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Demiromantic?

So I've thought for a while that I might be demiromantic.

I take a long time to even feel comfortable with people as friends, but almost every (real) person I've been romantically attracted to has been someone I've been close friends with. Which has made me wonder if I even feel romantic attraction at all. I mean, what if I'm confusing platonic and romantic attraction? (But it sure as hell didn't feel platonic when I wanted to make out with my friend last year-) ((I'm over it now but daaamn that man is still fiiiiine- but he's considerably taller than me even and my ego would never allow such a thing so it's kind of for the best that that never worked out-))

Also, I've never had a romantic relationship.

I had never even been kissed until a couple months ago.

Every person I asked out rejected me, because they 'just thought of me as a friend' and 'thought it'd be weird because we're too much alike, we're basically the same person' or 'I never even thought of you like that'

It makes me wonder sometimes if it's some kind of sign that I'll never be in a romantic relationship or I'm not meant to be..

I don't know. I've also wondered if I'm gay since most of my crushes have been on guys, but I know I'm not. 

But yeah. Demiromantic. Maybe?