GIRLS ON TRACK || Ryeji

Chapter 77: Diaries and Withered Rose Petals Pt. 3

Ryujin's P.O.V

April 16, 2002

Dear Diary,

Things between Lisa and I have taken on a toll ever since that day she asked me about The Little Prince. We would sporadically cast a glance at each other, but it usually ends up with either one of us looking away, and it hurts so much to the extent that I want to poke my eyes for finding their way back to her without my consent. It's obvious that she doesn't want me anymore because she's got a replacement as her bestest best friend! No! I was actually the replacement of Bam Bam since he wasn't here last year. Of course, she would've wanted to befriend me so that she wouldn't feel lonely without her beloved Bam Bam. Argh! Now that she got him back, she's become estranged to me.

As if it wasn't bad enough, The Little Prince, who was supposed to cheer me up at times like this, stopped sending me roses and letters. What did I do wrong to deserve such an ill treatment from people I have grown to care about? Besides, I can bear seeing Lisa and Bam Bam being too close to each other because it makes my stomach churn with irritation, and my whole being seems to be whirling with flames. I just wish it was me at the receiving end of Lisa's smile and not Bam Bam. Isn't weird how I am getting jealous of boys when it comes to Lisa? Hell, I get jealous of everyone around her, except Jisoo and Jennie. I just can't understand my own feelings anymore too.

I don't understand yours too, mom. If you're really against me loving a girl, then why are- were you acting like you were in love with Aunt Lisa? I really can't predict your motives anymore. With a deep sigh, my vision settled back on to the book in my hands.

Speaking of Jisoo and Jennie, the duo wouldn't separate no matter what. Oftentimes, I find them locking themselves in me and Jennie's room, and I have no choice but to yell at them from the door until they let me in. I do have a spare key. However, I'm usually just lazy and exhausted to fumble for it inside my loaded bag. What's the use of it when you know that your roommate is inside the room?

Truth be told, the fact that they take too long to open the door riles me up and makes me want to kick the door down. Don't get me wrong. I'm glad that Jisoo and Jennie finally made up, but it's annoying how Jisoo's begun to invade our room as if it belongs to her. What makes matters worse is that Jennie always finds excuses to make me leave the room. These days, I'm not really in a mood to tolerate things like that.

Mom, get a hint already! If I were Aunt Jennie, I would've wanted you to leave the room too. Oh, how I wish I was in a room alone with Yeji right now! God Jihyo. Please grant my wish soon!

April 17, 2002

Dear Diary,

Now, I'm in the common room, writing my diary and sipping on a coffee as usual. Actually, there's something weird I saw on my way to one of my classes.

As I was strolling along the hallways, immensely piqued with everything that was going on, I stumbled upon a room with two occupants inside, who happened to be Bam Bam and Lisa. Blood boiled inside me the moment Bam Bam dropped down on one knee and held out a bouquet of roses toward Lisa; which the latter accepted with a smile on her face that seemed rather tightlipped or nervous. However, the fact that she took the bouquet from his hands already made my blood boil to the next degree, and my locomotion failed me for a while as I just stood at the entrance, enraged and paralyzed on the spot. Right then, two conflicting thoughts were clashing with one another inside my head; one that told me to storm into the room and make a scene, the other that advised me to flee the scene. Before I knew it, my feet were slowly bringing me toward them, not until Lisa got down on one knee, a stance that Bam Bam did earlier, and she offered the flowers to the guy.