Luke imagine ~ sad

Luke imagine ~ part 12

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sooo heres part 12! :D

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*Ashtons pov*

When Luke said those words my heart breaked, he needs to belive in himself. I can't do this without him. I know the he is blaming himself for everything, but it's not his fault. He didn't want this disease.

I know he feels bad about me, but I can handle it. He is my best buddie, i would do anything for him.

I looked over at him, he stared in to nothing. He was completly lost, i don't know what to do anymore. 

"I don't want to live" A voice suddenly said, i jerked my head up to see Luke looking at me.

Did he just said that?

 I looked him right in the eyes, 

"What?" i said, not beliving my own ears. 

"I said i don't want to live anymore" he said looking down

"You don't mean t-that Luke" i said as the tears started to build up. 

"Yes i do" Luke said as he started to cry.

I got up from the chair next to his bed and stood by it instead, I looked down at him. I took my fingers under his chin and tilted his head up to look at me.

"No, you don't" i said calm, but by the look in his eyes i could tell, he was speaking the truth. 

To be honest i was suprised, Luke wan't one of those people who gave up easy. But here he was, telling me he wanted to die, that was something new... 

*Lukes pov* 

I never felt this way before, i feel empty. How am i suposed to live a normal life? I can't get up everyday telling myself that everything is okay when it's really not.

This past year is based on a lie, a lie i made up to tell myself. And now iv'e seen the truth, something i should have seen a long time ago. That this wont work out as good as i told myself it would. 

 I didn't answer Ashton, i couldn't. He always thought i was strong, that i could move on from everything. And maybe thats true, but i can never move on from this. I don't want to disappoint him either, but i can't live like this. 

I just wish he would understand, but what is he suposed to do when his best mate tells him that he gives up. I usually never gave up, but this time iv'e lost the light, and it's dark. 

I wont be able to find myself again, i'm broken all the way in to the bones. A part of my heart followed Y/N, she had it, and she always will. Darkness is surrounding me, iv'e reached my end, and i won't come up again. 

I could feel Ashtons brown eyes burning into my skin, 

He wanted an answer.

An answer that i couldn't give him. 

But ofcourse Ashton read my thoughts.. 

"Luke you have so much to live for" He said smiling kindly as tears started to form in his eyes.

"No i don't" i said with no emotions in my voice. 

Ashtons smile faded.

"Don't say that Luke, you've got friends and family that loves you" 

"Y/N was my everything Ashton, and she isn't here anymore." i said looking away.

"I miss her" i said as i stared to cry.

Just as Ashton was going to say something there was a knock on the door.

A nurse appeared in to the doorway. 

"Excuse me?" she said witha high pitch voice.

"Yes?" Ashton answered. 

"The doctors just wants some final tests, then your able to go home." she said giving Ashton a warm smile.

"Thanks nurse" Ashton smiled back.

She nodded and then just as quick she appeared she was gone. 

Just a few minutes later a tall man and a woman in white coats came into the room. They started to stick needles in me, and checked alot of other stuff until they were done.

Yeah sure "Just some tests"  rather a thousands of them. 

"Okay Mr. hemmings were done here and you are able to go home, make sure you take your new medication twice per day, and oh Mr. Irwin, please don't leave him out of sight" the male doctor said pointing at me. 

"Yeah i wont.." Ashton said with a sigh. 

"Great! i'll see you around" the man said smiling.

"Yeah okay?" Ashton said witha wierd look on his face when the doctors was on their way out. 

"Okay, i'll guess we'll be going then" Ashton said grabbing my stuff.

"Yeah" i said looking at my feets.

On our way home? wow i never thought that would happend after all this.

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