PRISM | sunnew ✓

thirty eight

my sunshine 🌻
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my favourite person
i knew you lived a tough life
but i never knew the extent
of it before

my favourite person
im sorry for barging on your
life like this by the way
i wanted to wait until you were
ready to tell me yourself but
now i know where you stay and
god

my favourite person
youre one of the toughest people
i know

my favourite person
and kind too
you have so many reasons to
deeply resent the world and the
people in it and yet you dont and
for that, i really, truly, admire you

my favourite person
youre everything good in the world
put into one person

my favourite person
seonmi had a fever by the way but
its subsided and i sent hyunjun
home because he had lessons to
attend to so now im just in your
room

my favourite person
well, more accurately, im in the
living room while seonmi sleeps
on the sofa

my favourite person
i get why you never wanted to
tell me about this but i really,
really wished you did

my favourite person
but then again, i know that you
wouldnt let me help you in such
ways and although i once found
that to be because of your own
pride, i think i understand it now.

my favourite person
you just wanted to be a good
rolemodel for seonmi

my favourite person
ah its like 4am and i cant sleep

my favourite person
if you were here, youd tell me to
go to bed or to at least try to rest
but you see, my mind is currently
overloading

my favourite person
what if i stop modelling?
both you and i would be in less
danger if that were to happen right?

my favourite person
but i wouldnt know what to do with
my life although this lifestyle was
never really my choice either

my favourite person
sometimes i wish that i could go
back to being just young and dumb,
not needing to think about how its
going to be like in the future and
only worrying about the now

my favourite person
but then again, if i went back to then,
i wouldnt know you and youre one of
the best parts of my life currently

my favourite person
ew not again shut up chanhee
look at what youve done to me kim
sunwoo. ive become a hopeless
romantic obsessed on cliche words
and statements

my favourite person
also, i know i shouldnt but i was sort
of curious about your house so i went
and looked around a bit

my favourite person
dont worry though
i didnt look through boxes or anything
like that i just looked at things thta
were already displayed

my favourite person
i saw a picture of you when you were
young and seonmi was just a baby back
then

my favourite person
you had the prettiest smile on your face
and your mother was hugging you and
seonmi so tightly

my favourite person
you look a lot like her you know?
and she seems like a wonderful
person i mean, of course she is —
she raised both you and seonmi

my favourite person
she was the lady we visited in
the hospital right? you didnt tell
me back then (and you didnt need
to) but i could tell from your
resemblance

my favourite person
maybe one day ill go meet her with
you

my favourite person
help that sounds like im going to go
meet my in-laws or something
speaking of, did you know that hyunjun
saved my number as 'future brother in
law'? now seonmi calls me that and
i have no idea what to do with this

my favourite person
its sort of a jump isnt it?
considering how we havent really
dated each other for that long but
if im being honest, being called brother
in law by seonmi makes me feel this
weird feeling in my chest

my favourite person
i must be pregnant

my favourite person
you said something like that before
do you remember that?

my favourite person
but, even if we dont end up together
in the end, i know that id always want
to be with you

my favourite person
sure you annoy me and i do the same
but when it comes to someone who
really tries his best to understand and
to be there for me, no one does it better
than you *sorry kevin and juyeon*

my favourite person
i think youre that one of a kind person
i really needed in my life
theres truly no one else who has made
me THIS attached to them before

my favourite person
maybe its a kim sunwoo thing

my favourite person
god im just embarrassing myself here
when you wake up, you'd probably be
disgusted by how much bullshit im
spewing

my favourite person
im sorry if im being super annoying
but everything i said is truly just how
i feel about you

my favourite person
maybe i should see a therapist these
emotions are way too strong at this
point

my favourite person
i really am sat here thinking that by
spamming you, youd wake up and
be like 'oh! i feel the same!" or some
shit like that but thats not how
the universe wants to play

my favourite person
this is sad im talking to myself

my sunflower 🌻
yea it would be sad if you really
were just talking to yourself

my favourite person
...
am i dreaming?

my sunflower 🌻
100+ notifs and theyre all from
you

my sunflower 🌻
you mustve missed me a lot "nyu"

my favourite person
please dont tell me im dreaming

my sunflower 🌻
well you know a lot of the things
you said were repeated so im just
going to reply in my own way

my sunflower 🌻
i love you too you cheesy,
overly cliched, ulzzang boy

my favourite person
im not dreaming...?

my sunflower 🌻
1v1 me choi chanhee
:)

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author's note:

aight anyone wants to be the sunwoo to my chanhee ;-;

also, thank you all for your nice words last chapter 🥺🥺 they really mean a lot to me and made me feel a lot better so thank you 🥺🥺🥺