Cal's Gal [ editing ]

ch. 9: "all feelings lost.."

Luke's P.O.V

You know what? This relationship probably wasn't meant to be. I thought Tatiana would be the one but, I don't feel that spark anymore. I guess me and her aren't meant to be. This is one of the things I feared of in a relationship when I break up with an ex.

When feelings fade away.

I'd rather have both of us cheating instead of feelings fading away. It's just too sad. I love her, or I did love her. I guess staying friends will do the trick. I really hope it will.

I stared at my ceiling for the longest time in forever then finally got the energy to look at my phone. Numerous texts from Rhea. Nothing from Tatiana, and many messages from Ashton and Michael. Most of them were hate but the ones from Rhea were just basically hook ups. She wanted me to come over her house at midnight.

I sighed then stood up to get ready for another tortures eight hours of literal, pure hell. After putting on a baseball tee with black half sleeves and stars down it, ripped skinny jeans, black converse, black snap back put on backwards and my black jansport backpack I ran downstairs to smell the aroma of chocolate chipped pancakes.

My mum was happily flipping pancakes till she saw me, making one of the pancakes she was about to catch with a plate fall to the ground.

"Luke, what happened with you and Tatiana?" she looked at me in sympathy then me a plate of breakfast.

"It's complicated." I mumbled as I stuffed the pancakes inside my mouth and chugged a cup of milk.

I quickly finished my breakfast to drive out to school. As soon as I got to school, I spotted Calum at the front, grieving but then gave me a warning signal to not even come an inch closer to him.

Warning received.

I then looked around for Tatiana, I finally found her sitting by herself on the benches, headphones in while tears fall from her brown eyes. I hated to see her like this honestly, but I wanted to be honest with her.

She took off her headphones when I sat down in front of her. She waited for me to speak while she quickly swept away her tears.

"I'm sorry.." my voice broke, she nodded for me to continue my sentence. "Anyways, I really hate to admit this but.. Could we just remain friends? I'm really sorry if I was the worst boyfriend ever, I really am. I thought this relationship was actually going to work, It sadly didn't. I really hope we could be best-friends. No, I'm not friend zoning you, but if it feels that way we could just become close as strangers.. I really did love you but the feelings are fading, Tatiana. I don't want to be the reason of your tears.." tears fell from my eyes as I held her hand, she too was crying and breaking down.

"So, was it true? Our relationship?" she looked up at me, my heart literally crumbled to a billion pieces when she looked up, she looked lost and sad.

"Yes, it was beyond real. It was better than words, I'm just trying to say we should probably try seeing other people.." I mumbled, then looked away to avoid more tears.

"If that's what you really want, I'll be fine.." her voice broke again then she stood up then gathered her stuff, I helped her gather it then she came closer. "I love you, Luke. I will always do." she sighed then looked up at me.

"I'll always love you too, Tatiana." I took my hand then slowly rubbed my thumb on her cheek then kissed her ever so softly. After that, she was gone..

What've I done?

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Tatiana's P.O.V

I felt my heart break into a million pieces during each class, what sucked was I had Luke in Science and Math, we avoided talking for the first day of being 'just friends'. I really loved him, but I guess it wasn't meant to be, and his choice was good to tell me the truth so I wouldn't just be lost like an idiot.

I hung out at lunch with Sabrina who kept yapping about hows she's been, who she likes and etc..

I really didn't give a care in the world right at the moment. After the day ended, I went straight home and did my normal routine.

I just laid in my bed with my pj's on, tears falling slowly down my face. What was wrong with me? Is it because I wasn't good enough? I wasn't girlfriend material? Or is it just because of my ugly face that made Luke break up with me? I randomly fell asleep after a good forty minutes of reminiscing when a knock on my door woke me up. I stayed in the same position: laid on my side, clutching on to my blanket.

The door swung open and heavy footsteps emerged.

Michael.

"Awh, still heartbroken about Lukey?" he mocked me, I stayed silent not bothering to make a move. "I could see why, his new whore has better features than you, you're like a downgrade to be honest, I'm sure you'll find a new guy." he laughed, my heart broke to a million pieces.

"You're too delicate." he continued, "toughen up a bit will you? Anyways, food is downstairs. Your mum just cooked." he finally walked out my room, leaving it open.

I laid there for a good twenty minutes when footsteps came into my room.

"Hun, what's wrong?" my mum's gentle voice was the only thing that could lift me up right now. I turned around, her face instantly fell to sadness. "Oh no.. Luke?" she tilted her head then turned around to close the door & cuddle me in her arms.

"Y-yes.. He ch-cheated on me with this girl.." I sniffled while she was embracing me.

"I always felt something wrong with him, I just shook it off since you seemed like nothing around you mattered only him when you were around him." my mum stroked my hair then kissed me on the head.

She held me in her arms for a short while then I heard Michael's step dad call her down.

"I'll bring you food." I nodded then she took off, closing the door behind her.

I finally turned on my phone, many notifications from Calum, trying to hang out with me and talk stuff over, missed calls & voice mails from Ash (probably checking up on me), Sabrina with her daily gossip and Luke trying to friend-zone me even more. I only responded to Ashton by calling him back.

"Oh my god, Tatiana, you're alive!" he sounded happy at the other end of the phone, wind was blowing in the back.

"Yes, I'm very much alive Ash!" I smiled, the first real smile to come out of me today. Wow.

"Anyways, how're you holding up?" he asked.

"Pretty good? I mean, it's been O.K." I wondered to myself while I replied back to Ash on the phone.

"Hmm.. Seems legitimate! But, not too legitimate, we're hanging out on Saturday at the carnival. Ka-peesh?" his Australian accent made a weird tone to his sentence, making me giggle tons.

"Yes sir!" I mocked him sarcastically.

"Alright, be there at twelve sharp, dress however you like." he said, then hung up the phone.

Sometimes, it's cool to have a best friend like Ashton.

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