Falling Pain

Prologue of Falling

AN: Falling Pain is in Boy's POV

just a warning again, close the book when you either feel bored or uncomfortable because this story tackles themes that may trigger anyone. again, they have their own way of thinking, and i hope you understand that everything is a part of the plot. please read the book with an open mind and with caution. thank you!

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PROLOGUE of
FALLING

Faster... Harder... Deeper...

That's how I define this falling.

I fell under her, so fast that I'm hardly losing myself deeper.

I can't catch myself, cause all I know is that the heaviness of my heart is full of pain.

Everything that everyone can be seen is my ill-concealed feelings and naked emotions that are used to be hidden.

The roots of my suspicion sprawled out from my gut, its malign emotions digging into the walls of my shattered heart. My tears are overflowing from my naked eyes to my clenching jaw, streaming as I groveled to the sand, trying to get away from the ocean. But it was already a painful stabbing, writhing as it's falling victim to my own beguiling suffering.

I miss the days when I can still hide my falling tears.

Now, I could barely control anything... their falling...

Life is already tearing me apart, with those pains that are falling. Feelings are all seemed shaken. Oh, how I miss it to be still unshaken...

It was so fast, that all I could remember is that it starts up to feel numb, but all its consequences are pain that I wish to feel faster...

But it's hard 'cause I've hidden almost everything that now the reality keeps on slapping me harder...

And the impact is deep 'cause how could I even take away this heart prickle, if the pain is continuously falling deeper...

- Finn

As time went on, just like these wind-driven waves beneath me, I'm just moving with the life's flow.

'Cause I don't know what to do anymore.

"Bingi talaga 'to noon pa man. Hoy Finn Eiron Weiven!" Just like that. May tumatawag sa akin, pero hindi ko kayang lingunin dahil nalulunod na yata ako sa pagtingin lang sa karagatan.

'Cause just by looking below... everything that happened is constantly flashing back in my mind. On how everything waved to me and left me behind.

Mahigpit akong napahawak sa steel railings. I decided to stay still in the port side of this private yacht while staring dumbfounded at the ocean, even I'm all aware that she was just somewhere around me.

She's just a few meters away from me, but it feels like we're a thousand miles away.

If we're not in this situation, maybe I'm enjoying these breathtaking views of our roundtrip sailings. This yacht is currently sailing down the coast, so here at the port side of the yacht's viewing decks, we're facing the gulf of the ocean and the starboard side will face the coastline.