Luke imagine ~ sad

Luke imagine ~ sad part 19

HI guys, i've been away for a looong time now, haven't i? well i have been trying to figure out how to continue this story, because so manny of you wanted me to. So i decided why not give it a few more tries?

soooo guys here is prt 19 :D

ENJOY x

*lukes pov*

As i felt myself fall my whole life flashed before my eyes, when i first met Ashton for example.

Ohgod we had so much wierd stuff going on when we were younger. He was like my borther, i love him to death.

But now i'm leaving him

I'm sorry Ashton

I thought about the rest of the boys, they were all my brothers, my family, and all the other people that apperently cared for me.

I'm sorry mom

I'm sorry dad

I'm sorry

But the biggest sorry to all of them.. goes to Y/N.

I'm sorry that i couldn't be strong without you

I was so caught up in my thinking i didn't realize i was already in the water, i felt my body grow numb and soon all the air in my lungs were gone, i was sinking fast in the cold dark water. This place reminded me of my own mind. I felt my body relax for once as i felt myslef slip away, i would be gone soon. And i would finally be able to get peace, i opend my eyes, and i saw the sky above the water surfice, it was snowing awfully alot now, the water would soon turn to ice. And i would be gone

Forever.

They would never find me, ever.

I was in the peace i never could find when i was.. up there i guess. I'm finally doing it, i'm finally gone, i can finally find the only cure to my pain. The cure was to disappear, the cure was to never look back at whats been hauting me.  I can finally rest without having to worry about everything that was wrong with me, with my life. 

Nothing is going to bother me now, nothing is going to disturb me anymore.

I DON'T HAVE TO BE SCARED

I don't have to be scared...

Everything is going to change i guess, but what can i do?

I need to think a litte more about me, it has never been about me.

It's been about ME having to be okay, having to be fine, i just had to be perfect, even tho the only thing that i could call perfect about myself was the pain, the pain...

That was the only thing that didn't change about me, the pain. The fucking buzzing sound in my head every single day, that feeling of emptyness , that feeling of my own body just being crushed in to tiny pieces everytime i tried to move. I would never feel that now. I would never feel anything bad anymore, I  wouldn't feel a single thing. Everting would now be perfect, i would finally meet her again.

The only thing that was perfect about me, she made my life. When she passed.. I 

I just didn't know what to do.. i was destroyed.

There was nothing left of me.

But now i would never have to feel this crushing feeling again, cuz' now, i will soon hold her in my arms again. 

I wont ever go back.

This is the end now, the darkness became stronger. I could feel everything around me disappear, a few dots of light appeard and i could see a pair of arms streching out to catch me. I'm finally gone.

Again, i'm sorry..

But this is my home

She is my home.

And i don't regret a thing.

Goodbye pain

This was everythig from me, i'm NOT going to miss you.

SOOO GUYS THIS WAS SADLY THE END OF THIS STORY

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X