Goodbyes hurt

Chapter 42

A/n:So this is the last chapter of this book,But I'll be adding one more chapter 'Epilogue' so if you like to enjoy reading with songs.Do play Someday,the boy ost from Itaewon class.Happy reading..

Taehyung's alarm didn't ring yet,it won't ring for another two hours but here he was wide awake at this ungodly hour twisting and turning.The bedsheets were disarray,pillows thrown in different positions and combination and finally he had pushed his blankets into a lump under his feet and put on a jacket,decided he should go for a walk.A walk that'd set his heart at ease.The road he knows like the back of his hand,the alleys and parks around the corners, like a pretty picture.If Taehyung stands here and close his eyes, he could picture his younger self riding off in a cycle, pass him to stop and ring the bell in front of that tiny house, tiny like the person that lives there. He would run at the first ring, smiling and pushing his eyes into small lines.Untied shoelaces like he couldn't care..like he was impatiently waiting.

Taehyung would happily pass that tattered old helmet and the tiny one would climb, his shoelaces dragging through the road,they'd ride.They'd ride turning deaf ears to Jimin's mother's call, they'd ride through the middle-schoolers' weak set up for a game of soccer in the middle of the street,they'd ride through their pain and happiness,ups and downs on the road and in life alike.Jimin's hands fisted around the sides of Taehyung's shirt,at some point they always go around to hook around the rider's waist.

Jimin tasted freedom like that.At the end of the ride was a river,Nakdong,a river Taehyung wasn't very sure where it originates from but Jimin would know.Jimin always knows everything except for Taehyung's heart,the way it yearns for the human who finally hunched over to tie his shoelaces before calling him over to find a spot,to wait for the sunrise.Honest to God, it's not like Taehyung wasn't fascinated by the sunrise,but the yellow light were more pretty reflected against Jimin's face.Jimin would always keep Taehyung's hand in between his ,claiming that he was helping Taehyung warm up and Taehyung warms up.Not just his skin,his heart and entire being as a whole.Taehyung dreamt to taste love off Jimin's lips and believed that's how euphoria will taste like,how euphoria will smell like;like Jimin.

Taehyung's every day started with Jimin,ended with the thoughts of Jimin.Dreams to study together,work together and live the rest of their lives together and Taehyung was never able to name this feeling nor the relationship but he'd happily go with the name Jimin gave it,'Soulmates'.It was cheesy but Taehyung liked it.And in that cold mornings when sun was above the horizon just enough to light up Nakdong, Taehyung wondered if Jimin was real ,if those tiny hands threaded with his were real,if the head leant over his shoulder was real,if the hair tickling his neck was real.If his life was a movie,this is where they should roll credits cause it was at this moment where Taehyung felt content.

When Nakdong passed Daegu,he used to do silent prayers ,chapped lips repeating one name over and over and like an unrequited lover,he wished that when Nakdong reaches Busan ,it kisses Jimin.The wind or the water in whatever forms reminds Jimin of him.Taehyung loved Jimin so much.

Taehyung stood at the railing that separated the pavement from the river,sighed a cold breath,hands clutched together and hoped in some other life,he wouldn't run away.He would stand his ground and fight for his love.

"Taehyung-"

Taehyung never had enough of that call,the way his name rolled out of Jimin's tongue with ease like it's exactly there where it belonged.Taehyung smiled at that.

"Tae"

Taehyung's smile dropped slightly in realization that the call wasn't his imagination anymore.He turned around to see Jimin in his oversized coat,one of the shoes with untied laces like he was in some hurry.Taehyung,lips parted and breath constricting his very being  in surprise,stared at the figure.Unasked questions loomed over their heads.How did Jimin know he was here? How did he even find him?But then again,Didn't Jimin always find him,whenever he wanted to hide from the world yet be found by his one and only.

"Jimin-", Taehyung started.

"I..I couldn't just let you go",Jimin said and Taehyung's mouth open slightly.
"There are..",Jimin stopped to wipe a threatening tear off the corner of his eyes,"There are things I want to tell you..I want you to know before you go"
"Jimin", Taehyung called out again but he wasn't really sure what he was going to say but it didn't matter cause Jimin didn't look like he would be welcoming any conversation,not right now.

