Cal's Gal [ editing ]

ch. 63: "a dream"

Tatiana's P.O.V

I woke up to the soft breeze of the air and sounds of the ocean.

Everything was like a dream.

"Hey there babycakes." Calum mutters into his pillow.

"You're awake?" I smiled, turning my body to him.

"Nope." he looks up from his pillow, one eye shutted close from the light and one open looking straight at me, he smiled making my whole day a whole lot better.

He snaked his arm under my waist and pulled me closer to him, then he sniffed the top of my hair. We stayed spooning and I turned my body around to face his bare chest and messy bedhair which looked great. He didn't even need to try to look like perfection & he knew it.

"Stop looking at me like that.." he says shyly, covering his face with my hands.

"Like what?.." I teased him, taking one of my hands and twirled his hair.

"Like you're in love with me or something.."

"Maybe because I am in love with you, Calum Thomas Hood."

"Ouch."

"What?"

"My heart just skipped a million beats."

"You idiot you make me feel like that everyday!" I playfully slap him on his cheek.

"You did not just slap me." he says seriously, but obviously kidding.

"I just did-" before I could finish my sentence, he pins me on the bed and tickles me all over my stomach, making me laugh uncontrollably and punching him trying to make him stop.

"Say sorry!"

"I'm sorry that you're an idiot-"

"NOPE." he continues to tickle me even more, making me run out of breath and he finally stops but continues to pin me down. he comes closer and admires me.

"I like your eyelashes." I say randomly.

"I like your hair." calum joins in.

"I like your lips."

"I like your nose."

"I like your eyes."

"I like your hair."

"I like your jawline."

"Okay we could keep going on like this or... do something else." he wiggled his eyebrows, making me laugh uncontrollably because he looked like a puppy.

"Like what?" I asked, tilting my head to the side.

"Like this." he swoops in quickly and implants a sloppy kiss on my lips.

"What's that supposed to mean?" I questioned, obviously teasing the hell out of him.

"Let's make a baby-"

"Calum, no." I pushed him off me and sat straight up in the bed.

I was wearing one of his t-shirts which fitted me largely.

"Why?" he asked.

"You know why." I sighed, looking down at my hands.

"I'm sorry.."

"It's okay, maybe another time.. Not just now, okay?" I looked back at him and tears were dripping from his cheeks, making my heart hurt. "Hey- shh.. It wasn't your fault okay?"

"Yes it was! I was smoking at the same time, not very oftenly but it affected Kei's lungs- oh god the mentioning of her name makes it worse.. My smoking probably affected how she breathed, that's why we lost her! Because of me.. Also, if I hadn't left I could've caught her reaction and called emergancy right away like I did in the hospital- right? I could've done that but no. I didn't because I was being messed up. What type of messed up parent leaves their two day old child? I mean-"