Unfinished, You and I

Chapter One: Unchosen

I groggily open my eyes and my head seems to still be resting on your chest. I slowly get up to avoid waking you. I look around, as I do every morning, looking for my Suorin. Failing to find it I get up from bed and pick my phone up. I find my shirt and pants and put them on. I dig through my bag to find my toothbrush and face wash. I just want to make sure I wash up before you. I go to the His and Her sink set up you have in your apartment and I go to the far side, seeing as there's nothing here. As quietly as I can I start brushing my teeth and after that washing my face.

I walk towards the bed to see you still sound asleep. I see the clock on your side of the bed and it's 5 am. When the hell did I start waking up this early? I climb on top of you and I lay my head down on your chest.

You groan, "What time is it?" You wrap your arm around me.

I chuckle, "It's 5 in the morning." I close my eyes and embrace you.

I feel you give me a kiss on the top of my head and I smile. I can feel the blood rushing to my cheeks.

"Why are you up so early?" You ask, bringing your hand up to my head, stroking the back of my hair.

"I have to leave for work." I say, "In a half-hour."

You chuckle, "Half an hour? You are too punctual." you say.

I sit up on top of you. "Well, this is new," you say chuckling.

I give you a pouty face and I roll to my side of the bed. You follow and roll on top of me. "HEEEYYY!" I yell.

You get on your hands and knees on top of me and we stare into each other's eyes for a little less than a minute. For a moment time doesn't exist. For a moment nothing else matters.

"I guess I'm up now too. Want me to take you to work?" You ask getting off the bed.

"If you're gonna take me to work I woke up early for nothing." I chuckle.

"We seriously need to get you a car," You say putting your shirt on.

"I need to get a car," I emphasize the I.

"How about for your birthday?" You ask.

I get up and follow you to the bathroom. I enter as you start brushing your teeth. I approach you from behind and hug you. I get on my tiptoes and rest my chin on your shoulder.

"I will be utterly PISSED if you get me a car," I say in a soft but stern voice.

You can't respond with the toothbrush in your mouth, but I see you smile at me through the mirror. I smile back. All I can think about is the future we can have together. All I can think is 'When I'm with you, anything is possible. When I'm with you, time stops. When I'm with you I'm happy. When I'm with you I'm whole.'

"What are you thinking about Joshy?" you say turning and facing me.

"The future," I say to you looking down.

I know you don't want a relationship yet. I can't tell you I'm thinking about us. Not yet at least. I don't want to rush things with you. You want to take it slow so I should respect that.

"What about the future?" You ask, raising an eyebrow at me. It's like you know what I'm thinking about.

"What car I'm gonna buy for MYSELF," I say softly, pushing myself out of your embrace and making my way to the bed.

"Hey! Where do you think you're going?" You playfully yell at me.

I turn around and you're running after me. You playfully tackle me onto the bed and we hit the messed up comforter, that feels like clouds, left from our slumber. We start laughing and you get on top of me again. I wrap my arms around your neck and we just gaze into each other's eyes. You softly kiss me on the lips and you flip around putting me on top without breaking the kiss. I'm balancing on one hand and knee so I don't crush you, not that I could. My alarm goes off and I break the kiss. I look around for my phone and I see it's 5:15. I press the stop button on my alarm.