A/N: The absolute stifler of young mental health, freedom, joy, and GODAMN POPSICLE SPACE IN THE GODAMN FREEZER-
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Of course, not all of you guys here are Asian. If you're new here, hi :)
If you know me, but you're not Asian, then you should know that my parents are SUPER strict :-(
If you know me and are also Asian, THEY'RE SO PRESSURING RIGHT?? >:(
Enjoy me ranting about my parents <3
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Okay quick note before I start ranting. I love my parents, and they love me, but I just feel like some things could be improved in our relationship.
So parents. You either love them, hate them, or think that they're just mines in YOUR house that drank your GODAMN MILK TEA-
Ha! What I'm saying is that my parents love is pretty bittersweet. If they're feeling good or cheerful, I'll get a good day. But if they're feeling bored, angry, tired, sick, or whatever, then my day goes downhill from there. I'm usually happiest when they're asleep or busy!
Hey that's how it is. Either hear them empty their tonsils and be grumpy or enjoy a night of tranquility and YouTube on my Kindle >:)
A lot of people say that I'm lucky because I go to swim team a lot, or that I'm great at drawing, or that I'm smart, or that I get to roller skate outside by myself. But it sounds cooler than it is.
Swim team meets are brutal, I only show off my good drawings, I couldn't get into a school cause a) they didn't let Asian kids with a score lower than perfect get in (wtf school >:( ) and b) I got stuck on the stupid waitlist, and my neighborhood is tiny btw! If you get to skate around my neighborhood without adults trailing your every move, then most likely you're 10 or older 0-0
So yeah I'm really NOT lucky. My life is pretty sucky in my eyes. On the surface I get plenty of time to chill and read, but I feel this weird shame when I do stuff like eat a hearty lunch, or write on Wattpad, or even go to sleep without finishing my Chinese homework. It's like, I'm not worth all this.
My parents are always pressuring me to do something great, like ace a SSAT test (I have to wait for a while to take the next one though ;-;) or win a swim meet (which I've never done except for one race that they disqualified me in cause I didn't touch the wall with both hands at the same time >:( ).
But with all the boundaries they set for me, it's kind of like giving a person only a few sticks and expecting them to build a house out of them.
Not to mention my parents' temper. Back in primary school, I was told a lot that I get mad, sad, or frustrated easily, and you could tell when I was about to cry because I blinked really fast, and tried not to show it. It worked horribly by the way.
I'm getting better at controlling my temper now, and I think the school counselor was the only one who understood. I spent hours in her room, and I wish I could go back and talk to her. She's like our personal shrink.
I think I get it from my parents, because the smallest things piss them off, and then they become grumpy and mean.
Let's get to know my parents!
Dad:
~Gets really mad sometimes
~Likes to spank me for punishment (it's better than it sounds don't worry 😅)
~Brags about how he was a top student (I'm still doubtful 0-0 )
~Wants me to work at Google or Microsoft like him (I'm terrible at coding by the way ;-; )
~Loves taking us on vacations
~Chases after birds and small animals in our backyard (???)
~Wants me to be taller (I'm already tall for my age) and slimmer (for the record I am not fat >:( look at yourself dad)
~Blocked a lot of sites on my computer and forbids me to use my computer for anything "inapropriate" (like writing on Wattpad 0-0 )
A/N: DON'T GO CHASING AFTER MY PARENTS PLEASE
Mom:
~Only accepts the best
~Has a soft spot for bunnies (like Ash the bunny!), coconut, nuts, Chinese singers, and staying in her room and watching YouTube (that's where I get it from :D )
~Lectures me when I'm in trouble, and BOY do her words sting ;-;
~Wants me to speak perfect Chinese
~Sometimes argues with dad. Loudly 0-0
~Wants me to be the best in school
~Always persuading me to get better at what I do, but it just makes me feel ashamed
~Is currently working so I'm doing this under her nose :)
~Is obviously homophobic >:(
A/N: DON'T CHASE AFTER THEM-
BISEXUAL 4 LIFE <3 (tried to find a flag but couldn't f u google :P )
I just hope my parents don't find my Wattpad account, because then I'd be doomed.
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Thank you so much for your support and words!
This chapter was really angsty to write, and no I'm not roleplaying there's only TRUE stories here.
Please don't go chasing after my parents 😅
Let me know if your parents are like this too in the comments, and don't forget to vote and follow me so you know whenever I post another rant 0-0
Baiiiiiiiiiiiii for now AND DON'T CHASE AFTER THEM :-)
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