An Inconvenient Attachment

Chapter 33

Alec pov
I do not remember what day it has been. All I've done is helped the Johnsons to move in. It was a relief knowing that Alice's memories returned. The Johnsons haven't let me off since I've started helping them last time.

A tired sigh escapes, I deserve this.

With the last furniture moved into the house, I decided to head back home. It was tiring to move stuff consecutively. Walking out the house, I felt Alice following behind me. When I got to the front porch she called out my name.

"Hey Alec." It sounded solemn, serious and not so fragile.

I turn to face her.

"Can we talk?" Her expression looked serious. "Why was I the first one to say how have you been?" There was a glossy look in her eyes, welled up with tears.

"I–"

"Have you actually ever wondered how I have been?!" She's straining her throat.

Now I remember, even more vividly. The day she woke up after surgery. I called her name, she looked confused and frightened. Told me to go away and that she didn't remember me at all.

It was a painful jab in the chest, I tried explaining I was her boyfriend. She said she didn't have one. The effort I put in when she was hospitalised, she would brush it all away.

Repeatedly told me I was a creep and it was uncomfortable. Then finally Mr. and Mrs.Johnson found a better hospital in another state. Without having a proper closure nor anything, Alice was gone, just like that.

"Everyday," I finally budged. "Everyday was hell for me. The moment you opened your eyes and didn't have any fond memories of us was as painful as it could be." My neck felt like it was being wrapped around with barbed wire. There was a lump in my throat.

I continued, "After you were gone, it left me even more confused on what I should do. I couldn't move on nor could I have continued with our relationship. It felt like a long agonising pain." My breath slightly picked up. I paused to regain control of myself.

A lump went down my throat, "I wondered every single day how you were doing or whether you remembered me yet. The guilt was so unbearable that I had alcohol poisoning from drinking too much in a short period of time." Hearing my own voice shake was making it worse.

She finally spoke up, "Then why haven't you said anything to me yet?! Why are you so quiet?! Why aren't you glad that I've regained my memories of us! We can start over Alec!" She cried out loud, her chest heaving.

"I–" The silence between us felt like it lasted a long time. But eventually, "I decided to move on after the 6th month," came out.

She didn't respond.

"I couldn't bear to see my friends taking care of my overly reckless ass every time. They were suffering because of me. I felt no value for my life after the guilt had overwhelmed me but seeing my friends being affected, I decided to move on." I wanted to get away from this shitty atmosphere already.

"What are you saying?" Her voice came out shaky. The tears that had threatened to fall finally rolled down her cheeks.

"I'm saying I've moved on and I like someone else now," that felt gut wrenching to say. This stupid miserable face I'm making is starting to bother me. I want to rip my face off. My hands balled up into a fist.

"Fuckkk!" She cursed, looking at the ground while rubbing her head. "If I wasn't so stupidly blinded by liking you, I wouldn't have gotten in that accident!!" Her chest heaving, she continued, "You made me lose my memories and now that I have regained it..." She paused.