GIRLS ON TRACK || Ryeji

Chapter 61: Always Been Her

Yeji's P.O.V

"So... you're gay?" I asked the wary girl in front me, feeling bizarre as the uncommon word rolled off from the tip of my tongue. Not that I don't know what it is. It's just... I've never given much a thought about it. The girl eyed me leerily before dropping a cautious nod. "Since you're a girl... and you're gay, does that mean you like the same gender- uh- I mean girls?" Next, she reached over for my hand on the table and enveloped it in hers, giving me a pleading look.

"P-please don't tell anyone about this, Y-yeji-yah," she begged, her voice quivering in fear, worry lines ridged her forehead. "It's not just about me only. If word gets out, my friends will also be humiliated for... for being different." She spat the word different with fervent bitterness. Thus, I placed my other palm on top of hers to reassure her.

As soon as I fathomed the unusual scene— a rather flustering scene— taking place inside the room, I muffled my gasp by pressing both of my hands to my mouth. Fellow schoolmates are eating each other's faces off— a couple on the floor, another on a table at the corner, others swaying and sensually compressing their bodies against their own partners as they dance along to the music. What's utterly bewildering about the scene is that; instead of opposite genders being indulged in each other's provocative touches, students are seemingly aroused by or attracted to their same gender partners— boys and girls alike. Amidst them all, there sat a lonesome girl on the floor, afar from the vehement activities, she watched them in envy, sighing once every now and then. Her dejected visage transformed into sheer disbelief and shock instantly when we met eyes.

Somi's P.O.V

"Don't worry, Somi-yah," Yeji comforted me, transmitting warmth from her palms into my own pair. "I'll take you and your friends' secret to my grave. Pinky promise." She released her hands from me and raised a pinky finger to interlock mine with hers. After finishing the act, we both smiled widely at each other.

"So, how did you find out about yourself?" She inquired with obvious curiosity, elbows resting on the table as her hands clasped with one another. Then, she put her chin on them, paying full attention to me.

"Well... Y'know when you're in love with a person- for me, a girl- you keep thinking about that person every single day, and anything that you see reminds you of that person. Related or not, you still think of them. They live rent free in your thoughts and you can't just get rid of them," I answered dreamily, my orbs gleaming with images of Ryujin in them, yet nobody can see these images except me— hopefully. "When she's near me, my heart begins to race and pound against my chest until I feel like it would burst open. And there seems to be a heavenly light surrounding her as if she were an angel sent from above. When she smiles at me, time would stop and everything- no, everyone around us becomes blurry, whilst she remains as clear as day and as lucid as the moonlit night. She's literally my morning, my afternoon, my evening and my night, my everything..." I trailed off when I noticed a solemn tear escaping from Yeji's right eye, trickling down her cheek and landing on the table with an infinitesimal splash, as she pouted at me.

"I never knew you could describe something as magnificent as that with remarkable metaphors and similes so vividly," she blubbered, sounding like she could cry anytime if I continue pouring out my feelings. "Don't mind about me being emotional. Just continue." She flicked her hand to beckon me. Thus, I swallowed my saliva and opened my mouth.

"Well, I love everything about her, starting from her imperfections to her perfections. I love how she's imperfectly perfect, and I accept her for being herself. Moreover, she's unpretentious and she never hides who she truly is, although she has some insecurities. Sometimes, she can be reserved because she doesn't like to bother anyone by sharing her deepest feelings, just in case the person she's sharing with might get affected with negativity. She's seriously considerate. It's one of the reasons I love her," I admitted, and Yeji nodded understandingly. "So, that's how I found out that I'm gay for her."