g. s. ; ENIGMA - ( 18 )
WARNINGS ; none.
intro - C418
( 4:36 )
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i was aware of her leave as soon as she left the bed.
when she came home almost two hours later, i was awake waiting for her in the kitchen with a cup of tea in my hand and a scowl on my face. she was startled to see me awake, clearly, but it didn't stop her from smiling at me once and then silently continuing in like nothing had happened.
i didn't move an inch, but she still made herself a snack and changed clothes. she still watered my plants and cleaned up, and eventually she finished after midnight laying in bed. i hadn't tried to speak to her, only because i wanted her to understand how angry and worried i'd been when she left without a word. but it seemed like she almost found comfort in ignoring my presence.
for the first time, i'd felt like i didn't exist.
with the strong moonlight illuminating the room once more, i waltzed into our bedroom without any care.
"we need to talk," i demanded. she sat up in bed peacefully, and in her lap was a half-finished romeo and juliet. she hadn't averted her eyes from the book, upsetting me more.
"about what?" she asked.
"i think you know what," i replied. angrily i reached out and closed the book that was in her hands, garnering a glare, which was the only time she'd looked at me since she'd come home.
"are you mad because i left?" she scoffed. "i can handle myself, satoru."
"you think it's that simple?" there was a snarky tone to my voice that she clearly didn't appreciate. "you snuck out, why? what couldn't you tell me? more so, did you really think i'd pay so little attention that i wouldn't notice that you were gone?"
"i didn't want to wake you, satoru. but that doesn't mean i need you to dote on me like i'm a child. i knew what i was doing."
"well, i never asked to deal with your trust issues either, yet here we are. at least i don't brush you off like some minor inconvenience."
"minor inconvenience?" she repeated with spite in her voice. "you are aware that you are the largest part of my life, right? i only just got to speak to my brother for the first time since the incident, but i'm so sorry that you feel like just a minor inconvenience. i'm sorry that this minor inconvenience is you not completely owning my life for two hours. and if anyone has trust issues, it's you."
"why hide so much, then? since you're so honest. you never telling me how you're feeling or what might be happening in your brain. i never thought i'd have to fucking clear it up that i can't read minds, y/n."
"are you serious? you never fucking asked! i'm no mind reader either, but even i can fucking see that you're just some pervert who couldn't stand to be alone."
"right, right. because all i've ever done is beg for sex and complain about how lonely i was before you."
"which part is upsetting you more, satoru? the fact that you don't have complete control over me? or is it the fact that there is not a single person who could learn to love you outside of me?"
