Heart's POV
Sumama si Yumi samin hanggang dorm. Kasama ko siya ngayon dito sa room namin. Umalis pala ngayon sina Fatima at Ashtine.
Inaayos ko ngayon ang mga kalat ni Ashtine.
"Hays, si Ashtine talaga." sabi ko.
"Namiss kita." Sabi ni Yumi. Napatigil ako at napalingon sa kanya.
"Lilipat na pala kayo sa Japan sa susunod na buwan." Change topic ko. Nabanggit lang kasi sakin ni Mamitois nung pumunta kami ng salon, nakausap nya pala Ate ni Yumi. Napromote daw kasi sa trabaho ang mommy ni Yumi at dun na siya sa Japan nakadestino.
"But I can stay if you want." Sabi lang nito.
"Pero di ba dream mong makapunta dun?." Tuloy ko sa paglilinis.
"Pero di ko sinabing dun nako titira." Sabi niya sabay upo sa stool.
"Ikaw. Kung anong desisyon mo. Saka I'm sure mamimiss ka ng sobra ni Bianca." Para nakong maiiyak na ewan pero kaya mo yan Heart. So, I forced a smile like I usually do.
"Ikaw ba, di mo ko mamimiss?." Napalingon ako and stared into her eyes intently.
"Syempre mamimiss. Wala nakong makakalaro ng chess with a twist, wala nang magtatanong sakin ng random questions every once in a while, wala nang gigising ng maaga para ipagluto ako ng breakfast, wala nang magdadrive for me dahil pagod ako buong araw, wala nang magsasayaw sakin in the middle of the dance floor not caring about what other people would say, wala nang--"
"Hindi naman kailangang mawala lahat. Walang mawawala if you just ask me to not leave."
"Bakit ako?."
"Because you're more than enough reason for me to stay." She said sincerely.
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Bianca's POV
Andito parin ako sa klase at di parin ako makapagfocus. Akala ko si Heart lang ang poproblemahin ko tapos malalaman ko na may iba na naman siyang babaeng kasama tsk.
Hindi ko alam kung paranoid lang ako o talagang malandi lang siya. Minsan di ko narin maintindihan ang sarili ko, minsan naiisip ko baka nagiging toxic na ko saming dalawa.
Mahal ko si Yumi, pero mahal ko rin si Elmo. Di ba pwedeng dalawa nalang ang mahal ko?. Mahal ko si Elmo because he's there to cheer me up at lagi syang may solution sa mga problema, because of him I could keep my good relationship with my parents.
Si Yumi naman, di ako sigurado kung bakit mahal ko siya. Akala ko nung una nagagandahan lang ako sa kanya but things are deeper than that. Her presence and absence are both a big deal to me. She's all I think about kahit magkasama kami ni Elmo. The only problem is that I don't know if I could ever commit to her, I don't know if I could be out and proud and tell the world that she's my girl.
I worry too much about what other people would think and say, especially my parents. Pero di ko makakalimutan ang sinabi ni Tita Celine nung grade 7 pako nung PE teacher pa namin siya that,
"The right one is always the hardest one to love because it tests your limits, it tests your patience and pushes you to be better each day. But most of the time, the right one is yourself. If you learn to love yourself, you would know exactly how to love someone in the right way."
Arrrrgh ang gulo tsk. Sa tingin ko kasi the only way to love Yumi is to be selfish, I just can't imagine her being with someone else.
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Yumi's POV
7:30pm. Sa kwarto. Kakatapos lang naming magdinner.
Umupo ako sa bed.
"So, what do you want to talk about?." Sabi ko.
"Sino na naman yung babae kanina?. Bakit kayo magkasama?. Anong ginawa nyo?." Seryosong sabi nito.
"I just met her in the plant shop--"
"Sinungaling. Yumi, ano ba? Di pa ba ako sapat sayo?. Andito nako, tapos--"
"You know what, why don't you ask yourself that?. You want us to be friends pero kung makapagselos ka at pagbawalan ako daig mo pa ang asawa eh. Ano ba talagang gusto mo ha?. Kasi pagod nako. Pagod na pagod nakong manghula at maghintay. Sakal na sakal nako sayo!. Alam mo ba yun?! Syempre hindi, because all you think about is yourself!. You're taking advantage of me because you know that I love you and I would do anything for you!."
"Yumi--" Sabi nya na parang maiiyak na.
"Heart was there to witness everything. I wanted to love her but I know I can't break the promise that I told myself na hihintayin kita no matter what. But I guess waiting for someone as selfish as you is an impossible task."
"Mahal kita."
"You don't really love me Bianca, you want me because I want you. Don't say you love me because it's convenient. And most of all, wag mo akong piliin just because ako yung andito. Because if that's the case, you have no idea what love is."
"I'm sorry. Pwede pa naman nating--"
"No, I'm so done with this. I'm so done with you. You want us to be friends right?. Then act like one." Sabi ko at lumabas na dala ang kotse. Maybe I need a couple of drinks tonight.
KINABUKASAN
Nagising nalang ako sa kwarto ko. How did I get here?. Sinong nagbihis sakin?.
May nabasa akong note sa side ni Bianca sa bed and it says,
I know sorry will never be enough for all the troubles that I caused in your life, but please give me a chance to be the one I should be, A REAL FRIEND. Nothing more, nothing less. I swear I'd be a better one this time.
Love, Bianca
