𝕤𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕟𝕕 𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕟𝕔𝕖 || 𝕥𝕒𝕖𝕘𝕪𝕦 ✓

𝕗𝕚𝕗𝕥𝕖𝕖𝕟

𝕒𝕦𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕣/ 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕣𝕕 𝕡𝕖𝕣𝕤𝕠𝕟 𝕡𝕠𝕧

beomgyu had mixed feelings when yeonjun had told him that he and soobin were attending a 'party' in the middle of the forest. the older was always daring, and while the black-haired had a outgoing, bubbly persona, it was only with his emotions and not how he acted upon it. he had always been jealous of how the pink-haired had that trait, which led him to compare himself with others and with anyone at all, at least not out loud.

he thought that he wasn't perfect, but no one is perfect, that's impossible. the latter only looked at people's advantages which made him feel only worse about himself. everyone has their inner fights and demons, but not everyone can deal with them as well.

even though people can carry their load, it doesn't mean it isn't heavy.

the black-haired really wanted to cuddle with his sushi plushie and sleep that night, the next morning they would be leaving, much to beomgyu's displeasure. he also wasn't a party person, the examples in films and movies described that very well. the black-haired wasn't in the mood for the party, and especially in the middle of a forest. he 'wasn't in the mood'.

"please...", his hyung whined at him, pulling his arm gently, tring his hardest to get the latter out of bed. the black-haired was in his grey moon and star matching pajamas, with his sleeping mask adoring his head. he was also in woolly dark grey socks, which were doing a good job at insulating the warmth in his feet.

"'m sleepy, hyung." the latter finalized after prying the latter off him using his hands.
"unlike you, i value my rest and wanna sleep. go away." beomgyu now said with a little pout on his face, which indeed was etched with sleep-deprived creases.

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the aforementioned had been up drawing as the thunderstorm that occured the previous night had pulled his mate sleep away from knocking on the door of his eyelids. the black-haired soothed his fears a little by the hobby and putting a on loop a playlist called "𝕤𝕒𝕕 𝕤𝕠𝕟𝕘𝕤 𝕥𝕠 𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕟 𝕥𝕠 𝕨𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕦𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣𝕤𝕥𝕠𝕣𝕞𝕤 𝕕𝕠𝕟'𝕥 𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕠𝕨 𝕞𝕖 𝕥𝕠 𝕤𝕝𝕖𝕖𝕡" that possessed a grey aesthetic for its cover, that beomgyu created himself. the latter really enjoyed one song that went along these lines:

times like this, i wish i never existed
nobody wants to listen
i'm screaming out for help

times like this, i wish that i could let go
and open up a window,
free to be myself

he could relate with these lyrics; this is exactly how he feels everytime someone accomplishes a great feat. of course, he's happy for the person, they've done a amazing job. but he wished he was in their shoes, to impress others while satisfying himself.

and then there's you,
standing over me,
tryna' make a fool of me,
tryna' get the best of me, oh

then there's you,
tryna' shut me out,
tryna' kick me when i'm down
but that ain't gonna stop me now, no

who is his imaginary bully. mostly himself. the latter always pushed himself down, never expecting miracles to spin from his hands. he was the one hurting himself, and gets nothing but pain inflicted back onto himself.

how does it feel,
to know that i don't care at all,
your words don't mean a thing at all,
i choose to rise, you choose to fall

how does it feel,
to know that i am capable
of more than you could ever know

don't tell me i'm not good enough,
don't you bring me down
i'm moving up, and you're over now
you gave me fire, every time you came around,
my feet are steady on the ground,
and you won't knock me down

no more, oh, oh, oh
oh, oh, oh, oh,
oh, oh, oh, oh,
now i'm unbreakable

oh, oh, oh, oh,
oh, oh, oh, oh,
oh, oh, oh, oh,
now i'm unbreakable

this song made him so much powerful than he would ever express, and was also for its sad message, that people never had a voice for themselves, could never stand for himself.

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the younger groaned in frustration when the older proceeded to climb into his bed - which was reserved - and annoy the living hell out of him. the elder knew his weak spot: tickling. and thus, the other unleashed his tyranny on the younger, who almost immediately burst into laughter.

he was weak for his family, he really was.

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done!

i split this chap, it was getting long

also i definitely recommend the song 'unbreakable', it is so good

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