Just A Personal Assistant

eighteen - a needed break

Track:

September - James Arthur

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"There is nothing to regret - either for those who go or for those who are left behind" - Eleanor Roosevelt

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Louis was left on his knees after Harry closed the door. Everything suddenly came back to him, the day he left, the day at the park, everything. He crawled to the corner of his office and folded his knees as he buried his face in between his knees. He sobbed all the pain out, wishing that per tear that rolled down his cheeks is another ounce of pain gone. He just watched as Harry walked out in him. Why does people always ends up leaving him? Why can't everyone he loves stay? Is there something wrong with him? Those questions just made the ache in his heart more. He knew Harry would be back but he can't help but feel all those feelings he felt. He sobbed even more and after a few minutes he heard his office door open.

"Louis?" a girl said, "Why are you crying? Is it because of Harry? I saw him leaving a few minutes earlier"

"Why do you even care?" Louis said muffled because his mouth was covered by his arms, and his breath was shaky so it was a bit inaudible but the girl in his door still heard,

"I'm a friends of Harry and just so you know, I worked for you in a while now, Amber? Do you even know me?"

"Unfortunately, I do. What do you want?"

"If you don't mind me asking, what happened?"

"In case you haven't noticed, Harry's gone" he snapped

"I don't think he is, he'll come back. He just need space from all the stress you've given him these few days"

"What do you even know?" Louis raised his head up,

"Everything, actually, Harry went to mine last night. Told me everything that happened, how much you've hurt him" Louis felt Amber place her hand at the Louis' back, rubbing soothing circles on his back,

"How much I've hurt him?! How about how much he hurt me?!" he felt Amber flinch as he snapped,

"Honey, he caught you on bed with another girl, think about how he'll feel, probably much worse than what you are feeling right now" Louis just stayed silent after that, actually listening to what Amber just advice and tried putting himself on Harry's situation, "I remember seeing my crush in bed with my best friend, it felt like hell. She knew I like him but she still did it. My heart was broken thrice by that same guy. I felt unwanted, I still do, I felt gross about myself because people would leave me and it made me feel like everything I did is wrong, but guess who helped me? You did. Your songs, your smile. Saying it now, reminds me why I took this job in the first place, because of you. So if you think that you're feeling probably the most bad feeling right now, honey, you're not even halfway how I felt" Amber continued,

"Could you get my medicine for me?" Louis asked as he looked Amber in her eyes. She was indeed beautiful, her eyes was dark brown, she had a black curled hair, the one where you know that it was natural and she was wearing glasses which made her look cute. She would be the type Louis would go for if he was straight, unfortunately, he isn't

"This pills?" Amber said as she shook the bottle to get Louis' attention, she was successful after getting a nod from Louis. She threw the bottle at Louis who caught it and crawled all the way to the coffee table in his office and got himself a bottle of water from the pile in the table. He took a pill per bottle and drank them both together.