I Cannot spend another night in this hole,
I close My eyes take a breath real slow,
The consequences if I leave I'm alone,
But what's the difference if you beg for love?
.......
I'm Alone.
Everyday I try not to think about it and I refuse to even face the truth.
But I can't take the damn pain anymore of feeling this.
It seems that everyone doubts me every moment of my life.
They don't get a word I say.
Don't understand what I mean.
How I feel.
If I even care about them.
Everyone's slipping away from me.
I try to reach for them as they walk but I can't put myself to Do it.
I shed my tears of my pain and try to reach for anyone.
Anyone who is think would still be with me.
But there isn't anyone in my reach.
Does Anyone really care about me?
Breaking apart isn't the best thing.
It only breaks me more.
Nobody's understanding that.
I can't put myself through more hell.
They don't understand that I trusted them.
Thought they'd stay with me till the end.
Help me through the vines that tie me up.
Slice the sharp ones that bring me pain.
Slay the ones who brought me down.
Helped me face all MY VINES that wouldn't shake their doubt off me.
But there is no one.
Of course my Wattpad friends care, but I don't feel it.
I don't exactly 'know' them much.
It's harder for me everyday to go through it all.
I'm alone enough.
That's what nobody's seems to get or understand.
Everyday I'm home I'm more and more alone.
The more I'm alone the more I think.
The more I think, the more I realize.
The more I realize, the more I'll have to face the truth.
The truth in my life that I try to paint with ignorance.
It doesn't help the fact that it just tries to scrub off and pop up in my head in big bold words saying
"YOU NEED TO FACE THE TRUTH."
"THE FACTS."
But I don't want to.
I never wanted to.
But now I have to.
I'm alone.
I'll shout it.
Shout the truth.
The truth that's giving out my pain.
"IM ALONE!"
Nobody understands.
That's why they leave.
"IM ALONE!"
They don't see what I see.
They leave to stay away from the broken seals.
But the seals break even more.
"IM ALONE!"
I'm tired of being something.
Something that helps others with all of my heart and my love.
But doesn't get the same Love in return.
"IM ALONE!"
No ones there waiting......
"IM ALONE!"
No hero.....
"IM ALONE!"
No savior.......
"IM ALONE!"
No one..........
"IM ALONE IM ALONE IM ALONE IM ALONE IM ALONE!"
I'm all alone.
The only thing that remains is me.
The one who's been through it all.
The one whose tired of feeling it at all.
Of realizing it.
Of Living it.
~WhoCares
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Diaries of a Seventh Grader
Non-FictionBook two from the Diaries of a Middle Schooler series.
