Diaries of a Seventh Grader

12-25-14; Baby Vi's First Christmas & I Might HATE This Christmas

*Pictures in a collage above*

DX I might hate this Christmas.

It's not the presents it's not the family.

ITS THE EVENTS THAT HAPPENED THAT SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME.

I'm about to freakin cry....I'm shaking like crazy sitting in the dark back porch and I'm having an anxiety attack.

We had a wonderful Christmas today, yes GREAT.

But then it all went downhill....

My step bro Accidentally knocked the freakin wine bottle over and it cracked the bottom part of my dad's phone and my dad wasn't mad but Andy had gotten mad at himself and went outside and just smoked.

I went out and talked to him to try and Cheer him up and I hugged him and left.

Later everyone left except my awesome aunt Sharon. We were talking while my grandpa went out to
Put left over turkey in the pool room fridge when we heard a loud CRASH.

I literally ran out there and saw my grandpa tumbling about.

What happened?

He alms it fell over. He could've gotten in a coma or cracked his head open and could've died!

It scared the living shit out of me. I did everything myself and let him go inside.

I had to do the work for him and when I came back what happened?

He was talking about how he was so old (89)
And then he talked about my dearest dead grandma and said "she had a wonderful life really," and kept saying stuff that made me more sad and get anxiety.

Then after that my dad was soooo sick and he has to work in Christmas at like 10.

He left about twenty minutes after everyone else and before it something happened....

He got ready in the restroom and I was sitting in the kitchen when I heard it.....

*BLAARRGGGG*

I went up to the restroom with more anxiety and a freakin nervous face and shit and I knocked on the door. He said "come in" so I did and asked "are you alright? Did you puke?" It smelled in there too.

"Yeah," he said and he hovered over that sink dizzily.

I got so fucking worried and shit so I offered to help clean the house.

So he left and I had a feeling that he was going to get in an accident and pass out.

He freakin STUMBLED out the door.

And then he didn't eat anything today and he just has a HUGE headache

And to make it worse I heard a huge SCREECH ON THE ROAD.

There's a car crash I think......I heard a huge collision out there.

I have the biggest anxiety attack ever.

It's freaking causing me to shake and shit and I can't breathe normal.

I'm crying now actually.......

And instead if telling you all this sad shit I should tell you the happy shit so here goes:

My dad and Step bro Andy and I were out side and we were talking and laughing and talking about shit and then we talked about drugs and bands addictions to them which made us laugh because this happened;

Dad: Everyone's on something...*Looks at andy* Got any Weed?
Andy: YUP.
Me/dad/Andy: XDDDDD

So everyone is on something apparently. Lol

I didn't get the laptop I wanted, YET.

My dad said I'll either get it tomorrow morning, New Years, or January 7 or Russian Christmas.

But anyways it was Violets first Christmas and she's almost 11 months old.

She was crying earlier a lot but soon stopped and then we opened presents. Here's what I got:

Aunt Sharon, Jennifer and my Cousin Andy+ Baby Violet;
-Sketch Pad
-Anime Chibi Drawling book
-Anime Pens and Art crafts to make anime and manga
-Another bad ass leather jacket like last year.
- Cute white and black sweater
-Black necklace

Aunt Kim and Cousin Zoe;
-Two cards
-A card to the movies
-and I might go with them next week on a ghost tour if the Alamo and other haunted places in Texas.

Dad;
-A card with $20 which is all of his money. He doesn't make much and he have me all his money. I'm giving it back to him though cause I don't need it. He does. So when he comes home from work he'll have it on his pillow.

Mom;

-maybe a laptop but idk yet because I didn't get anything from her yet.

So yeah that was my hateful Christmas.

Since I'm in a bad mood my friend Regans helping me out cause the others are having fun and shit so yeah. She's not that happy too.

If your reading this Regan;

I Love You Your like my sister. Thanks for being there for me.

And speaking if which I made a confession to someone today >////<

Well...

I'm going to go clean for my dad so when he gets home he can sleep and not clean after everyone so.....

Love you Mashins, and Merry CHRISTMAS.

What'd you get? Did you get what you wanted? What'd you do? How was it?

Let me know.

Merry Christmas.

B-Bye....

~M