Here I am living despite it all

Home?

Disclaimer-I do not own Addison, Meredith or any of the Greys characters Shonda Rhimes owns them. I only own mollie.

Mollies POV-

I walked into the large house alongside Meredith and Addison. I was nervous well actually I was terrified I hardly knew these people and well my past wasn't good and I was unsure how they would cope with me, I had always been a burden to everyone around me and I was really trying not to do the same thing again. I felt a connection to Addison not sure why, but I felt safe when I was in her arms, she reminded me of my mother.

~FLASHBACK~

"Mummy mummy help ahhhhh"

"What's wrong darling is it a bad dream again" my mother came and pulled me into a hug

"Mummy I love u" I whimpered into her chest

"Shhh darling feel your skin against mine and breathe, sleep will come my love all in good time and I'll be here the whole time. I'm never going to leave you mollie darling".

~END FLASHBACK~

"You okay" I heard Addison ask me as she put a hand on my shoulder

"Oh yeh no I'm fine"

"Okay you know you can speak to me or Addison anytime, remember we have been through this we can help babe" Meredith told me, I appreciated it but I didn't need their help. I was going to leave in the morning I was a waste of space.

"Cmon I'll show you to your room" Addison and Meredith said in unison pulling me from my train of thought.

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I was taken up to this beautiful big room on the second floor, outside of my window there was a big oak tree leading to the ground below. My escape was going to be easy

I was pulled out of my thoughts yet again by Meredith this time

"Mollie honey we need to set rules to keep you safe alright" I rolled my eyes slightly and let them blab on

"Firstly we will be locking all sharps away from you, doors mustn't be closed apart from the bathroom we will give you privacy in there unless we have reason to believe you are unsafe, you will have to eat at least 3 meals a day whether that be lots of snacks or 3 full meals and finally windows and doors will be  locked at night so you can't escape" Addison spoke softly

"Don't think we don't know you were planning a runner trust me it won't work, also final rule we have is always tell us things like if you have self harmed or have urges,  you tell us you have an urge to do something either Addison or I will try and distract you until it passes. If your still distressed after a while then you can self harm but it must be in front of us" Meredith added

"For fuck sake I'm leaving" I said angrily attempting to run out of the house but getting stopped by Alex Karev walking in and catching me

"Woah cmon now let's go back inside"

"LET ME GO NOW I SWEAR TO GOD" I screamed as Alex picked me up off the floor kicking and screaming and popped me onto the couch

"Mollie honey  c'mere let's talk this through alright" Meredith stretches her hand out pulling me into an embrace which I resist at the start but eventually I break down in tears my whole body shaking, my skin crawling I need to get out of my own head so badly

"Shhhhh its okay I got you baby I got you" Meredith rocked me back and forth and I felt so weak, normally I would fight against her but no I melted to her touch and I rode out my panic.

"I'm sorry I think I just need to sleep" I whispered

"Alright remember the rules though" Addison said as she rubbed my back

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Merediths POV-

I was awoken to a crying noise and the sound of someone throwing up, I immediately woke Addison up and I went into mollies room to check on her. We found her curled up by the toilet, her fingers coated in bile and her thighs bleeding along with a dirty blade strewn across the floor. My heart broke I was frozen in my position but luckily Addison went and cradled the girl in her arms

"It's alright baby your okay I'm sorry you felt the need to do this to yourself, you should have woke us" Addison rocked the girl as mollie gripped onto her Pyjama top for dear life, her whole body shaking.

"I'll get the Med kit" I stuttered as I ran to the cupboard to get the suture and first aid kit.

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"Okay mollie look at me your going to be fine this will hurt a lot but Addisons got you alright just listen to her heart beat honey" I shushed the still distressed mollie

"Please no no I don't need stitches please just let me be in pain please I don't deserve anything at all please" the girl cried and cried.

I cleaned off her wound to asses it further to see if I could get away with using steri strips and a bandage but one of the cuts would have to be stitched as it was too open for a steri strip to pull the skin together.

"Okay mollie so one of these cuts will have to be stitched up but the others can get away with getting steri stripped and wrapped up with a bandage although it will leave a bigger scar but it's up to you"

"Can you just use the steri strips on the ones that don't need stitched up please I can't bare to be stitched up" the girl whimpered into Addisons chest while Addison was stroking her matted hair

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I finished the steri strips and bandages and was moving onto the sutures

"Okay take a breath in for me mollie" I said softly as mollies head was still buried in Addisons neck

"No no no get off me don't touch me please no" mollie jumped out of Addisons arms and ran to the bedroom cowering in the corner bawling her eyes out

"Mollie I won't hurt you I promise" I tried placing a hand on the girls shoulder soothingly but she just pulled away harshly

"Mollie baby come here she won't hurt you I promise alright it will be fine okay it won't take long then we can watch a movie and snuggle and you also need a snack Mrs" Addison swiftly lifted the girl onto the bed and she finally gave in and let me stitch her up. Mollie was crying the whole time but eventually we got there.

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Mollies POV

"Meredith Addison ccan I plplease sleep in your bed I I I'm scared" I asked because it was true I was terrified of everything and they made me feel safe

"Of course" Meredith said and she pulled me into a deep hug lifting me into her arms and plopping me in her and Addisons bed and left me to get changed. I had no clothes with me so I had to wear one of Merediths old shirts but it was comfy. Addison and Meredith had left to go and get themselves changed and I just curled on the bed knees to my chest crying softly to myself wishing I was dead, I was living but I didn't want to and I was unsure how I was meant to admit that to Addison and Meredith. I was a burden as always.

END CHAPTER

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