Wrath of the Blazing Sun (Isla del Tesoro #3)

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Goodnight, Flaire

"What happened to you?" Tanong sa akin ni Ruce nang makita niya akong papaakyat ng hagdan galing sa baba.

His hair was messy. He looked like he just woke up.

"Please don't ask." Pagod kong sabi.

Ruce shrugged and didn't ask anything more. I took that as a chance to get inside my room before I could even catch Xenon going upstairs too.

One interaction for this day is enough to get my heart begging for rest.

My heart is dying, don't get me wrong. It feels like there's a thousand knives shooting at it. And my shield? Xenon's watch that I gave before.

Kung suot niya pa iyon, ibig sabihin, gusto pa niya ako? Because if not, he should've thrown it away, right?

If I were in his perspective, kung iniwan ako bigla ng mahal ko pagkatapos ng isang malaking away... Of course, I would've thrown it away.

But what if he just wants closure? What if he can't let go because he needs answers?

And once he gets a hold of answers, he'll throw it away?

What if... I test him?

Tutal doon ako magaling. Tutal, it was the reason I'm here. To heal myself. With the process of closure, which leads me to needing to know if he still likes me.

I just have to try.

I need to.

Kung pareho naming kailangan ng closure, then I need to push both of us in proximity.

I need us alone.

And me, in the right state of mind.

Hindi ko alam kung ilang araw kami magtatagal ni Ruce rito. I need to finish this fast. This wasn't actually a leisure for me but for Ruce, it's an honest vacation.

Now, what are my plans? I'm good at this. But when it comes to Xenon, I'm always back to square one.

Do you know the feeling of having such a heavy weight inside whenever you and your loved ones have a misunderstanding?

That's what I'm feeling now. The difference is, I feel like the universe is the one weighing me down.

How can I fight the universe?

The whole afternoon, I was so busy planning that I didn't notice it was already night.

I jumped on my bed and stared at the ceiling. Unconsciously, my hand caressed the necklace he once gave me and realization dawned on me.

Wait... Is this the reason why he couldn't talk properly earlier? Was he shocked that I still have this on me?

Tingin niya... Na gusto ko pa rin siya? Is there a possibility that we are both thinking of the same thing? Because if I'm right with his assumptions then I won't deny. Yes, siya pa rin!

Does he think I have time to flirt when I always have blood on my hands? My men kill but I torture people who are very, very bad.

Kung ganon, I can't waste time.

My plan is settled. I don't care about telling Ruce. If he knows, I'm pretty sure he'll do something to intervene. I have to cover my tracks. Just like before.

It feels like I went back to the old me.

I'll let Ruce enjoy the beach while I enjoy my pleasure.

Proving my theory about Xenon.