Just A Personal Assistant

thirty five - a home sweet home

Track:
Let you go-Joshua Bassett

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"I should've asked if you were okay" Yumi

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Harry was looking intently at Amber who was fiddling with her fingers looking back and forth to the front and down. Harry could see the glint of pain in her dark hazel eyes, shimmering brightly. But he could also see a small portion of sincere happiness. He looked at Liam and Zayn who was laughing at each, they both looked happier. He could clearly see the joy and love in Liam's eyes and Zayn was glowing from all the smile his showing. As much as Harry wants to believe that Zayn's happy with Gemma, the scene happening in front of him is proof enough that Zayn's happier with Liam. Harry sighed deeply.

"A penny for your thoughts?" Louis asked as he placed his hand on Harry's back,
"It's nothing" the green eyed boy replied whole looking at his lap
"You really think that I'll believe that?"
"Its just that-"
"Zayn looks happier with Liam" Louis finished for him,
"Am I really easy to read?" Harry blushed,
"I might be dieing, but I'm not blind babe"
"Don't say that. You're not going to die." the younger boy  replied, making each word sternier,
"It's just the facts baby, it doesn't mean it will happen. But we need to maybe... consider it"
"We just visited the doctor last week. Your chemo's doing so good. Your tumors size is reducing!"
"Baby, we need to face the fact that I might die. It will be easier for you to move on when you accept it" the blue-eyed boy explained his side,
"What the f- How dare you say that?!" Harry shouted making Liam stop the car immediately and everyone look at the two
"Baby-"
"No! You want me to say that the person who I ever loved, wh-who makes my life c-complete is going to die! You want me to accept the fact that MY boyfriend will leave me! Put yourself in my shoes! Would you want your boyfriend to tell you that! Are you even using your head! You want me to accept the fact that I will have to need to find someone else! You know what that makes me feel?! It makes me feel like you don't even want me! you want me to find someone else! Then fine! Let's not wait! "
"Why do you always need to be a brat?!" Louis shouted making everyone gasp, but Louis wasn't done, "You always make everything worse than it's supposed to be! You always make everything about yourself! You think it's easy for me huh?! Knowing that once and if I die, you'll be out there all alone, that you might love someone else! If I didn't love you and if I wanted you with someone else I would have dumped you a long time ago!"
"i think that's enough-" Liam tried to intervene seeing as Harry was now in the edge of having a breakdown with all of Louis' words, but Harry raised his hands, shutting Liam up. He was trying to contain everything in, so he looked down and placed the back of his hand against his mouth,
"But I didn't! I gave you my all! I let you in! I gave up the walls I spent  years and years of building! And now you doubt my love! If anyone should have the doubt it should be me! I don't really know you, you're past! Why you have nightmares, why you draw! I don't know anything! So get that in your stupid head!"

Everyone was shocked with Louis. No one was expecting that. Even Louis. After saying all those words, he regretted everything. He looked at Harry who was silently crying. He looked around to see, Niall shocked at him with his kiuth firming an 'o', Iana, Taylor and Alex was too, Zayn looked mad, Liam was standing in between the front car and the back, Eleanor was surprised with Louis, while Amber had tears swelling in her eyes.

"Baby-" Louis placed his hand on Harry's shoulder, but Harry flinched, so Louis dropped his hands in defeat. Harry went to get something in his bag, he opened the zipper, filling the silence in the van, he took out something and shoved it on Louis' chest,
"Take your darn pills and find me outside" Harry instructed before walking towards the van's door, everyone's eyes following him and stepping out.