Bakery |Ranboo x Reader|

42: If Only, If Only

Here have some purple, this is the finale. It been fun.

TW//
Every TW you can think of. I don't want to give it away.
_____________
After the lunch we walked back home to get the best sleep we could possibly get.

"Good night, or good evening." I said, kissing Ranboo forehead. He chuckled, and layed back next to me.

"Ok we need sleep, I have my alarms so we should be fine." Ranboo said gazing into my eyes.

"What are you staring at." I said chuckling, Ranboo laughed and kissed my cheek.

"You're pretty face." He said jokingly back. I blushed and kissed his cheek.

"Just go sleep pretty boy." I said, Ranboo chuckled and wrapped his arms around my waist.

____________
I woke up to an alarm buzzing. I shook Ranboo up.

"Wake up!" I said shaking him, he opened his eyes and gave a grunt.

"Ok ok." He said getting up, I turned off his phone alarm and gave him a kiss on the cheek.

"Get ready we have a long day." I said sleepily, Ranboo yawned and nodded.

"Let's rock and roll boo." I said, he laughed and nodded.

__________
After we got ready and had our stuff I shot my mom a text to remind her I was leaving and ranboo called an Uber to pick us up.

And not soon later they showed up.

"Hello, this is Ranboo right?" He said, Ranboo nodded and we both got in in the back.

"Alright, buckle up." He said before reviving up the car once he heard the clicking of the seatbelt.

___________
In other words I took a nap in the car. We stopped by a train station, and were dropped off.

Ranboo reached into his luggage right before we walked into the subway. And pulled out a pretty heart necklace.

"I got it custom made for you." Ranboo said blushing, I blushed and put it on to admire the necklace.

"AWWW, I love it." I said dazzled by the necklace. I looked back over to Ranboo.

"Thank you." I said giving him a quick kiss.

"I'm glad you like it." He said chuckling, I laughed and grabbed his hand.

"I love it." I said, Ranboo smiled and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

"I love you." I said, Ranboo blushed. "I love you too." He said.

Then we walked hand and hand into the trains station it was bare and only about 2 people where there besides us. Which was reasonable because it was a fairly late time to be at the train station.

I closed my eyes to take a deep breath in for our coming up adventures.

I heard the train rustle by, and heard a grunt.

____________

"SHIT!" I said rubbing my eyes. I had woken up again. I clenched my necklace on my neck. That fucking night, it's like a nightmare that replays over and over again. Why didn't I do something. I said banging on my head. That night... the rustling of the train. The- Ranboo.

Fucking Ranboo, I miss him. I thought, I let the hot warm tears trickle down my face, i clenched my jaw banging on my bed sheets.

FUCKING AGAIN????!!! I yelled in my head, I tried not to ugly cry but they poured out. That man in the train station... December 4th, I couldn't bare the thought again.

I clenched onto the hoodie I had only taken off to wash. It had been 2 years since he died. But even still then.

I couldn't bare it, I couldn't bare the thought. Am I selfish? The heater in my room became hotter and hotter as the tears pooled out.

I had been so happy, and now I'm 18 working 2 jobs. I had gotten what I wanted, my mother bakery was good in business. And I moved out.

But- I.. I was empty. Without Ranboo nothing mattered.

I got up and walked to the picture of him happily sitting with me at the ramen shop. Only moments before.. before.

I glanced at another picture.

"A wonderful son, and partner. Died at such a young age."

I banged on my desk, I glanced over at the pc I still had. I never used it, it was only there for the memory. I then glanced at the letters on the desk.

The letters. Fuck. The letter I wrote to Ranboo, letters I cried over for hours.

I glanced over to my cabinets.

"I'm done with this shit. It's over." I said, I walked over towards them. My emotions filled with confusing tears, anger, sadness, anxiety, and fear...

I ripped open the cap of one of the many pills I had.

"Fuck this!!" I said, grabbing pouring a handful.

I jotted down everything about me I could stumble in on a piece of paper.

"Fuck these caps." I said rolling open my water bottle camp.

"Fuck being an actress. Fuck me. Fuck life." I said, I raised the pills to my mouth.

"Do you promise not to hurt yourself ? For me?"

I couldn't. At least not for Ranboo.

I curled up in a ball under my desk sobbing. I couldn't do it.

"Hey Y/n?" I heard a rapping at the door. I trembled in my spot.

Why was Melissa here?

But she had a key.

"Hey HEY Y/N!!" She said sliding under the desk and hugging me.

"Hey hey." He said patting my back, I sobbed harder.

"It's ok, it's ok. Cry it out. It's ok you'll be ok." Melissa said rubbing my back. I cried. Harder than I ever did.

"I'm sorry". I sobbed over and over again cupping the necklace in my hands.

"It's ok. I know. Don't be sorry." She said, I sobbed harder trying my best to control myself but I couldn't for the life of me.

_______________
To this day. I miss him.

Loving partner

Ranboo

2004-2021

He died too young, forever that stab wound to his lower abdomen will forever haunt me.

If only, if only.

I died along with him.

______________
Word count: 1009

________