Signal of Distress

43 - Distress

~ Airplane - B.o.B - Hayley Williams ~
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The love of my life, forever
-Elijah Chambers

I wake up to the bright light coming in from the huge window. I look around only to realize Elijah is not next to me. But his own journal, the one he bought me and my locket.

"Eli?!" I call out. No response. He probably went to get food.

I pick back up my locket in my hands. I feel around my neck to make sure I'm still wearing his chain. I wonder how he found it? Maybe it was in my clothes? We're still at the hotel. I don't think he would steal it.

I open it up and a gasp escapes my mouth. There's a photo in each of the four spaces. My eyes stare at the fourth one.

My grandma, my mom, my sister and Eli.

What the fuck. "Eli?!" I call out again as I stand up. I reach for my phone on the night side table and begin calling him.

His phone goes off in the same room as me right now. Why would he put a photo in himself of my own locket? I reach for his journal and open it.

Two small envelopes fall out. One marked Micheal Revi and the other marked River Mitchell. I take mine and open it. It's a letter from Elijah.

Hey Love,
I stole your locket just for the day. I hope you don't mind. I had a good reason for it.

This is hard to say. By the time you wake up you probably won't even realize what's happening.

Just know I love you always, as stars, as humans.

Except one of us is going to have to be the star while the other is a human. Just for a little while. Until you grow old and grey and can barely walk up the stairs.

I had this day planned for a while now.

I'm sorry.

I failed you. I promised I wouldn't leave you, I promised I wouldn't hurt myself and I promised I wouldn't hurt you. Baby I'm so fucking sorry.

I didn't keep my promise but I need you to keep yours. I need you to keep going. You're so strong and you're so smart and there are so many great things to come for you in life.

My course is over.

Please don't hurt yourself, don't take this letter the wrong way. I had this exact date in my head for a while now. Since before we met again. Nothing you could've done would've changed the outcome. You're the reason I lived these last moments of my shitty life in happiness.

You're perfect.

But you're also right- a thought is more powerful than the Trigger

I know I was your everything. I know you love me. I love you. I love you always. You are my soulmate but maybe I wasn't yours.

You're young. I'll be fine if you marry someone else and have kids. I want you to. I know it's something you've dreamt of since you were a little girl. You told me at that summer camp, remember.

River baby I love you. And these past ten months have meant the most to me than any other time in my life. As long as you were in my arms and in love with me by the end of the night.

Complete your dreams, I got to complete mine- falling in love with you. My one and only true goal in life was happiness and you brought that to me.