Cal's Gal [ editing ]

ch. 51: "rough"

Tatiana's P.O.V 

Time. 

I needed time for myself and the new baby.

It had been exactly two week without any contact from the boys.

Anne would visit me recently at the suite I was staying in, as for my parents they sent me some cash here and there to make sure my life wasn't complete hell.

"How are you feeling?" Anne asked, setting down her coffee on the kitchen table that I've gotten delivered to my door from my parents.

I actually had no idea what I was currently feeling. It's not like anyone would actually care about how I was doing. My mind has been flooded with my own thoughts every single day and no one seems to care. People would just ask me how I was doing to make conversations, no one ever did or have ever cared for my own feelings.

"I've been good." I smiled at Anne.

"Really? That's great! Have you heard from any of the boys yet?"

"No. I don't really expect them to be on their phones alot since they're really busy with the tour." I responded, hoping she would stop asking about the boys.

"Oh. Well, Ashton's been up to texting me and he says that their doing great." she updates me, but I could honestly care less.

"How are you and Ash doing by the way?" I questioned her, hoping to change the subject.

She shifted in her seat uncomfortably and her eyes teared up.

"Well- I really miss him." she sighs, giving an awkward laugh as she rubs her eye. "It's silly I know it's only had been two weeks or so but I really miss him. I'm super happy for him, really I am. But I feel like our relationship is distancing.."

I felt her pain.

I moved closer, putting a hand on her shoulder and almost tear'd up myself.

"It's gonna be okay Anne. Don't overthink things. I'm sure Ash loves you more than he loves anything in the whole world, well except for his family of course.Just keep your head up, the two of you have always been inseparable. Another tip, don't listen to the rumors with the groupies I'm pretty sure those girls are just some friends or fans." she nodded her head and laughed.

 I'm sorry for overthinking things. I always overthink and it leads to breakdowns." she chuckled to herself, wiping the tears that has fallen.

I nodded, then got up to get my phone.

"Well, I'll be going now." she smiled, getting up.

I hugged her tightly and watched her walk out the door. Once she left, I locked the door and laid on the couch.

My life was lonely but it felt nice at the same time. No fuss, no drama, nothing to worry about except for some house bills and such. How was I to provide for the baby on the way?

I can't even take care of myself for goodness sake.

The stress was overwhelming and I felt the baby do some kicks, making me smile down at it. She was turning five months in four days and I was the only one there for her. Tears streamed down my tears as memories of me and Calum flashes back, I missed the times when no one had any troubles with another, when everything seemed perfect.

I picked up my phone and looked over my contacts. My thumb pressed Calum's phone number accidentally. I waited for the other end to accept the call and after a few rings, he picked up.

"Tatiana?" his voice hummed.

I froze.

"Hey." I replied, emotionless.

I heard something clashing in the back and a few voices.

"Why did you call me? Is anything wrong?"

"Sorry- um it was an accidental dial." I accidentally blurted out, making myself giggle.

"Oh." was all he said.

"Well this is awkward, I'm sorry- I'll go now." I rapidly spoke, almost pressing the 'end' button.

"No- don't hang up!" he stopped me, his voice sounding nervous.

"Who is that babe?" a female voice rung through the phone.

I felt my heart shatter into pieces but I ignored the feeling, hoping that I would keep myself together.

"Just an old friend- look Tatiana, I'll call you in a few hours, I'm- uhm, really busy right now. Bye." he hung up.

I guess I was nothing to him. Everything was awkward between me and Calum now unlike before we would talk about just anything. Now, it's different.

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Calum's P.O.V

"Who was that?" Rhea asked, cuddling my chest, increasing the body heat under the blankets of the bed.

"I already told you, it was just another old friend." I sighed, closing my eyes.

The past weeks was like a roller-coaster. The opening shows were going great and we gained more and more followers on social medias. Our band also created some new songs for the fam.

"Why are you thinking deeply?" Rhea asked, looking up at me with glossy eyes.

"Why do you keep asking questions?" I snapped, getting up from the bed and dressed myself.

"Look, there's something obviously wrong. Tell me."

"I don't need to tell you shit, the only reason you're in my bed is because I'm paying you." I rolled my eyes, annoyed at the obnoxious woman.

"Fine, fuck you too." she shouts, getting up to retrieve her clothes to dress herself.

I walked out to the main room where the room was trashed. The whole band, excluding Luke has decided to go to a party in New York which turned out to be better than we thought it would be. Luke had stayed back at the hotel to do a twitcam or something to interact with the fam while Michael and Ash decided to come with me.

I turned my head to the right, seeing Michael sprawled out on the couch with some girl, arms straddled around her waist. Ash was on the floor sleeping with a red cup in his hand.

"Ash." I shook him, making him groan. "Ash wake up."

He turned around, revealing hickeys on his neck. He opened one eye and shut it tightly.

"My head hurts." he complained, sitting up.

After a shortwhile of waiting for the two to get ready to go, we finally left, leaving the trashed place to the owners.

"That party was awesome." Michael said slowly, as he walked alongside to the right of me.

"I guess." Ashton huffed, calling a cab.

We got to the hotel in about thirty minutes, I slammed the door open, revealing Luke on the couch with a big blanket over his body.

"Hey breadstick!" Michael hollered, jumping onto Luke's body, immediately waking him.

Ashton turned to me and shook his head.

"How are things with Anne?" I blurted out.

"Kinda rough but we're staying strong. What about you and Tatiana? Are things going the way you wanted it to be?" he asked, showing interest.

"I fucked up." I chuckled to myself, shaking my head.

"What'd you do this time?" Luke walked over to us, he as still dressed in his outfit from yesterday.

"Who said he did something?" Ashton defended me.

"I slept with someone."

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this chapter really sucked :(

question of the chapter: what should the baby girl's name be?!