Goodbyes hurt

Chapter 34

The day had come to an end and Jimin had been with his mom since morning ,she had slept throughout keeping her hand in her son's and commented she had the best sleep in few months which Jimin took credit for.Jungkook had texted him at some point to let him know that he was having fun and even send him a few snaps that he took.Jimin decided he shouldn't let his boyfriend explore the town alone and went to look for him.

"Hey", Jimin called out to Jungkook and the youngest turned around with his camera pointed at Jimin,"Hello sweetheart",He said after clicking a photo and Jimin chuckled.
"How did you know I'd be here?",Jungkook asked as he took Jimin's hand in his.
"You posted the photo with the location",Jimin flashed his sns infront of Jungkook's eyes and the latter bit his tongue,his round eyes wide.Jimin saw that Jungkook was back to his normal self,Jimin was completely overthinking about feeling something was off.He decided he shouldn't let his anxious self get ahead of himself, Jungkook seemed fine and it was himself that was off.

"How's mom?"
"She's fine"
"That's a relief"

"That's the magic of Park Jimin,he heals everyone just like that",Jimin said with his whole chest but Jungkook didn't disagree,infact he nodded supporting the claim.
"You're no fun",Jimin whined as he walked forward.
"Wait!! ",Jungkook called after as he followed.
The duo settled onto a park bench enjoying their evening snack and Jimin was going through the photos Jungkook took.

"Hyung,How was the Yeouido trip?",Jungkook asked out of the blue and Jimin almost choked ,he coughed out and raised his hand to wipe the stain off his lips but Jungkook stopped him and used his thumb to swipe under Jimin's lips.Jimin watched as Jungkook suck on that thumb subtly after he looked away.This is something normal for Jungkook and he didn't mean it in any sexual way either.Yet Jimin felt blank.Half a mind told him it was the guilt.

"Taehyung got tired easily,we didn't stay too long",Jimin managed and Jungkook hummed a response.
"That reminds me I had a trip planned for us to Jeju.Will you come ,hyung?",Jungkook asked out of the blue and Jimin's head snapped to the side.
"Jeju?"
"Yeah,I had planned it for so long but never got the right time",Jungkook turned towards Jimin and took his right hand into his,"now that hyung's mom is fine and you are relaxed,I was thinking we'll go"

Jimin honestly didn't know what to say,he just stared at Jungkook expecting him to laugh it off any second but he didn't.And Jimin watched the light falling against Jungkook's brown eyes,the sincerity and softness they held and Jimin couldn't help the bubbling guilt raising from the pit of his stomach.Jimin hadn't even given proper thought to last night's events.But no matter what,this would all be unfair to Jungkook.He shouldn't be doing this to Jungkook so he wanted to try again,be better for Jungkook.The boy deserved better.

"Yeah,let's go"
"Really?! Next weekend?",Jungkook jumped off the bench.
"Yeah,now don't embarrass me",Jimin laughed as he pulled his boyfriend back.Jungkook intertwined their hands together and sighed.
"Alright,let's go.You wait at Uncle's home,I'll say goodbye to mom and will meet you there.We can head back to Seoul then ",Jimin said.
"I wanna say goodbye to your mom too,hyung",Jungkook whined.
"Ha..fine,go pick up your things and meet me at the hospital"

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When Jimin got back,his mom was already awake and waiting for him.Jimin's smile was instant as soon as he saw her and went in for a hug.
"How do you feel now?"
"I'm well,dear.Do you have to go back today?"
"Mm..I don't want to but I have to"
Mrs.Park ran a hand over her son's hair and patted lightly on his head,"Where's Jungkook? I didn't see him today"
"Yeah,Jungkook went to pick his things up.He said he'll come to say goodbye",Jimin said as he pulled a chair beside the bed and clasped his hand into his mother's.
"He is keeping you happy,right?"
"Mm,yeah..He is very nice to me and really sweet",Jimin said,his eyes focused onto the thumb that rubbed over the back of his mother's hand.
"I can see..",His mother said,"I haven't seen you this happy..not since Taehyung left"

And then there was a pause,Jimin looked up at his mother and she was looking back at him too.Jimin hadn't told his mother about Taehyung coming back yet.His relationship with Taehyung was unstable with in itself and he hadn't mentioned his return just cause of that.Maybe now,he can and he was just about to do the same  when his mother spoke again,"The boy loved you loads.."
Jimin didn't understand what she meant? And what kind of love?

"What?",He asked,curious eyes focused onto his mother's tired face.
"Taehyung,I mean.He loved you a lot back then,he wanted to confess."
"am sorry but.. what are you- How did you know?"

Mrs.Park ran her tongue over her dry lips and adjusted herself against the pillow,"Oh! He told us"
"Us?!"
"Your father and me"
Jimin's hand came unclasped around his mother's hand,it didn't make any sense.None of this made any sense.
"How come I never-What are you saying,mom? You kept this away from me for 5 years!"

"It doesn't matter anymore,Jimin.You don't have to worry about that now anyway", Mrs.Park's voice held the worry she was trying so hard to hide.
"No..no,it mattered..it still does"
"Jiminah,You are happy with Jungkook now. Taehyung is in the past and Your father is not here anymore"
"What's this got to do with Dad?!!"
"Jiminah,just leave it, What's the use of digging up the past? Besides you didn't love Taehyung like that anyway,right?"

Jimin paused,he can feel his hands shaking.He had clasped them in between his thighs to stop it but that seems to no avail.Jimin stood up to pace,hands rubbing together and his mother called out to him.She was worried and Jimin stopped suddenly turning towards his mom,"I..I loved him,mom"
"Jimin..he was your bestfriend so ofcour-"

"No,I..I loved him...more than just a best friend"

A/n:I didn't proof read so sorry for any mistakes . but thoughts..?!

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