Out of the Rabbit Hole

Chapter 35

Simon P.O.V

Can I even say I'm a wreck at this point?

Everything I knew about her, everything we've done she knew what she was keeping from me. It's pretty crazy how she could hide it from me and I didn't even think it was a possibility that she was a guy.

Andrew, she is Andrew. That weird boy who was strangely funny at the same time. He was a dork and I'll admit it, I never thought I'd hold a conversation with him that would change me forever. I came back to Edison to find the guy and I end up dating him?

That has to be karma or something. Fate, maybe?

I trudge into the school building, forgetting about seeing Andrea in the parking lot with Cecil. She's skipping school to play hooky with Cecil or something?

I don't care. It's none of my business anyways.

We broke up, and she's a liar. I don't have to worry myself over her. I already have a lot on my plate. My dad's pissed about my grades, I'm always stressed about practice and this whole issue with Andrea isn't helping the cause.

It's fuel to the fire for me. I can't describe how upsetting all of this is.

"Hey, Simon, right? You done messing with drag queens? BJ not up to par? I thought gays were good at them?" A girl passes by me, spitting venom about Andrea. And I know she was talking about Andrea, its obvious.

What the fuck was that?

What the hell does she mean?

I quickly walk up to her, spinning her around sharply as she tries to leave.

"What the fuck did you say? What the fuck did you say?!" The girl cowers away, terror flashes across her face.

"Nothing! Let go, you're hurting my arm!" I twist her arm more, feeling her flesh grow warmer as I keep my deadly grip tight.

"No! What did you say before?!" Her friends behind her look on in complete shock. First period has already started so I have no idea why they are out here in the halls.

"Your girlfriend! Everyone knows she's a nasty fucked up guy! Now let me go!" She yanks her arm away from me as I loosen my grip on her.

She whispers some cuss words then runs down the hall with her friends not too far behind.

How could that have gotten out? I never told anyone, in fact, after I got home from the trip I cried. Man I cried so hard, the hardest I did in years.

The last time I did that was when my mother died. It was unbearable much like now.

I was so mad and angry at everything. It irked me how Andrea didn't have the confidence in me to keep her secret. But now, it's out.

I don't know why or how people found this out.

Even if I'm angry with Andrea, I'd never tell others about this. It's something she'd need to tell. Did her parents know about this whole thing? That she was keeping this away from me since the beginning.

They must've, probably even helped her hide it from me. What a bitch.

"No....." I can't say that about her, it doesn't feel right and I'm just thinking these things because I'm irritated.

Andrea is not a bitch. She's nice and caring and she hid this with a purpose. If I had a big secret like hers I wouldn't be able to easily tell others.

I couldn't even tell my classmates that my mom died of AIDs. It hurt so much to know who gave it to her and I never wanted to remind myself about the truth.