Diaries of a Seventh Grader

03-24-15; Forever Alone Syndrome

Foreeeeerrrrr alloonnnee.

Lonely~

Oh so lonely~

She's so lonely~

Ok so yeah....
Z

My day wasn't that great.....in fact it wasn't even that great.

You see I've been trying to avoid everyone today and just hide.

I couldn't take the fact that everyone's too busy to talk or be around me or too busy on there stupid phones playing games when they have plenty of time for that at home. =~=

The nerves people have.

But the thing is that there all TOO busy to pay any attention or talk to me is the follow ping reasons;

-GAMES on PHONE
-Boyfriends
-Girlfriends
-Have other friends to be around
-Idk
-Idk
-IDK

But even if some hang with me I'm always confused and lost and sad because they have eachother in there classes and always talk about it and I feel left out.

I just smile and nod and ignore it and laugh.

It doesn't help me anymore to face the fact I've been alone and left out of a lot.

There was an incident that happened too today with three-mostly two of my friends.

So sometimes it is good to be left out because I don't get pushed in the drama.

Today I went to the library and turned in two books during lunch. Then I sat alone on the stairs- we are not supposed to eat outside on the stairs of the catwalk- I don't give a fudge though- and ate alone and thought while the wind blew in my face.

Eventually a teacher came out and told me that if I couldn't sit there then I could go to the library or cafeteria so I went back to the library.

But I ended up staying in the hallway eating my lunch I got from line (pbj and cheese) and then standing outside on the stairs again.

After I went to orchestra.

Nothing new.

My dad is gonna volunteer to play the electric guitar at the end of the year for my orchestra last concert. "Wipeout" is the song/music.

So if my friend pantera dad/uncle doesn't show up my dad will.

So yeah I alder my dad on the phone ten minutes ago and he doesn't mind.

After on my way upstairs to pre-ap English a fried tried to grab my attention and got me angry cause she knew I wanted to be alone but she literally wouldn't stop following me.

I was about to Break out for a run but she grabbed at me and pissed me off.

I have a scratch on my hand from that.

I almost yelled but I said "stop! Stop grabbing me I'm not in the mood and I want to be left alone with! Ok?!" And I rushed to class.

So yeah.

Then I had tennis.

It was ok.

For singles in going 3rd tomorrow.

After school I gotta go to the gym and gt my jersey for tennis and then change into my gym shorts and go with Mr.Lopez and Mrs.Sanchez on the bus and we can all go to our tournament.

We have them every Wednesday.

Though next week because of testing it's Thursday.

And my b-day is in two weeks.....yay.....

I really want to get this manga called prism.

It's a cute Yuri.

So my day was kinda tough.....

Umm yeah so bye?

Bye....

~M