Track:
Kid In Love - Shawn Mendes
~~~Your eyes are all it takes for me to feel good about myself - Unknown
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It's been two weeks since Louis' accident. They're a day away from being released from the hospital. A lot of people still doesn't know about tumor and management like to keep it that way. Although, they have been receiving a lot of 'get well' tweets from fans. Management decided to shave Louis' hair off and give him a customized wig that he will permanently wear from now on. The wig looked natural on him so they wouldn't need to worry about it being noticed.Eleanor and Tina also went by and visited every day for the sake of the stunt. The first time they visited, Eleanor went for a kiss but Louis was quick enough to push her away, which she reacted quite childish by stomping out the door. Taylor also visited every once in a while, there was this one time that management had her wear Harry's jacket out just so the world will know that their still in this 'relationship'. Liam, Niall and Iana also visited him every other day. Louis had grown fond of Iana, she was quiet but knows how to go with the flow of the conversation. On their 8th day in the hospital, Amber brought Oreo to the hospital sneaking the little puppy in her bag. Oreo immediately recognized the smell of her owners and jumped to the bed giving Louis a bunch of kisses. She stayed with Amber for now, since dogs aren't allowed at the hospital but they sneak her in from time to time.
On the other hand, Louis and Harry's relationship had only gotten stronger. Louis couldn't be a more grateful to have someone like Harry in his life. Harry was also so positive about the situation saying that this is only a way to make Louis stronger, but little does Louis know that Harry will sometimes cry when Louis falls asleep. Thinking about the 'ifs' and the 'whens' when Louis goes away. If Louis goes away, he'll never be able to move on from it. If Louis goes away, a part of him too. And he doesn't want that Louis had been a part of his life even though it's only been a month since they met. He was now sure that he loves him, he always feel safe around him, he feels as if he only needs to be him around Louis, he feels like there's no judgement between them, no tension and no pain. Sometimes when he can't stop crying he would take him sketchpad out and draw a fragment of his imagination in it wishing that one day everything he wishes will come true, in this case he only has one wish, time. He wants to be able to see Louis conquer everything he wants. He wants to be able to hold his hand when he turns old. He wants to be able to see Louis smile when he sees his grandchildren and to top all of that he really wants to see Louis' smile every day.
Meanwhile, Louis is more on the realistic side of the situation. He knows the chances of him living are low and he is willing to accept it. He isn't scared, not of dying, anyways, it is more of leaving the people that he loves behind. It's seeing the look on their faces when he slowly fades away into a peaceful sleep, that's what scares him. So every night and everyday he cherishes it even more knowing that his days are counted. Sometimes he hears Harry cry when he pretends that he's sleeping, he knows that Harry's hurting and it makes this whole thing harder than it already is. That's what motivated him in living nowadays, Harry. Every night he prays to God asking Him for more days, asking Him to heal him, or to at least shrink the tumor. He's never really a religious person but this situation made him believe in God. He has never given much thought as to where does he like this relationship with Harry go. He knows for sure that Harry's the guy that he's soul is meant to find, as cliché as that may sound, but he's just scared of falling in love. He's still scared that Harry will one day get up and just leave. He knows that Harry has proven himself of Louis' trust but who knows, trust is always packaged with pain. He also know that he is being unfair at the situation, because if the chemotherapy is unsuccessful, he'll be the one leaving Harry. He'll be the one getting up and leaving, and that's much more scarier than Harry leaving him.

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