Left To Survive

XXI

11 PM

Sitting in the waiting room of the hospital, thoughts were running through my head. I should've seen this coming. What if they couldn't bring her back? What if I lost her forever? What if I had come too late...?

And most of all: why. Why did she do this to herself? I didn't think I would ever understand. How big her pain must've been to-

Tears were rolling down my face again. I should've seen this coming, I should've been a better friend... I was her best friend. It was my responsibility. My fault. I should've done better. Instead I was all caught up with myself, with my own problems. While Yara was dying inside.

"Alisha!" I looked up. Aaron was running towards me, his mother behind him with firm steps and an angry face. Oh no. I really couldn't deal with her at this moment.

"What happened?" Aaron asked me when he arrived to me. I sighed. "I came to visit Yara, I wanted to surprise her." Aaron came sit next to me, worry written all over his face. I continued telling them what happened. How I found Yara, called the emergency line.

They came after a few minutes. Still no reaction from Yara. Meanwhile, I put her head on my lap and hold her tight. My tears were up.

When they came in, I let her go. Hope was already gone, but a part of me told myself to not give up, that they might help her anyways. They told me there wasn't a lot of chance. But I begged them, and they took her anyways. They let me in the ambulance, and I sat there holding her cold hand while they gave her a shot of naloxone and put her in a special lying position. Arrived at the hospital, they took her to a room here and told me to wait.

I've been waiting for about fifteen minutes now.

"And how did you come in my house, if I may ask?" Yara's mom asked me. Both me and Aaron looked up at her in disbelief. "Ma'am, I don't know if you're aware of it, but your daughter is dying," I told her. She scoffed. "She always liked making a drama out of things," the mother continued, "this is only going to cost us more bills that we can't pay for. She could've just asked for attention in a less radical way, she is just so extra."

I was ready to fight her and got up, but right at that moment a doctor came up to us. "Yara Evans?" he asked us. "Yeah, that's for us," I said.

The doctor looked at me. Before he opened his mouth, I already knew the answer, I could read it in his eyes. The last hope that I had was just crushed. The words he said echoed through my mind.

I am sorry, miss, we did everything we could.

No.

We came too late.

No-

Yara took a high overdose of pain killers, and her body could not process it.

No. This couldn't... "No" I told him. "She's not-" I looked at the doctor, then at Aaron, I looked around me for anything, for anyone, to show me that she was still there.

Then the floor vanished under me and I fell, and everything went black.

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3 AM

A few hours later I was home. I told my parents what happened, but I couldn't be around them for long. Instead, I went to my safe place. My parents told me I could wake them up if I needed some company.

Sitting in between all my plants, I pulled up my knees, hugged myself and let the tears flow. It has been a few hours since Yara died. I still couldn't process it, I couldn't believe it. Everything just felt like in a nightmare, a big cloud hung over me. What was I supposed to do now, without her? She is my best friend.

No, she was.

After some time I took some pillows and laid down on the floor of the conservatory. Maybe I'd fall asleep. Maybe I'd wake up and see that it was all a dream.

As I laid down, I saw the moon plant in the corner of the room. The moon was shining on it, but instead of shining bright and big, it looked dark and dry. I got up to get a closer look, and saw that the plant had died. I frowned; I didn't do anything, when I left the house it was still alive.

Everything just died around me then? That's it?

I lad back again and fell asleep into a dark pit of nightmares, waking up every hour until the morning started.

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A/N:
Hi y'all... sorry for killing of Yara-
Don't be mad at me, it's all for the plot <3