"I love you..I loved you 5 years ago and still do", Jimin's breath came out in white puffs and desperation,"But I never knew it.I didn't know this is how it feels like.I didn't know I loved you but everyone else did..Jisoo did,Joonie hyung did,my mom did and even naive Jungkook realized it"
Jimin searched Taehyung's eyes for some kind of revelation,a realization of sorts ,but it was difficult to read off Taehyung's thoughts and he failed miserably.

"Now I don't know what to do with it,I don't know what I'll do if you leave again,if I let you slip away again when I know that every road I take leads back to you.How could I stand here and watch you walk away when I could have done something..something.. anything",Jimin desperately looked at his hands like he was holding some invisible solution to everything.

"Jimin..maybe,you're just..", Taehyung found his voice from the deepest abyss,hands itching to reach out to Jimin to calm him down but Jimin had left the ground.

"Don't..don't finish that sentence..cause, Taehyung..Tell me why I am awake at 4 in the morning every single day,tell me why there is a f*cking empty jar of dead fireflies under my bed,tell me why my heart is heavy ,why I want to hold you,why I just can't hate you..just..just get over you.I said I never wanted to see you since you left but I sat by Nakdong hoping you are at the other end or something,Tell me,Taehyung",Now Jimin's voice dropped from a confused rage to a whisper,"Tell me why that we hurt each other but still your's is the name I remember when am happy,sad or down..why do I want to share everything with you?"

Jimin was losing it,Taehyung can see that and he took a step forward,still hesitating to reach out to Jimin,when Jimin raised his head to meet Taehyung's eyes.Taehyung couldn't take it anymore and he slowly slid his hands across Jimin's chin to cup his face into his large palms.

"Go on and break my heart again",Jimin mumbled under his breath,lips barely moving and a tear that's Taehyung's own escaped him,landing over Jimin's rosy cheeks.

Taehyung's thumb brushed their tears together and Jimin closed his eyes,leant against the touch.Taehyung pressed a kiss on Jimin's forehead and Jimin's hand wound around Taehyung's waist,head tilted to rest against the younger's chest to heed the spiking heartbeat.

"I love you too", Taehyung gasped at being able to say that without hesitation,regret or pain,"I love you so much that it hurts"

And like that Taehyung found his happiness,the one they always talked about.In each other's arms.His head over the crop of Jimin's fluffy hair,at times pressing soft kisses on top of it mingled with Jimin's sighs against his shirt.

Nakdong saw it all,their stories,pain and worries and how Taehyung found his happiness.

"I have the world's worst academics", Taehyung said and Jimin couldn't help but giggle,he separated few inches to catch Taehyung's sulky face.
"You should go,I'll wait for you",Jimin tapped Taehyung's cold nose and Taehyung scrunched them up.He shook his head slightly,"Like some soldier's wife,huh? You must be mad to think am going to spend even  a minute away from you"

"Some might say you're obsessed with me", Jimin's smile was the prettiest under the rising sun and Taehyung sighed,grieving on how he would have missed it for the rest of his life.

"I know for sure Yoongi hyung thinks so"
"Oh,God!! He will hate me more now",Jimin gasped.

"It's alright,I'll compensate to that",Taehyung said as he leant down.Taehyung's nose brushed lightly against Jimin's little nose and Taehyung closing the distance between them is the last thing Jimin saw before he closed his eyes against the press of Taehyung's thin lips over his plump ones,hands immediately going up to hook around Taehyung's neck to pull him further in until they were smiling into the kiss,basking in happiness that the first kiss and the last kiss belonged to Taehyung.Yoongi can hate him all he wants.

A/n:Please please comment and let me know if you liked the book.It means a lot to me.

I'll upload epilogue for "Goodbyes hurt" in few days and we can start our journey with "Streets of Daegu"
I hope to see y'all there..love you loads, Thankyou for reading this book.