I Don't Belong (Warren Worthington iii Fanfic)

Chapter 1: Winter Howlett/Vivian Howlett

(Vivian's Pov)

I really need to control these powers cause if I don't, someone's going to get hurt...people have gotten hurt before and I'm actually quite scared of myself and what I can do and what I've become because what if one of these days I don't listen to my brother? What if I don't transform back? I haven't even found a pattern yet in my shifting...I'm just scared okay? I don't know what to do...

Sorry, I should probably introduce myself; my name is Vivian Howlett and I am the younger sister of James Howlett aka The Wolverine aka Logan. I have long brown hair and bright brown eyes, I like to read, write, sing, listen to music and I like nature.

Growing up wasn't really great for me and Logan as not only was our family fucked up but we technically have another brother...or Had...well I'm not really sure...his name is Victor Creed...yea...I don't know where he is as of today or if he's even alive...I mean I don't know much about the man since I wasn't really born around Logan's time but he's told me many stories growing up and yea...not exactly family of the year...

Let's just say we were born in Northwest Territories of Canada. When Logan or should I say James was 13, he was sick for some unknown reason and our brother Victor was visiting and keeping him company since I was still a baby. Things were normal until Victor's father and our father's groundkeeper Thomas Logan came home drunk looking for our mom to pick a fight with her...

Apparently she's been having an affair with Thomas Logan who's our Biological father but he was extremely short tempered and a violet man who always came home drunk and beat Victor and hated our other dad John Howlett...Our mom wasn't great either as she's been unfaithful and just a horrible mother but as for John Howlett who we believed was our real dad was a good man and cared for me and James a lot...

But that all changed REAL fast when John got tired of Thomas's violet and inappropriate behavior and tried to fire him as our groundskeeper and well...He got angry real fast and killed John infront of me and James despite me being a baby but I saw everything and remembered how loud the gun was which I don't know how I'm not deaf...

But after that James got so angry that bone like claws appeared from his skin and he was so fit with pain, rage and anger that he then killed Thomas and our mom. Then after that, we couldn't stay there, so me, James and Victor ran away...However...things never really went as planned and Victor and James had a falling out and James took care of me...

He promised he would never be like our parents and he would be the best big brother ever so we fled Canada and moved pretty much all over the place but after that, it's been me and James...who changed him name to Logan...I kept my name Vivian but I go by a fake name Winter for people I don't trust...

Logan began doing as many small jobs as he could so he could have enough money for us, we lived in abandoned places or cabins in the woods and he's sacrificed everything to keep me happy and healthy...that was until I turned 11 and I got sick...just like Logan...

I was all over the place for weeks and Logan got scared but couldn't really take me to the hospital so he did his best to take care of me...he told me I could be a mutant as that's what he's called and I could be transforming like him...which I did...I ended up with bone like claws like him which hurt like a bitch! Like extremely...but that didn't stop there...

Apparently as I grew older my powers became more...out of control...While Logan has claws, great senses and healing powers...I somehow can manage to transform into a wolf...yea...not fun let me just say...

First time I transformed, I lost my marbles...I was fucking insane and if it weren't for Logan's abilities to heal quickly...he'd probably be dead and in pieces because let's just say...When I transformed, I lost all control over myself, I was like a rabid fucking beast...I growled, scratched, barked, bit Logan literally to shreds...like I could see myself doing it, but I had no control over it and it took YEARS for Logan to figure out how my mutation started, how long it lasts, how to calm me down because I get super irritable, angry and just...not good.

Not to mention the snapping of bones and shifting of human to animal...not fun...but I also have great senses and am colorblind cause all dogs are...but it was a literal shit show for years and Logan didn't want to jeopardize not only my safety but everyone else's.

So, by the time I was 16, not only did Logan teach me how to be nice to him and follow the rules, we ended up moving again somewhere where I can't hurt anyone...and now being 18 me and Logan are just trying to figure out where life takes cause and what to do with me because I still cannot control this beast inside of me.

I'm getting a little bit scared of myself because I don't want to be like this forever, I don't want to lose control and hurt people...I want friends, I want a job...Logan's not gonna be here forever and I'm an adult now...I just need someone to figure this shit out because me and Logan are all out of options...

(I realized I had published this before but I thought it would be weird with her being half wolf but now almost finishing up story, I really like how it turned out so imma post it again so I hope you enjoy the spam of this book and comment any other Xmen boy or my other fandom guys you wanna see next!)

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