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umm this is a title

i try to be strong, y'know?

i try to be okay.

i don't want anyone hurt or worried or anything.

i want everybody else to be okay, so i try to be too.

it's easier said than done.

i try to smile, laugh, put on a front.

it's been getting harder and harder to do.

i hardly even left my bed all day. 

i just didn't feel like it.

after all, what reason do i have to get up? what is there to do?

i just laid in bed and watched cartoons. what else is there to do?

i don't know why my body won't just shut down on its own. why should i be responsible for making it do so?

living is a lot of work. y'know?

and you're going to say "it's worth it" or whatever. and maybe it is. fuck, i dunno.

it just..doesn't seem worth it.

and i know you're all tired of my angsty bullshit by now, but i have nowhere else to go with this. i have no one else to talk to about it, so i vent here. it doesn't really help that much, but it's something to do. a way to occupy the time.

i don't know why i keep doing this.

y'all really don't have to read any of this bullshit, i apologize for posting all my dumb shit.