Goodbyes hurt

Chapter 41

Jimin couldn't feel the ground beneath his feet,someone,some force has sweeped it right off from under and he couldn't find a stable ground for his thoughts.The silence stretched along the horizon that the sun had disappeared into few hours ago.Jimin was staring into the low yellow lights trying to draw the silhouette he had wished to lay eyes on and he was looking right back at Jimin,shock on his face evident just as his.Namjoon was right about the heavy breeze,he could feel the coldness against his dry lips,drawing his hair over his forehead pressing light kisses before it faded.An inaudible gasp escaped Jimin reacting to the cold wind down his collar.

Taehyung said something about wearing a jacket but Jimin wasn't sure that's what he heard.Jimin was too scared to move,let alone ask again,in fear that if he did move,the illusion right infront of him might seize to exist.He couldn't risk it,he wouldn't risk it.And then Namjoon's voice cut through them causing Taehyung to tear his eyes off Jimin.Jimin couldn't quite hear the conversation that passed between the two Kims.He missed Namjoon's wondering about Taehyung's presence when he said he couldn't make it.Jimin missed the way Taehyung's lips curving into a perfect crescent as he accepted Namjoon's invite to go back up and meet Jisoo.

Despite Namjoon's call to accompany them,Jimin just stared after them.He felt like the word that came out of Taehyung's mouth was his name,he wasn't really sure.His eyes planted on the back of Taehyung's head and was sure Taehyung could feel that too.It took him a few more steps to finally feel that his legs were leading him,to hear the waves kissing the sand again,the distant music to fall against his ear drums.

"Hey?", Namjoon's voice forcefully pulled him completely out of the reverie and Jimin's lips parted in that unasked question as he saw Taehyung hugging Jisoo at a distance.He looked at Namjoon in query.
"I wanted to tell you but we weren't sure if he could actually make it so why make you anxious",Namjoon said, crossing his arms over his chest and leaning to the side.Jimin wanted to reply,ask things but he just couldn't.

"If it's any relief,he didn't know you'd be here either but seems like he is taking it pretty well..than you",Namjoon chuckled and Jimin wasn't really sure if he appreciated that comment.World was steering in different speeds for Jimin,he was watching everything happening around him.Sometimes spinning out of control, sometimes too slow that it made seconds seem like seasons and years.At some point, Taehyung turned to look around at Jimin and Jimin gazed into the dark eyes of Taehyung.Taehyung tilted his head up slightly to ask Jimin what was wrong,a small smile.Jimin shook his head,slowly once scared if he made any sudden movements,the tear lingering at the corner of his eyes might spill and shame him.Jimin sighed and accepted that it was not worth planning how his evening should go.

-
"Did they talk at all?",Jisoo whispered over to Namjoon eyeing her two bestfriends at the two ends of the hall.
"No,Jimin is still shook and Taehyung is probably having a mental breakdown within himself"
"They don't have all night,Tae won't be here by tomorrow",Jisoo sighed.Namjoon slightly hooked his hands with Jisoo and rubbed a comforting hand over her arms,"You wanted them to meet once before Tae leaves.We shouldn't meddle with their lives too much"
Jisoo knew Namjoon was right,she leant over to his shoulders,"This was my last try"

-

The night fell and the crowd was slowly dying.Jimin actually didn't know the day was coming to an end at all,his eyes were constantly tuned to Taehyung all evening.He was helplessly conscious to it.He knew where exactly Taehyung sat,to whom all he made conversations with.In Jimin's defence,it was hard not to spot someone like Taehyung,he was tall and charming and stood out from any crowd for his own good.Jimin found Taehyung at the array of benches arranged facing the shore for the outdoor theme tomorrow.Jimin couldn't rehearse enough on what he was going to say cause like programmed, Jimin found himself closing the distance between him and his soulmate.

"Can I sit here?", Jimin's voice was alien to himself and was almost inaudible but to Taehyung,it wasn't very hard,a smile immediately perched upon his features,pushed his bread cheeks further into his eyes and he hummed a response.Jimin took his seat near Taehyung,shoulders mere inches apart that if Jimin chose to lean over,it'd be perfect for him to lay his head on Taehyung's shoulders but Jimin wouldn't dare,he was a coward.The silence was weirdly comforting, something only Busan was capable of giving.The sea held her breath and was waiting for something too.Jimin cleared his throat,he should say something.

"I read the letter",He said,his voice coloured with a little hesitation.
"I was hoping you wouldn't mention that", Taehyung let out a tiny laugh.

"Oh..why?"
"It's embarassing..you know-", Taehyung ran a hand through his dark locks that fell back neatly to their position.Jimin was quick to defend,"No..no,it was actually meaningful.I was happy to read that..no,not happy..I mean I was sad that you left but I was happy that you left something,some explanation..God,it sounds so wrong,doesn't it?", Jimin stopped ,eyes wide in alarm as Taehyung bend over and started laughing.Taehyung's laughter was beautiful,he looked really happy.Taehyung pulled himself together,"It's still embarassing,all that big goodbye and here we are again"

Jimin unconsciously nodded and bit his lips,"I didn't expect you here at all and Yoongi hyung said-",Jimin trailed off purposefully.Taehyung turned sideways to face him,"Oh! He already told you,huh?",a chuckle,"My flight's tomorrow morning"
Jimin's lips parted in surprise,tomorrow? Morning?He felt his ribs constricting his heart, suffocation.

"Tomorrow?"

"Yeah,I wanted to see Jisoo before I left,I wasn't really sure if I could come", Jimin's lips turned into an perfect 'O'.Didn't Taehyung wanted to see him at all? Jimin was petty like that but then like his mind was read, Taehyung added,"I'm glad I came.I got to see you too"
Jimin hummed,silence again.

"How is Jungkook?", Taehyung asked out of the blue and when Jimin turned to look at Taehyung,he was gazing ahead at the sea.Jimin thought of the conversation he had with Yoongi.Taehyung deserved to go ahead and have a good life and he shouldn't be the reason Taehyung gets held back.Taehyung deserved better.He wasn't really sure if the fact Jungkook and him breaking up would change anything.It probably wouldn't but Jimin wouldn't roll the dice to see the luck and risk Taehyung and his happiness.Yoongi knows better and he was right.

"He's doing alright",Jimin replied.Taehyung didn't turn at him,Few more minutes passed.And then everything got too much for Jimin and he had no idea how longer he can hold out here without breaking down into a pool of tears.He got up,"You should go to bed early",said Jimin.

"Yeah..yeah,I should", Taehyung followed suit.They stood awkwardly before Jimin sighed,his lips thin and folded.
"Goodbye Taehyung,Have a safe flight"
Jimin turned on his heels without waiting for a reply,but then he was pulled, bumping into Taehyung's chest for a hug.Taehyung's hands came around Jimin,caging him and his head rested on Jimin's shoulder.Jimin was frozen.

"Just this once", Taehyung's voice was a whisper and Jimin could feel the unsaid stories,the bone crushing hug reluctant to let go but soon has to.Jimin's hands came up to hold Taehyung's shirt on either sides.
"Goodbye Jimin"

A/n: So two more to go...I didn't proof read this, sorry
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