what you get .... but Langa is two face and he hide his true being under expensive clothes  and that smile of his ... but trust me his my father's son “
me : “look i'll speak to Zoe and find out what’s wrong , but yet again it's not our place  “
him : “ they are family Mpume so its our damn business “ I popped my eyes yoo
me : “ I see “
him : “ I can not seat back and watch “
me : “ I get what you saying but.... ( i looked away )  I fully understand “
he signed and looked down , I wish Banzi can just focus on his family for now , yes I’m selfish like that and I think that his just exaggerating , I mean Zoe would have said something if she wants us to help ,
me : “ so since we already here why don’t we book a night in this hotel “
he looked at me , “ baby please will go early in the morning ... Zoe and Langa need to talk with ought us being there maybe when we get back tomorrow they would have sorted things  out
him : “ya maybe you right , do you trust Zoe with kids though ? “
I laughed and shook my head “Sarrah will be around so stop stressing “
Him : “ first thing tomorrow morning we living “ I smiled  while he kissed my hand
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[Sindy ]

Konje remind me why I’m doing here this place is bloody cold I just landed in the UK and fuck I’m so cold
I drag my suitcase and the minute I saw Menzi I felt all fuzzy inside I have always seen in the movies people losing them self in the airport when they see love one so today let me just pull out that stunt I ran to him and hugged him wrapping my legs around his waist
Him : “ I missed you so  much “
“ I miss you too “ tell me why am I crying vele , I was adamant in not  coming here on my plane ride  i was sure like a lemon and when I finally see him I’m an emotional rack , yes long distance relationship can do that , it's almost two years leaving this life and every time I see him it's like I see him for the first time ,  i got off him and he looked at me and kissed me so hard that he left me panting , he pulled out and looked at me
Him : “ hi “
Like a lovestruck teenager I buried my face on his chest
Him : “ come let get you warm “
He drag my suitcase to his car
Me : “ wow is this our ride ? “ shit his driving a jaguar
Him : “ I’m rolling with royalty baby so yaah “
I giggled still crazy as ever
Me : “ turn on the hitter please I'm  so cold , “
Him : “ you will get use to it “
He looked at me before starting the car , I blushed and looked down
Him : “ and she blushes “
Me : “ shut up and drive “
Him : “ I just need to do this first “
He pulled me over him and kissed me “ lets get out of here so I can show you how much I miss you “
Arriving at there place it was just wow , I always thought that London properties were outdated and old , shit was I wrong the house was big and way to modern and futuristic
Menzi : I would like to give you a tour around the house , but all I want to do now is feed you and eat you up “
I giggled while he smashed his lips on mine , “ fuck I’m so hard “
Me: “ are we home alone ? “  he was busy addressing me
Him : “ even if there was the queen around it will not stop me from eating up right here right now “
We ended up on the floor on top of a rug  with a very worm throw covering our nakedness   by the fire place out of breath ,
Him : “ I’m so glad you came “
Me : “ I’m glad I came too “
Him : “ I love you so much baby  “ he pulled me to feel his heartbeat that was beating abnormally fast ... I could not wipe the smile on my face.
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