PRISM | sunnew ✓

fifty eight

my favourite person
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my sunflower 🌻
i woke up in a cold sweat
earlier and i couldnt go
back to sleep because im
terrified of so many things
and i feel so suffocated by
this burden all the time
[ message deleted! ]

my sunflower 🌻
i didnt mean to press send
im sorry about that

sent at 5:02am

my sunflower 🌻
its probably frustrating dating
me right

my sunflower 🌻
although it doesnt seem that
way i really am trying to be more
idk open with you in a sense

my sunflower 🌻
im just so scared of how youll
view me if i ever really let go of
everything i feel

my sunflower 🌻
but i know thats stupid because
i know you love me (for some odd
reason) so you wouldnt judge me
for shit right

my sunflower 🌻
but i cant help but feel doubtful
about that which is ultimately
unfair to you and i know that

my sunflower 🌻
idk maybe ive just been used
to handling things on my own
that the concept of relying on
others is something new to me

my sunflower 🌻
no pun intended

my sunflower 🌻
and idk whats come over me but
im afraid youd leave me if i come
across as requiring too much
help or as someone dependent

my sunflower 🌻
idek what im doing now or what
im saying im sorry again

sent at 5:47am

my sunflower 🌻
chanhee...
would you mind listening to
my story

my sunflower 🌻
of course hed mind|
of cours|
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my sunflower 🌻
chanhee doesnt have time for
your shit sunwoo|
chanhee doesnt have t|
chanhee doe|
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my sunflower 🌻
you dont have to say yes

sent at 6:11am

my sunflower 🌻 has deleted 11 messages!

my sunflower 🌻
im sorry for the spam
had a lot of thoughts but they
were kind of dumb anyways
but ill see you later chanhee
i love you

sent at 6:35am
read at 8:21am

my favourite person
do you not trust me?|
do you n|
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my favourite person
it kind of hurts that you dont|
it kind of hurt|
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my favourite person
if i were someone else,
would you trust me more?|
if i were someone else,
wou|
if i were som|
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my favourite person
see you later sunwoo :)

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when chanhee woke up to messages from sunwoo, he immediately unlocked his phone only to see that he had deleted majority of his words.

with a sigh, chanhee sent him a simple reply, holding back all the words he wanted to say.

despite him knowing full well that the younger struggled to show anything that even came close to vulnerability, chanhee still felt an odd sense of paranoia that he was the issue. in his eyes, he viewed himself to seem untrustworthy which probably made it even more difficult for sunwoo to open up and truly come to terms with how he felt.

as chanhee stared at himself in the mirror, lightly applying powder onto his face, he couldn't help but wonder if the face that had provided for him all these years had become his downfall in regards to his relationship, thinking to himself that he must've seemed too cold or apathetic because of his features.

slowly, as he applied more products, his strokes became more violent and harsh, scratching his skin and causing him to wince ever so often until eventually, a cut had formed on his seemingly perfect face.

he reached out for his concealer, only to stop and stare at himself once more and eventually deciding to leave it be, repeating to himself that imperfections were normal.

imperfections were human.

and maybe, that scratch across his cheek would make sunwoo see that he too wasn't all that high and mighty to begin with.

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"what happened?" sunwoo cupped chanhee's face in his hands, gently tracing the scratch and immediately stopping when chanhee's body tensed, his hands dropping back to his sides as he muttered an apology.

"i put on my makeup too roughly. and also, you don't need to apologise sunwoo," chanhee said, quickly adding in the last part.

"be more careful with yourself please," sunwoo murmured, his eyes still staring at the scratch before he unzipped his backpack and found a simple bandaid. "i know it's not exactly fashion forward but-" sunwoo gently placed it on chanhee's face, the older boy turning a shade of red at how close sunwoo's face was to his. "i think it's better to keep it covered," sunwoo finished, putting the wrapper into his pocket.

as they walked to the bus stop, silence fell over them, both of them having a million things to say but neither being able to voice anything out. when their bus came, they found seats by the back and almost instinctively, chanhee placed his head on sunwoo's shoulder, the younger boy locking fingers with chanhee as he did so.

and as such, the bus ride was quiet, both parties unsure of how to phrase themselves out of fear of hurting the other and yet, still leaning on one another throughout the entirety of their journey.

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author's note:

i am gonna be real honest here and say...idt prism is ending soon ??? but idk does it feel draggy to you guys?? ;-;