trepidation | h.s

Epilogue

*the finale was just posted before this, make sure you read that first!*

Lydia Styles

4 years later...

Have you ever lived as if you were dreaming?

The water is running calmly under the rising sun. There's a small breeze, whispering through the tree leaves but not enough to cause any disturbance. The sand is golden, painted by the sun's early luminance. 

There's cracked cobblestone leading up to wooden stairs. There's pavement, put there manually a few years ago. There's a house sitting, watching it all. My house.

Our house.

This has to be a dream, doesn't it? 

I'm taking in every moment, because who knows when I may wake up. 

"Hey,"

That voice.

His arms wrap around my waist as he stands tall behind me, his fingers briskly touching the fabric of my pyjamas. He smells of mint, his body warm, his touch so familiar.

"You alright?" his voice coaxes again, into my neck this time.

I'm not dreaming.

This is my life.

A smile crawls onto my face and I nod. "Just watching."

He peers up from my neck, looking at the sun, I can feel his smirk against the side of my head. His cheeks carve into dimples.

"What do you feel right now?" Harry speaks quietly, my hands resting on top of his which were crossed over my belly.

I pause.

What am I feeling?

I feel like I'm locking eyes with a destined stranger in a back alley.

I feel like I'm watching the sunrise with the person who showed me the beauty of it.

I feel like I'm reading Charlotte's Web or the Great Gatsby.

I feel like I'm on a first date, here.

I feel like I'm being reunited with someone I painfully missed for a year.

I feel like I'm in a hospital room, looking at the ultrasound of my baby. Our baby.

I feel like the love of my life has just gotten down on one knee in this rich sand.

I feel like I'm holding my daughter in my arms for the first time.

I feel like I'm in love.

I feel like I can stand out here, unafraid.

I feel like my chest won't get stuck when I try to inhale.

I feel like I can breathe. I feel weightless. I feel happy.

"Peace." I answer his question.