g. s. ; ENIGMA - ( 19 )
WARNINGS ; none.
ykwim - YOT CLUB
( 3:32 )
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waking up to find her not next to me in bed was probably the worst event that could happen, especially with what she had told me last night. so many questions ran through my head that i could barely stand up straight.
was i too late?
that same dream had occurred where i was left all alone, where nobody would even notice that i was there. i realized it had been because the one person who truly saw me was gone. is that what it would feel like when the week was over? no, i knew i'd have to do something. she said that there was nothing that i could do, but i knew that was a lie.
i know i promised that i would let everything happen the way that it would eventually happen, but i knew it was more so to keep me away from the danger. which is just something that i could not, would not do. i refused to believe that even while i had all this power to myself, i would still be rendered powerless. so powerless to where i can't even save that one person.
i pushed myself out of bed and was left pacing in the living area, checking my silver watch and glancing at the clock on the wall every other second, hoping for something to happen. i told myself to wait just a little longer after every minute that passed by, though it was becoming harder and harder. i'd hear the footsteps of his neighbors just outside and i'd freeze thinking that finally, finally y/n had returned to me. but it never happened.
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after spending most of my night awake and worried, and then scaring myself all morning, i had finally taken a break and sat down on the couch, where i almost instantly found the sleep that i didn't realize that i needed. only an hour later, y/n appeared in the living room after a bright flash. she quietly walked to kneel by my side with an envelope in her hand, which she sat down on the arm of the couch.
she was mumbling to herself, though her recognizable voice was enough to wake me anyway. the quiet, sweet, and so, so calming voice of the woman that i loved made my heart beat. as i suddenly sat up and reached out to wrap my arms around her, it was like i'd never fallen asleep at all.
"you came back."
"of course, i did," she laughed. "were you waiting for me?"
"it felt like forever," i replied.
"forever is a long time, satoru."
i knew she was only making fun, but my mind was already beginning to fall back and feel how i felt the night before. forever was a long time. and i'd have to live for such a long time without the feeling of her being near me.
"we've been together for so long that i forgot what it was like for you to be gone," i said.
silence took place in our living room. i saw her cast her eyes down and bite her lip. i felt guilty for speaking on it in the first place. she was obviously trying to avoid the topic for as long as she could.
"i'm sorry. i shouldn't have mentioned it."
"it's fine, it just sucks is all," she responded.
"that's definitely an understatement for how bad it actually is."
she laughed and stood up. she looked around for a moment before bending over, giving me a generous view, to pick up a shirt that was on the floor. she tossed it at me.
