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We have all been sat here in silence for a good hour. Its so awkward. Im so mad at them too though, Are they going to do this to me all the time? 

"So i take it as you guys went out last night then?" I question them both while scrolling on my phone. The room stays silent. I look up from my phone at the wall opposite me. "Okay am i now talking to the walls?" I scoff.

"Yeah, it was kind of last-minute planned," Niall says from the right of me, i look at him. 

"Oh so i do exist, you guys just like to leave me out." I snap at him. Niall switches his eyes from Harry and me him not been sure which one of us to focus on.  "Look at me Niall. Harrys not going to save you." I move so Harry is no longer in Nialls view. His blue eyes look back at me. 

"No. You weren't there when we were going to leave and we weren't going to wait around." He tries to explain to me. 

"Well, i will tell you something. My dressing room was opposite Harrys and i saw both of you come out and go down the hall. So don't try and pull this lie on me." I say while waving my finger from him and Harry. Niall shrugs his shoulders at me, making me want to hit him. 

"Are joking me right now? You are all the same. Don't give a shit about nobody apart from yourselves." I snap at Niall. I see his features drop a little. I turn to look at Harry, he's staring right back at me. 

"And you. I don't even have any words apart from that I'm so disappointed." I say to him with little to no emotion before getting up from my seat, I walk past the bunkers and go to the little kitchen in the other half of the bus. I search the cabinets and fridge in search of something to eat. I find some cereal and milk. I make myself a bowl before sitting down on the leather couch, i eat my food in silence while i go off into a stare and think about how I'm been made out to be a fool, even though I've done nothing wrong. 

I immediately want to throw something when i see Harry come and sit opposite me. If i was him i would just leave me for a while. 

"What do you want." I snap at him before shovelling another spoon full of food into my mouth. 

"I didn't know this would affect you so much." 

I finish my mouthful before speaking "What did you think i would be okay with it?" I ask him. 

Harry shrugs his shoulders. "Yeah i did." 

"If your coming in here to make me mad you might as well leave now before i throw this bowl at your head." I snap at him, Harrys raises an eyebrow at me. 

"You need to control that temper flower." 

"Dont call me that." I say getting more mad with every second passing by. 

"Why?" He leans forward, intertwining his fingers together. 

"Because." I say to him while putting my last mouthful of food into my mouth. He stares at me for a second. 

"Look I'm sorry, I didn't realise you would be so upset over something so small. You wouldn't even like it." He says to me as i get up and put the bowl into the sink. I turn around and lean my back on the side, crossing my arms over my stomach. 

"You wouldn't know what I like because you don't know me. You only want to know me when it suits you." I say to him I walk away and go to the small bathroom because there is literally nowhere else for me to go. I go inside and flick on the light and lock the door. I place the toilet seat lid down and it on it, I close my eyes and take a deep breath in holding it for a second before exhaling. I need to try and move on from this. Its stupid, but i feel so left out. Even though, Im the reason why they are getting to do these things and not have as much stress. And Harry, he should want to spend time with me, I'm meant to be with him. Unless he was doing something else, and that's why he didn't want me there. I feel my eyes sting as tears start to rise, why am i so emotional? What is going on? I hate this.