Saving Myself (Law and Order)

Chapter 64♡

(Olivia's P.O.V)

Getting up, I went to have a quick shower. I had to help Elliot. It was another bad night for him. He was screaming, holding on to me pretty tight.. It was hurting him. He was suffering. Letting the water touch my body, I thought about how I could get my love some help. "Da Da!" Caleb had started trying to stand up. it was interesting. I then heard Paige. "Hey baby bro." She was loving and kind. As I turned off the shower, I heard Ariel. "Hey Mom. I heard Dad up and down last night.. is everything ok?" Wrapping the towel around my body, I said no. "I need your help." As Paige kissed my cheek, she said that she would be in the bathroom. "I can't wait for school. I said that I would sit with Jayden today." We both giggled. "I'll help her get ready Mom. Then I'll get sorted." Going into our bedroom, I heard my phone ringing. It was Carisi. "Hey. What's up?" He explained that we had a few guys coming in. "Just for some extra weapon traning." I told him to direct them to our on site weapon range.

"I'll be there soon." I then thanked him. I turned to see my love sleeping. He was exhausted. After I got dressed, I went to kiss Elliot. "I'll text you later. Love you Stabler." Heading downstairs, Ariel had sorted breakfast for Paigey and Caleb. "Thankyou very much sweetheart." I hugged her. "This really helps." She said that she had made a bacon sandwich for me and that it was in the microwave. "You're too sweet." Paigey then went to clean her teeth. "That was yummy mommy. Caleb is a bit messy though.' Our little boy..😍 "Mama!" I kissed him. Taking him out of his highchair, I snuggled him. "You're so cute!" Looking at the time, I saw that we were ok. "I'll get my backpack ready for school as well Mom." Ariel headed off upstairs. Checking Caleb's backpack, I got a text from Lucy.

Hi Olivia,

I'm still available to pick up the kids from school at 3pm. And I'll pick up Caleb too if you like?😊

Lucy

Texting her back, I smiled. I was so grateful for the extra help.

Thankyou very much Lucy. That would be great. I'll just need to drop the pushchair off to you.😊

After I had cleaned Caleb up, I strapped him into his car seat. "You're becoming so big now buddy. Mommy loves you." Kissing his cheek, he smiled. As the girls came downstairs, they went to put their lunches in their backpacks. "I'll sit with Paige and Caleb in the car mom. Don't forget your breakfast." I wrapped up my sandwich in some foil. Grabbing Paige's other snack for her friend, I left the house. "Let's go kids!" As I drove them to school, Ari told me about her art club. 'It starts after school. Is it still ok for me to go Mom?" I said yes. "I could always get Auntie Amanda to walk you home." She smiled. Art club would be great for her.

"Miss Haywood said they are starting a cheerleading club very soon too Mommy." Paige loved the idea of being a cheerleader. She was always so active around the house. "Oh.. did she sweetie?" As we pulled up outside Ari's school, she saw Ria. "Hi Mrs Benson." I said hi. "Please.. call me Olivia." She smiled. "See you later on Mom. I'll text you. Love you." Ari gave her siblings a cuddle. "Have fun at nursery buddy." Caleb loved his older sister so much. "And you have fun at school sis." Paige kissed her cheek. As we waved bye, I made my way to Paige's school. "Hi Olivia." Lydia, Cece's mom waved. "Hi Lydia. Are you ok?" She said that she was fine. "Have you got my number?" She said no. I wrote it down for her. "I'll text you and we'll catch up." Paige gave me a kiss. "Keep me informed about cheerleading club sweetie." As she ran towards Cece. "Let's get my little boy to nursery." He was so quiet on the way there.

I was a busy mom this morning. Seeing Lucy outside, she waved. "Morning Lucy. I'm sorry I've taken a bit longer. His pushchair is here." I took him into nursery. "Mama! Mama!" Lucy smiled. "He's very happy today." As he was handed over to the nursery assisant, I kissed him goodbye. Handing her a spare apartment key, she thanked me. "I'll let you know when I've collected them. "Have a good day." When I got in the car, I just took a deep breath.

When I arrived at work, 2 officers were waiting for me. "Hi. You must be Olivia Benson?" I said yes. "We are the weapon training officers." I followed them to our on site range. Finn, Carisi and Amanda were already suited up. "Morning Liv. We thought that this morning was chaotic." I laughed. "You have no idea! Let's get some traning done."

Weapon traning was part of the job. It was good to really show those guys who was boss! "Next best shot on their target sheet buys drinks next week!" Amanda proposed a good idea.. "Ok Rollins! Let's do it!" Carisi and her were so cute!😍 Pop! Bam! Pop! Pop! 'Dang!" Finn and Carisi were so mad..😜😂 "woooo! Girls rule!" After our traning session, we went back into the office. Amanda then asked to talk. "How was this morning?" Sitting down on the couch, I clasped my hands together. "Last night was awful. Elliot had another bad night's sleep. I'm arranging a hospital appointment for him today. He needs to talk to someone." Amanda asked me if we nedeed help with the kids. "Lucy's going to look after them whilist I try and get him to a hospital." Amanda looked concerned. "He's suffering from PTSD." Amanda looked at me.. she felt bad for me and the kids. "Are you alright?' I admitted that I felt drained. "How about you go and get some rest in the cribs?" Amanda had a point. If Elliot had any chance of recovery, I had to look after myself. "You're right. Thanks." Heading down there, I got a blanket and pillow.

Just letting my body rest, I rang Nancy. "Hi Nancy. Yes. The kids are fine. I rang you because I needed your help." I told her everything. "Awww.. my son is really hurting. Charlie should come too. We need to intervene. He needs us more than ever." I had to text him to tell him that I'd pick him up for the 'blood test.' Telling her that I would pick her up for 4.00pm, she said that both her and Charlie would be ready by then. "See you soon." Ending the call, I got some more rest. Knowing the kids weren't really affected made me feel better. Paigey was still growing.. she knew that he was sad, but that was it. Ari was the oldest. She could tell that something was wrong.. Caleb was nearly 1. One year of me and Elliot being his mommy and daddy. He loved his dad so much. And he loved me too. I let my eyes close..

"I'm Elliot Stabler. I've just transferred here from another unit." Amanda looked across at me. "Hi. I'm Olivia Benson. I'm guessing that Cragen put us together?" He nodded. "Yep he did." He then followed me to the coffee station. "What was your other unit like?" He laughed. "The guys had good banter. My boss was alright. I just had anger issues."oh.." I felt nervous around him already.. this felt weird.

End of flashback...

(Elliot's P.O.V)

I had gotten dressed, had something to eat.. I just honestly wanted to go back to bed. But I had a message from Liv.

I've booked a blood test for you. I'm on my way home to pick you up.

Authours Note: First of all, I love writing this book so much. Each chapter and idea is just such a joy to expand on. I really hope you enjoy this chapter. All the love and support means the world to me. ENJOY!!!xxx

Lauren💕