Saving Myself (Law and Order)

Chapter 75♡

Author's note:

This is the start of the date night chapters!! I'll be doing 3 separate chapters in total.. so this one will be based in Nina's P.O.V. enjoy!
Lauren💜

(Nina's P.O.V)

With Axel at my mom's, me and Simon had the entire apartment and night to ourselves. Having a shower, he said that he would cook us some dinner. Taking my shopping bag upstairs, I looked at the outfit. It was a black dress with lace decorated at the end. I remember trying it on and not feeling as confident.. but tonight, I was going to embrace my post baby body for what it was. Using my coconut shampoo, I just pampered myself. Thinking about when me and Simon texted back and forth before we became a couple...

"Who are you texting?" I couldn't stop smiling. Olivia and Amanda were intriuged. "Yeah.. you're making that face. You're blushing!!" Amanda drank her wine as I continued to deny things.. "He's nobody. Just some guy." Olivia said that she knew me so well. "Well, if you're happy. That's all that matters."

The coconut smell was gorgeous. As I really thought about my lovely, kind, sweet, good looking, caring partner.. I couldn't stop smiling. He made me feel good. And safe. As I stepped out of the shower, I could smell the dinner. He was cooking our favorite. Pork stir fry was delicious. After I finished in the bathroom, I got ready. Taking my hair out, I let if flow in front of my face. I moisturized my face. Looking at myself in the mirror, I smiled. Heading downstairs, I stood by the kitchen door.. Simon was in his own world sorting out the dinner. 'Um?' He then looked at me. His eyes then sparkled. 'You.. look..' I think he was speechless. As I sat down at the table, Simon told me that I looked beautiful. 'Thanks.' I was blushing. As he brought the dinner over on the plates, I made the drinks. 'This is so tasty Si.' He giggled. 'I'm glad that you like it.' He then told me something. 'I love you so much Nina. You're funny, sweet, gorgeous, smart..' I continued to eat my food. 'Thanks. You're kind, sweet, handsome. There are so many things that I could say..' He reached for my hand across the table. 'You've adapted to both me and Axel so well. I couldn't really open up before. I was so defensive, closed off.' I felt a light squeeze. 'Just thankyou. Thankyou for being amazing.' Once we had finished dinner, I took his hand. His other hand touched my face.

 'Your skin is so soft baby. You're stunning.' I touched his cheek. 'You haven't shaved. I love the stubble.' As we sat on the sofa, he kissed me. 'I wanted to tell you some things..' Simon sat up. 'The reasons why I hid for so long was because Seth abused me. He attacked me physically.' Simon squeezed my hand. 'The relationship between us wasn't great at all. I thought I was in love. Being someone's property... He was sweet in the beginning. He treated me, brought me flowers, cared about me. Then, one day, he sexually took advantage of me. Olivia helped me find somewhere to stay. I found out that I was pregnant. It frightened me. I wanted a termination. instantly. I remember going for my assault kit.. I cried through the whole thing. Liv and Amanda supported me through it.  He would become so drunk to the point where he would also verbally abuse me too. I went through months of thinking that I wasn't worthy enough to become a mother, let alone get to know or be with someone.' He held me.. 'Nina, you are the best thing that's happened to me. I love you and Axel so much. Yes, he might not be biologically mine, but I'm with him every day. I watch tv with him, give him baths, play with him.' I giggled at that. 'I feel like you have been more of a father to him. I just feel like I am still doubting myself as a mom.' He then took my hands. His touch felt warm. Soft. 'Axel is so lucky to have you as his mom. You are fab. You're lucky to have him as a son.' How was this sweet guy mine? I slowly kissed him. 'We can take tonight as slowly as you want honey.' His body was so gentle. His lips caressed my neck.. leaning on the sofa, his fingers touched my lips. 'Are you sure you wanna do this? Are you ready?' I said yes. 'I trust and love you. So, so much.' 

He then proceeded to loving me as best as he could. His hands slid up my dress.. I lifted up his t-shirt. His skin was EVERYTHING! As I left kisses on his chest, his hands stroked through my hair. 'Oh.. wait.' He got protection. 'You're such a gentleman.' He laughed huskily.. 'We have to be careful.' I agreed. 'We don't want any more kids yet.. right?' Si agreed. 'Not yet.. it doesn't mean that we can stop trying though.' I continued to let him love me. His body moved slowly against mine. 'Nina.. scream for me..' The more he went inside of me, the more I wanted to scream.. 'Si..' I moaned as he left a mark on my neck. 'I adore your figure babe. It's nice.' I felt really confident when I was like this with him. I kissed his neck.. leaving a mark on his. 'You're pretty incredible.' He reached his climax.. He then buried his head in my neck.. 'That was awesome baby. I wouldn't mind round two..' I laughed at the thought of him pulsing through my body. 

He made me feel so good....