Wrath of the Blazing Sun (Isla del Tesoro #3)

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"Xenon! Xenon!" I was frantically screaming as they put him in a stretcher and headed straight inside the hospital.

Hindi ko na nabigyan ng pansin ang mga tauhan ni Xenon. I was so preoccupied that I might... lose him.

Hindi pwede. Please. Please...

I'm still not done. Hindi ko pa siya nakukuha ulit! I still need to make up for everything...

This shouldn't be happening. It's unfair!

"Let me go! I wanna go! I wanna come inside!" Ani ko dahil dahan-dahan akong pinigilan ng mga tauhan ni Xenon.

The nurses in the hospital were looking at me like I was crazy.

"Sorry po ma'am pero bawal na po kasi doon sa loob... Hanggang dito lang daw po..."

"No! No! I wanna come with him! No!" I screamed my heart out.

Eventually, kahit anong sigaw at pagluhod ko sa lapag habang naghihintay kung papayagan akong pumasok, napaupo na lang ako sa mga upuan na nandoon.

Xenon's men was already out of sight. Pakiramdam ko, binabantayan ako kung saan.

I don't care about anyone or anything. Just Xenon.

I took a deep breath as I tried to swim through this coming sea of problems... Trying not to drown.

I can't. I cannot handle this again.

The same anxiety, worry, and trauma I felt years ago from when he was hurt...

I cannot endure anything like that again.

It felt like the light of my life was slipping through my fingers.

Parang kanina lang, maayos ang lahat.

Kanina lang, nagagawa niya pa akong asarin.

Kanina lang, nagagawa ko pa na magalit sa kaniya.

Kanina lang, ako ang mahuhulog sa bangin.

Kanina lang, galit siya nang sagipin ako dahil bigla na naman akong umalis ng walang paalam.

Kanina lang, akala ko ayos na.

Kanina lang, nasaktan na naman ako.

I'll let you annoy me forever. I'll let you enslave me as a server of your heart. I'll let you cage me and free me from everything the world has thrown at me. I'll let your anger flow through my heart for as long as you want until you forgive me.

Just wake up, Xenon.

Wake up, sweetie.

Come back.

Iyak ako ng iyak habang naghihintay sa labas ng emergency room. Ang tagal ko nang naghihintay ngunit hindi pa rin tapos ang mga luha ko.

I already called his family about what happened.

I felt so shameful. But they needed to know.

Handa ako sa magiging galit nila sa akin. I know it was my fault. I was stupid!

Ngunit hindi ko mapigilan ang hindi mainis. I should've caught that bullet. Hindi dapat si Xenon matatamaan if he just stayed still!

And damn! Bukod sa nasaktan siya, poproblemahin ko pa ang mga umatake sa amin. Damn them! Lagi na lang perwisyo ang dala nila sa akin!

Coming back to Isla del Tesoro made me calm. Ngunit ngayon na sinundan pa ulit ako rito, I'm just raging.

I'm pretty sure it's a past group we had bad blood with. Matagal nang sira sina Odds kaya malabong sila. I was there. I know it.