Saving Myself (Law and Order)

Chapter 7♡

Author's Note:

I thought that this song by Zara Larson would be fitting for my next chapter. This next section will be a flashback to the happier times with Matthew and Nina.. and the lead up to the turbulent times in their relationship.

(Nina's P.O.V)

Matthew was so romantic. He had booked a night away at a really nice hotel. We had been seeing each other for about 5 months. I just knew that he was the one for me. Looking at the date on the conformation email, I squealed quietly. Getting up, I went to the wardrobe. We had a beautiful home. Amazing interior design filled each wall. 'Hey you.' Opening my wardrobe, I picked out my flowery top with my blue jeans. Switching on the shower, I jumped in. I loved Matthew a lot.

Things were good with him at the moment. Just letting the water run over my body, I heard footsteps.. "Nina.." He slowly opened the door. "Hey baby. I'm just letting you know that I'm all packed. Could I jump in with you?" He made me blush..😍 Encasing his arms around me, I felt his lips on my cheek.. "You're so beautiful. I love you." Feeling his hand run along my spine, I gasped. "Matt.." His lips then transferred to my lips.. as his hands touched my bottom, I felt his manhood stiffen. "Just fuck me Matt.." He did what I desired.. he was so good at loving me. "Ahh Nina.. you taste so good." He then released in my insides.. "That was amazing." As we both got dressed, we took our bags downstairs.

Getting dressed, Matthew looked at me. "You're beautiful. I can't wait to treat you at dinner time." This was going to be so nice.

3 months later...

"NINA! I'M GOING TO KILL YOU!!" Running down the road.. I could feel blood seeping on my cheek. I ran straight to Olivia's apartment.. my hand was flinching. "Liv.. please.. please. Open the door." She saw my face. Completely worried, she took me in. "Again? Nina.. you can talk to me." Treating my cuts, I just wanted to feel safe. "You are staying with me. I'm not taking  no for an answer. "Elliot is out with some friends. Do you want to press charges?" Sickness rised inside of me. "I don't know." My phone then rang. It was him. 'Liv.." She took the phone. 'Listen to me. You sick idiot. If you ever hurt my best friend again, I will come and hunt you down. Don't ever come near her again.. ever." Ending the call, she hugged me. "What if he comes back?" Olivia told me that he wouldn't. As the evening went on, Amanda just told me how strong I was. "You're going to get through this. I promise." As I drifted off to sleep, Liv texted Elliot. "You so love him to bits. He loves you." Laughing quietly, I decided to get some sleep too.♡

End of Flashack..

(Nina's P.O.V)

I'm actually having my vile ex boyfriend's baby. Liv just held me. "It's going to be ok.." I didn't know what to do. "An abortion is best.." Liv squeezed my hand as Amanda sat beside me. Taking my other hand. "You are definitely making a hasty choice." She looked so lost. 'What if I'm not a good mom? You're amazing. You deserve this." Amanda told me that I would be a awesome mom. "Having someone who could call you it's mommy one day is the best feeling." Olivia agreed. "Despite the sickness. And the sleepless nights." Giggling, Amanda just told me that they would be both help me through my situation. "My baby is on my bladder so I'm just going to the loo." Olivia stood up. I let the tears fall.. I couldn't even tell them why I didn't want the child. Matthew raped me. I let him take advantage. My body still hurts." Tears filled my eyes as Amanda held on to me.

We left the hospital to go back to Amanda's flat. "Mommy!!" Jessie ran towards her. Her and Billie were adorable. "Are you ok?" Liv touched my shoulder. "Yes. I think I'm ok." Making me a drink, Amanda asked Jessie if she had cleaned her teeth. "Yes I have mommy. Uncle Sonny is in the shower." I saw Amanda smile. "Is he? How about you go to your bedroom, read a story? I'll be in your bedroom to tuck you in soon." Saying goodnight to me and Liv, she walked to her room. "So?" I giggled along with Liv..😆 "Why were you so weird about Carisi being here?" She confessed that she's still getting used to them being a couple. "4 months. It's been 4 months." Olivia's phone then rang. "Hi Elliot. Aw, you don't have to. Yes. I know I'm  carrying your child. Alright. At Amanda's. See you soon." As I drank my water, Olivia yawned.. rubbing her stomach. "I've got the first scan tomorrow. Elliot offered to pick me up. He's just worried. To be honest, I am tired. Growing another human is difficult."

We both said goodnight to Billie and Jessie. "They will always be adorable." Amanda reminded me and Liv to text her as soon as they got home. 'Love you both!" Leaving her house, we stood outside. "Elliot better not lecture me on staying out too late." My best friend was so independent.. but she always let her guard down when it came to loving Elliot. "Hi Liv. Nina." Getting in the car, Elliot asked why we were so long. "We had some stuff to deal with." The energy then felt very tense as Elliot started questioning Liv.. "Will you be quiet?! I'm exhausted!" As soon as the car pulled up, Elliot ran after Olivia.

"Liv. I'm sorry." She went upstairs to get ready for bed. "I'll go." Following her upstairs, Elliot sat on the stairs. Hearing my best friend cry wasn't nice. "I just don't like him controlling me. I'm hormonal, not even wanting to be near him is proving very difficult." I hated that my best friend felt like this.. "Liv, what are you saying?"

She had tears in her eyes.. "I feel like rubbish. He doesn't get what I'm going through.'

My friend was lost and she felt alone. I had to fix this.