Out of the Rabbit Hole

Chapter 33

Andrea P.O.V

It's about time to leave and everyone it packing up to get in their cars to drive back to Edison. Simon just threw in our last bag, locked the lodge up, and is now waiting to say goodbye.

I stand, idly by, as the group hugs their last minute goodbyes and thank you's. I get a few hugs myself and a lingering eye roam form Pete who makes me smile one last time before we head out.

He's a good guy. Irritating, but likable.

It's been an eventful week, that I can tell you, and I have no idea what's in store afterwards.

Simon hasn't spoke to me since last night at the dock and he's silent during the whole drive down. I can't seem to find an appropriate topic to blabber on about, but I'm starting to think maybe the silence is necessary. It's helping process what I've done and committed.

I didn't lie. I know I never lied to him.

There's always some things that a person finds hard to bring forth to the table. Everyone has one detail that is difficult to spit in a causal chat and you'd be lying to yourself if it isn't the truth.

Why would I have to explain to him who I was before, when it's not who I am now?

It's wrong to think like this, I get it, but I can't help feel pity towards myself. I'm just about to settle my head against the window to rest for the ride but my phone starts buzzing.

"Oh." I reach for my bag on the floor, rummaging for my phone to see it's my mom calling. Out of the corner of my eye, Simon watches me put it to my ear. "Hello? Hey mom."

I really need to get off his plan. I can't keep using this phone that he pays for. I don't use it much anyways, it was only beneficial to Simon.

"Hi, sweetheart, how was the trip? Was it fun? Is Simon there?"

"It was good, I had a nice time. And yeah, he is." I look over to Simon who's eyes are glued to the rode. The trip was overall alright." How are you? Was there something you wanted to tell me?"

I can't tell my mother about what happened. I doubt she even knows I never mentioned I'm transgender to him.

She'd be disappointed in me for not doing that.

"I'm wonderful, I'm sending in another manuscript and I've started writing a screen-play for some movies. Your sister is still the same and your dad is on the back burner about this little spring break trip, so no worries. "

"Okay." I flick to Simon again who's hand is on the radio's knob, quietly turning it to find a better station.

"Yes, so now that you're up to date on us, I should tell you some news, that's why I called."

" What is it?"

"It's about that thing you really wanted."

"What thing?" What's she talking about, 'thing', I don't ask her for much.

Well, not like possessional, more like personal.

"That thing that will cost us another child potentially going to college. That thing."

"Mom, can you just tell me what it is? I honestly don't understand. "

Simon has gotten interested in our conversation, his eyes roam to me a couple of times.

"Andy, it's happening!"

"What? What's happening?" I'm not too keen on her sudden excitement and I'm starting to wonder if this thing is going to be bad.